The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Spring Into Summer.

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Hello

Welcome to The Brave Babes Battle Bus.

This is a quest full of Babes, all fighting to remain sober, cut down or are somewhere in between right now.

You ticket to travel is free, it won't expire, and the Bus will always be here, even if there are days when you are not. So come say hi.

I'm Mouse. I have a thing for cheese and vodka, not together, well, not always!

Here is a LINK to the last thread, where you can read all of the previous threads and the journeys so far.

bafana 6 months - wow, well done you. And what a fantastic post! I know that previously my thinking was completely warped, and I imagined that not-drinking would entail a life that was dull and grey. But it's not. It's a life that is real - sometimes great, sometimes a bit crap - but one where I can wake up in the morning and appreciate the bright sky, one where I can remember (without cringing) what I did last night, and last weekend, and even last month.

Hi all - two days without a cigarette, one day without a drink! Already feeling better from the lack of tar and chemicals. Big congrats to;bafana and big love to everyone else..

What a wonderful post and congratulations Bafana. Am not drinking but struggling with the desire to in order to switch my mind off for a while. Am worried about DC2's lack of speech and quirky ways. Everything that needs to be done in order to help her is being implemented but the desire to relieve the stress with a few drinks is very strong.
Thanks for the reminder (as if I needed it) that drinking doesn't make anything better or easier to handle. It makes everything a lot worse.
Well done again on hitting the 6 month mark. A great achievement.

Noteven really sorry to hear your mother has passed away, my thoughts are with you.
Ma congrats on completing your 5K.

Bafana - my lovely lady! WELL DONE YOU!! HAPPY 6 MONTHS! Say it loud and proud. Such an achievement. One thing you should do is look back over the very first few posts that you wrote on here, just look at the changes in yourself. The highs and the lows and how far you have come!

Go you! xx

luci - you and me both. That's my battle too. Especially now when Nemo is so poorly. I had to nurse him all through the night so I'm mainlining coffee today! Keep going luci, let's do today together okay?

It's so very hard waiting for your child to get the help or support that they need, even though you know it's coming. Wouldn't it be fantastic to just switch your head off, just for one day. Just to sleep, or relax or just 'be'.

Corrie - well done. I stopped smoking on January 1st 2006. I just woke up one morning and thought 'actually, ths isn't so nice' and that was that. It would be great if I could stop drinking just like that too!

ODAAT, we will all get to where we want to be. Another dry night last night.

Noteven

So sorry to hear about your mum. It is hard when people die, sober or not.

Remember that you will have made her last few months easier and happier by starting to get sober and you should feel proud for that.

Sean

Great post MIFLAW

I'm so sorry for your loss, noteven.

JWN, I'm glad to hear about the counselling. When I read your posts a few days ago I wanted to say - sure, some of the stuff coming out might be because they can trust you now, pent-up anger, etc., but it might also be true that just as you are a flawed person, so are they. I mean, it's eminently possible that your drinking was papering over extant problems, not that it was the sole cause of them. Now that you've stripped away that paper, you can deal with the cracks properly - that doesn't mean that you need to take all the blame, forever, you know?

Hello Tortoise

How are you? How's life sweets? xx

I'm great, thank you Mouseface. Had US scan today - think DD was a bit disappointed that the "photos of the baby inside mummy's tummy" were not in fact technicolour shots of an adorable newborn, but still nice to see some empirical evidence.

I am now enjoying v expensive Brie and a bunch of grapes. These things do not taste any worse for not having a glass of wine to accompany them.

Hope your Nemo is better tonight, love.

Awwww, how many weeks are you now? I'm soooooooooo broody!

Me too re Nemo and sleep. I'd cut my right arm off to get just an hour of pure, deep, unbroken sleep.

Well, I might!

How old is DD? Does she 'get it'?

Oh Mouseling I wish I could send you a special slumber blanket to wrap yourself in - and one for Nemo too....

Thanks 4c4. I'm getting a bit woozy now so if I disappear, it's because I'm in bed!

thurso - are you out there..... are you away sweets and I missed your post? I can't remember.

Not seen you post for a while, are you okay? xx

^ is anyone there? I am connected!!!!!!!

Noteven I am so, so sorry for your very sad loss. Look after yourself, Miflawis right, you will have made your mum so proud and happy by being sober, and able to be with her. Take care.

Mrs Mousiethemouseface How are you, sweetpea. You have been having a rough time of it lately, and lack of sleep magnifies everything, I remember it well! I think that children take out their anger and frustrations on the ones that they know love them unconditionally, even at Nemo's young age, bloody hard though. Only yesterday, I told someone for the very first time, what I had gone through with DC1, as a toddler, and youngster, because they were having a bad time with their 5 yr old, and, my crikey, I wish I hadn't, because I had blocked it all off, and then re-lived it last night.

JWN my DC1 is about the same age as your DD, I think, and after I had transferred lots of money into his account this weekend (by heartfelt request), I phoned to make sure he had it, and he said he couldn't talk because he was really tired, and then went on to say that his girlfriend's mother had taken them to lunch, and he got on really well with her, and spent hours enjoying her company (ok he didn't say that, but inferred), I haven't met his girlfriend yet, and have no invitation to do so, am I a bloody money machine? Own agenda's I think! I just don't know.

All lovely babes, I have missed you so much, and sorry not to address you all, I will catch up.
Ma what's occurring, babe? well done on your run, did you get a congratulations prize , still not the bee's knees in that department for me.
Venus Is DD home?

Goodness, this post is all over the place, I am so excited to be back,
Speak later xxxx

X-posted Mouse you lovely.

I'm going to bed, I feel sick I'm so tired. Sorry to post and run but I'm pooped.

Night night babes. Sweet dreams xxxxx

quick check in babes - will be back properly once my friend returns to France - ash cloud permitting.
Thurso same old same old here in that department I'm afraid
Mouseling hope you get some shut eye!

Mouse you have made my day, saying that. Sleep tight.
I am going to bed now,Dh in from cricket, so snores in store!
xxx

Morning Babes and Miflaw,

It is a beautiful sunny morning here, and not windy today!

I can't believe how much I missed my internet connection! What did I do, back in the day? I also can't believe how it took a whole week for someone to come and sort it out, and then three men turned up to fit a modem that is about 4 inches square! Poor DC2 felt like he had been removed to another planet!, still I'm sure he got lots of revision done .

Dh is well, this past week, but, of course, has gone in to "it's all ok now, lets forget about it" mode, whereas I rather feel like I'm waiting for the next time to happen. Terrible, I know I should live in the day, but Dh's last bout of depression has really shaken me, and my feelings, if I tell the truth.

I do also think it's true, that in some ways, being sober throws up problems that one becomes aware of, that have maybe always been there, but not dealt with,well, not without picking up a glass, anyway! I have just become a lot more aware of myself, really.

Crikey, sorry, a bit me, me, me
Can you tell I've missed you
xxxxxx

Hi thurso good to see you around again. Yes dd is home [and so on.....] She is simultaneously just the same, yet grown up by about 10 years! I am so happy.

Morning Babes - and welcome back Thurso (I'm fairly new and not sure we've 'met' :) )

I am motoring along - enjoying my 'staycation' - getting lots done around the house that had been neglected before and just revelling in being clear headed, rested and healthy. AND being able to remember everything I did and said last night!

Lots of long walks with the doggies, trying out some new recipes... went to yoga for second time last night and really enjoyed it.

How is everyone this morn? Mouse did you get some rest?

Morning 4c4,

I joined the bus on October 28th, last year. I had 6 weeks of unbroken sobriety, and then a bit stop, start on the drinking front, I have never stopped posting on here, though, apart from when I was offline last week. It helps me so much to keep on, carrying on .

I hope I am back on track now day, by one day, as we all do.

You sound as if you are having lovely hols. I hope it's sunny where you are.

Quiet day - everyone busy (or sleeping)?

boing! , not quite up to a capital letter 'boing' yet but im getting there!

things are ok here, not great but ok is at least an improvement! - we went out last night with dd and her df and our friends and their dcs to see pirates of the carribean, nice riotous meal first and then a couple of hours gazing at johnny depp (ohh, i so so would! ) dh and i are speaking but not talking iyswim? hey ho, could be worse

one year of soberity on sunday - not sure quite how i feel but im treating it as an achievement!

love to all!! XXXXXXXXXXX