The Brave Babes Carry On Past The Easter Booze Offers.

[NotTheMessiahJustMouseface]

Hello,

I'm Mouse, well, I am usually!

Welcome to the Brave Babes Bus.

This is a journey of sobriety, started almost a year ago by the wonderful jesuswhatnext. So why not come aboard and find a seat. There's heaps of support on here whether you are sober, drinking or somewhere in the middle.

And, for those of you who want a bit of history, here are the Previous Threads

I'm actually quite jealous of those of you have a definite idea of what your HP is. I think part of my problem is that because my HP isn't me, it's not up to me to choose it - that it should somehow magically make itself known to me [buconfused] Is this a common problem with newcomers? am I overthinking it? If I don't believe fully that it's a real thing, how can it possibly help?

Take those bloody rabbit ears off JWN - it's just too 'tickly'

Awww, I like the rabbit ears, they amuse me [bugrin] I like all the seasonal MN emoticons.

oh dear. Asda are doing bags of "teeny-weeny" chocolate eggs, covered in crispy shell. How on earth could I have scarfed down a whole bag?

golly you said in a previous post that 'the power of community' was interesting. Why don't you just sit with that for a while. Your AA community, or this community, or any group where you feel that the collective power of many is better than you'd expect from the simple addition of individual contributions (ever been to a rock concert??). Try that out for a while, see if it does anything for you. If not, there's plenty of time to try something else.

fwiw I think there's a multitiude of things that go on. Simultaneously. Take the whole concept of synchronicity - seemingly random events happening together (which some people would call God acts). Yet science would give a very rational explaination for how a very specific part of the brain (the retucular activating system RAS) looks out for, and recognises things that are in our current attention (which is why if we buy a red car we suddenly see red cars everywhere). Add that to the kind of collective response that you get with a crowd (for example at a rock concert) where you can get a real 'sense' and excitement and deep feeling of something big happening around you. Add that to your own 'intuition' the kind of weird sense of being comfortable or uncomfortable with something.

Put all those together and you start to notice things happening around you, you feel connected with people, and you get a strong sense of your own right / wrongness about things. Is it God? Is it a Higher Power? Is it scientific phenomenon? Actually - who cares? If it has meaning for you, then it has meaning for you. Give it a God name if it helps, call it human spirit, call it human being, call it metaphysics, call it nothing.

But if it stops us fucking up our lives with drink, then accept whatever it is graciously, thankfully and with open arms.

Venus. Thank you, that makes perfect sense, I think I will focus on that as my HP for now. Thank gawd I found you lot, it is so helpful to have different perspectives on things, and it also means I don't hassle my sponsor every hour of the live long day [bugrin]

[bugrin] venus!

golly, yes! i think you are overthinking it! - the bottom line is that you want to be sober, a higher power is only a tool (one of many you can use) to use to get to the end goal, at the end of the day, only your will power is going to make the real difference!, its a daunting thought, one that can overwhelm me if i think too deeply about it, so , living in the day is the only way to do it, i was sober yesterday, im sober today and hopefully i shall remain sober tomorrow, i dont think about next week, next month and certainly not about next year - who knows where lifes twists and turns will take me! - the thing i try and focus on is that TODAY, im sober, happy and enjoying life!

cor blimey venus! that was deep!

Venus - I nearly needed my Tena Lady when I read that about your previous pet!

I'm going to say goodnight Babes. I can't settle so going to watch some tv with my gorgeous DH. 2 hours of cleaning done. More to do tomorrow.

Ma - YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY! Well done you sweets! I can't even walk 2 minutes let alone 2 miles! You are right to be prooud of yourself xx

Right lovelies, I'm offski.

Tomorrow is another day and the Bus will still be here for those who fancy a trip to the beach?

Can anyone drive that far? I can do about half an hour......

Night all xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Evening all

Just checking in, manic week at work, and getting kids settled back to school etc.

Some fantastic conversations going on here at the minute. Loads and loads to think on.
What a fabby bunch of people you are!!

Love to all
Bafana

Morning all babes. Today is Good Friday and I will not be drinking

checking in. I'm up for a trip to the beach as long as Indie isn't driving.
I'm off to take ma (mine, I mean, not me ) shopping, then have to go and visit the old boy and do a spot of weeding for him.
happy days

morning all! - we have a lovley day ahead, meeting dd and bf and going for a mooch round a little old market town and this evening off out with friends to the pub, live band and a bit of a boogie! [bugrin], the housework and the gardening can wait!

Morning all lovely babes,

Sorry to disappear off last night, I went for an early bath, and while I was happily in there, rom com type music on the ipod (very cheesey), DH came home early!
I was quite taken with all Venus' suggestions for a night in on my own, as well!

This morning, we have walked about 4 miles along the seafront, and had tea and toast on the beach, it was lovelley

Have wonderful days all [busmile] xxx

Well, another shite night of no sleep. I think it's time I got my shouty mummy voice out again, seems to work. It's Easter though so no chance of any help befor ethe back end of next week.

Here's a little something that made me cry last night.

DD asked me to cuddle her when she went to bed. So we kind of had a chat. She asked me why I wasn't drunk anymore. She asked why I could remember things that we'd talked about the night/s before.

She said she likes me better when I don't get drunk and when I don't sit on her bed sobbing.

She said she's not worried about going out with me at night anymore and then recalled every single time I had had too much to drink, fallen over, lost my footing and stumbled into a gutter, lost my shoes, purse etc and how that made her feel.

She was really upset and so was I listening to her. She remembers stuff from when Nemo was born and from years before too.

Today I feel a bit bruised by it all. DH is in a foul mood and Nemo has spent the day hitting me so far.

I think I may just go out this afternoon, take Nemo and DD is she wants to come and get myself some space.

Where shall we head to?

Oh Mousie my love
Yup, it's when the children say something that it's a real killer isn't it [busad].

Sending all my love and hugs.

Go out and blow it all away.
xxxxxxxxx

I don't normally moan about DH but he's in such a bad mood. He's pissed off with everyone. He had a go at DD this morning.

He said he was sick of her and was going to ignore her.

Nice.

Thanks for the love thurso xx

aw mouse!, sounds like a change of scene will do the mouse household good!, you know dh didnt mean it and i bet he feels a total shit now!, dd will be fine!, she sounds a lovley little girl! nemo will be alright, perhaps you need to hand him to dh a little more!, especially when he is in a hitting mood!

have a [[hug]]!

well, so far today has been great, had a lovley lunch out with dh, dd and her bf, had a bimble round the shops (dd made me wee in my knickers a bit in a kitchen shop , she wanted a mixing bowl for easter! , who took my kid and swapped her for a sensible one?)

anyway, off out again now, off to the pub with friends, lovely evening for a band, a dance and a few long slim cranberry and limes!

see you later babes!

Hope you have a lovely evening Jesus, especially given the time of year!

All is much clamer here. I told DH how much of a twat child he'd been towards DD. I think sometime sit all just bloody adds up and gets to much for us both. Especially when lack of sleep comes into it too!

Anyway, BBQ time here and I am starved! I'm hoping a quiet Bus means that tall the Babes are okay?

quick post as DS wants on here. have dealt with Dad and his dementia dithering, and taken mum to have her beloved cat put to sleep. have done all the shopping, mum's shopping, dad's gardening, made lunch, made dinner, cleared up aftre dinner, done a load of washing and cleaned the bathroom.
DH is home and grumpy and tired becuase "I've been at work. At least you've had a day off"
Bastard!

Fucking hell Ma - I hate comments like that, laxative in Wednesday morning's coffee? Just long enough for him to forget he'd said it?

Right, off to watch shite tv and veg out. May have an ice cold glass of rose..... just the one mind.

Night Brave Babes xxx

just the one then mouse. I have had a gin and tonic but going to bed shortly. its a better option that wine as I have it in a very tall glass with lots of ice and about half a bottle (big one) of tinic so it's pretty diluted.
Its better than an entire bottle of wine which would be the other option.....

Morning lovelies,

gorgeous one here again today, I hope it's the same with all of you.

I feel quite jolly today, although had a bit of a sigh and disappointed DH, when I very gently spurned his advances this morning.

It will take me a while to try get back into that mode, I think.

I am doing well, on the old sober front, for the moment, but am not shouting it out, because I have failed myself, in a big way before! I'll let you know if it gets as good as last time .

"This bus was looking like a ghost town"........last night, I hope that meant you were all having a great bank holiday, how was the dance JWN?

Ma and Mousie how are you both this morning, Any good sleep for Nemo Mouse.

Off to hang the washing out {smile}

Lots of love
xxxxx

Morning babes - we had a such a lovely day yesterday. I had a meeting with some business contacts with great potential, the sun was shining all day, met dp and visited I-Ls, warm, balmy evening when just for a couple of hours all felt right with the world.

Who knows if it'll last, who knows if potential business will actually happen, but in those few hours, things felt calm, and optimistic, and good. So no point in being anxious about past or future, I just let happiness happen.