The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Spring Into Summer.

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Hello

Welcome to The Brave Babes Battle Bus.

This is a quest full of Babes, all fighting to remain sober, cut down or are somewhere in between right now.

You ticket to travel is free, it won't expire, and the Bus will always be here, even if there are days when you are not. So come say hi.

I'm Mouse. I have a thing for cheese and vodka, not together, well, not always!

Here is a LINK to the last thread, where you can read all of the previous threads and the journeys so far.

hehehe, looking forward to boinginess!!
I am sure i will fall off the bus but just thought the drinking every day is a nonno if i dont want to turn into a repetitive baloon!

Wierd i got really itchy too. I think its the liver detoxing apparently. No wonder its still itchy!!!

Back to my powerpoint, urgh deeper joy!!

Afternoon everyone. Well, I did drink yesterday and now feel shit but it's kind of strengthened my resolve to keep going and am now firmly back on the wagon.I've more or less made a decision to separate from DH (long story and more for relationships thread). I feel a funny mixture of sad and relieved and at least i can now focus on practical things like trying to sell the house and find somewhere to live rather than trying to make it work and failing miserably.
thornrose brilliantly well done. I am also stuffing my face with sweet stuff - it definitely helps and is nowhere near as bad for you as booze.
Golly Oh my God, you poor thing. There has been a lot of sound advice on here and I totally echo what's been said about not feeling bad about asking for help. I'm a mental health nurse and work with young adults with psychosis and what always astounds me are the number of people who come our way who have clearly been unwell for years but the parents have just buried their heads in the sand or not sought help because they feel ashamed/embarassed and, as a result, some of the people we see already have a chronic illness by the time they're 20 and will probably never get back to their previous level of functioning. With intensive intervention now, there's no reason why your DD shouldn't turn out to be a lovely adult. Were the ODs serious ones or more a kind of cry for help?Thinking of you anyway.
I feel kind of blown away by all the stuff some of you are up against and how well you cope, it's quite humbling. The fact that many of you have also managed to stop drinking makes you superhuman IMHO. Have a good day babes. I am definitely not going to drink today.

Hello again. I am very very depressed today . The work situation is looking bleak, I just can't seem to find anything really. After mucking up that (non) interview last week, then having a couple of drinks at the weekend, I just feel like a complete failure. I am so worried about everything. I keep going swimming but can't even muster up much energy for more than a few lengths and am smoking too much, which really isn't a huge help Have decided not to go back to AA just because I think it might bring me down a bit - I may return at some point, but for now am just going to do my best. Sorry to be so pathetic, especially since so many of you are going through proper bad times. I just wanted to come on and say hello.

whitewinewitch you don't have to fall off the bus you know! , just for today - stay on and enjoy the ride, Silver is a pretty good bus driver!

upsy sorry to hear that your relationship is not looking too good, it's never easy to realise that the road your life has taken is one that you don't want to be on anymore. But you are in the right place to make that decision, it will be really difficult, but I have been told that there is no situation that alcohol cannot make worse, and I really do believe that.

lovecorrie hugs to you, you sound really miserable at the minute, try and not project about the job situation, what positive steps can you do today? Can you send your CV off to some agencies. Can you make any amendments to your CV today. Try and do one positive thing about it today, no matter how small. The worst thing that can happen is nothing, and you won't have lost anything.
Sorry that you feel that AA is making it worse, is there anyone there that you feel you have connected with that you could possibly call, and maybe have a coffee.

Just keep posting, no matter how trivial it is good to get things off your chest rather than to bottle them up.

Bafana

indie don't you find it amazing just how much puke a little one can hold?
do you like Mary Oliver's poems too? I have posted "The Journey " on here before - it is my comfort blanket. for those who don't know it, and may take hope from it, here it is again:
The Journey

One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you
kept shouting
their bad advice --
though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles.
"Mend my life!"
each voice cried.
But you didn't stop.
You knew what you had to do,
though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers
at the very foundations,
though their melancholy
was terrible.
It was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen
branches and stones.
But little by little,
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice
which you slowly
recognized as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do --
determined to save
the only life you could save.

~ Mary Oliver

Love that poem, have it printed out and read it often Ma!!

gromit

can i have my ticket back please? things have been ok but i'd like to have a seat again if I'm allowed?

ok except a few minor ups and downs with dh. generally better though. he is still not doing anything about his booze relationship...

i however have managed to outdo myself culminating in spectacularly falling off my controlling bus and downing 3 bottles of white at long sunday lunch, afternoon and evening. coupled with no dinner i felt like crap on monday.

better since then and back to half a bottle last night but i just want to come to a lovely warm and welcoming place while i sort myself out a bit more.

what have i missed?

Good evening lovely ones,

Hello Bianca , I'm finding it very fabby that all the names I remember from when I first came on are back .

Isinde Should you be jumping up and down? projectile vomiting anyone , how are the gorgeous DT's, any better?

I have just finished making dinner, and because I was so hungry (am trying to diet), I have made enough to feed the masses (that's me sorted then!).

Is there a Mouse in the house?

I'm now on Day 7 without drinking. I must stop counting the days soon its getting boring. I think it replaces incessantly counting how many glasses/bottles I've consumed. I keep writing little bits here to look back on and remind myself how things are changing for me.
I read everyone elses posts and get comfort from them, I love this place.

Hi BBs! On day 5 after an eleven month return to drinking following 5years sober.

I feel so good!

Sweets consumed: midget gems (only half a bag - honest) mint humbugs (loads) strawberries and ice-cream (I don't even like ice cream)

That's also 40 to 50 quid I've saved so far also

Oh god yes - the money. It's amazing. I never acknowledged how much I was spending on wine, but I can really feel the difference financially already.

Also thorn, I think of the hidden costs - for me, the late night takeaways I'd never have sober, drunk dialling for hours and stuff that's broken or ruined from having booze spilled on it.

That's before even getting on to what it's done to my brain and body, the relationships put under strain, the underperformance at work.

It's so good to wake up with a clear head, having had a good night's sleep and feel ready to face the day.

That's so true, particularly worrying for me is the brain and body part! I guess it's too late to repair what's done there.
I just hope I've stopped in time to make a difference.

The liver repairs itself I think, the bloating and weight gain ( if you get that) will settle, skin will regain its glow, and energy returns as you get refreshing sleep and regular sustenance. ( I am beginning to get my sweet taste back - all that sugar in the alcohol more than killed any sweet tooth I had) Brain - well just need to keep working to create new pathways which is a good exercise anyway - and you're no longer putting yourself at risk of serious damage from accidents either - so don't scare yourself too much thorny.

More on the Sinclair Method. It really seems too good to be true.

www.timesonline.co.uk/tol/life_and_style/health/article5484285.ece