Morning Fairy, I'm so glad to see that yesterday went well, I can only echo what everyone else has already said.
Of course you can still love him after everything you've been through, if you didn't love him you would have left years ago, love justifies putting up with so much, especially when you're in the situtaion yourself, the saying "not seeing the wood for the trees" is so true when it comes to matters of the heart.
You will have wobbles, there will be days that seem like the darkest days you have ever faced, and if he's anything like my exH he will try every trick in the book to make you feel even worse, but stick with it, be strong (as you have already shown you can be) and I promise it does get better.
Your mum sounds like she's a great source of support for you, use it, and by all means use us on here, so many of us have been through similar things, as you can see, and we're all happy to help and offer what advise we can.
You are an amazing, wonderful person, you'll have days when you don't feel like it, so look back here and remember how much you've been through, how strong you've been and draw on that to push yourself onwards.