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So, this is The Brave Babes Battle Bus.

All are welcome, regardless of your background, stage of sobriety, or anything else.

I'm Mouse and have been here since June 2010, and in control of my drinking since August 2nd 2010.

You will find unconditional support here. Always.

Whatever you feel about drinking (or not), we've been in your shoes. Some more than once.

So, come say hi, come grab a seat. There is always an open door and a warm welcome on this Bus.

Hello everyone

Just wanted to do a little virtual wave, and say well done to those of you struggling through difficult stuff without resorting to a drink. FWIW, it's inspiring to read about people who manage it (sorry, that sounds as if I'm making it me-me-me, which isn't my intention at all).

Morning Babes.

Lovely day again here. I have been doing too much and now I'm paying for it.

TENS machine and painkillers a plenty here today. I can't help it, I need to go out in the fresh air but did 3 30 min walks yesterday with Nemo so my legs and back are moaning at me today

Nemo has officially given up sleep for lent. I'm so so tired. Even though we are doing so much more in a day, it's not helping him to sleep.

DH is going to do tonight so I can take a sleeping tablet and have a night of unbroken sleep, hopefully.

So, how are we all today? Is it sunny where you are?

Zany - how is the new man going?

Silver - I saw you!

I'm going to text Red today and make sure she's okay.

Morning!

The sun is out here too, and I am just about to hang out the washing, what a glamorous life I lead!

Poor you Mouse back pain is awful, and when I've got it, everything I touch drops to the floor, just to be awkward!

Hey, Silver how are you?

I was up at the crack of dawn again today, so am feeling pretty tired as well, but at least no nightmares last night. I feel a bit like a wet rag, all the same. I think the emotional stress is catching up with me. I want someone to be my mummy!

xxx

hey Mouse, hey Thurso

have planted carrots, cabbages, onions, peas and runner beans this morning. so now I'm off for a rest.

Isn't the sun fantastic - and clocks change this weekend so longer evenings on there way. Whoop Whoop

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Silver - sounds like you've done well in the garden. I'm loving this sunny weather, such a massive mood lifter.

Not surprised you feel tiredthurso emotional stress is very draining. Do you have many family/friends nearby who you can 'lean' on?

New man is going really well thanks Mouse. I am meeting his closest friend tomorrow. He is just lovely although sometimes gets a bit intense with all his talks about how he feels. Ridiculas really as when I was in my last relationship I used to get really frustrated when XP wouldn't talk about his feelings or if he did they were usually a lie to shut me up. Now I am in a relationship where he talks loads although aparantly he isn't usually like that just with me Anyway I will stop waffling about him, he just seems so genuine, the DC's really like him, my family really like him and so do I. Looking forward to my surprise trip away next week. Hope your painkillers are starting to work

Thanks Zany - getting there with the pain.

I'm pleased that it's going well for you. I hope your surprise is fab! xx

Crikey, I've just fallen asleep for an hour and a half!, well, awake now obviously!
Mouse you are so right about stress affecting your body, I think I could have slept for a week. I have got a crashing headache now, though, sleeping in the day always does that to me.

Silver You earth mother, you , how fantastic, I'm not much good with veg, I do the pots of flowers, but DH is the gardener, last weekend we had purple sprouting broccoli, from the garden.

Zany New man sounds fab, and I think you seem to be taking things fairly slowly, and thinking it all through, for yourself, and your family. I wonder what your surprise trip will be, and where

thurso - get some water and pain killers inside you. I hate headaches. Sorry you feel so yuk. i can never doze in the day, I wake feeling utterly hungover. xx

Done both Mousie

Yes, I always feel utterly vile, and hangoverish if I sleep in the day, still at least it passes in half an hour, not like a real one!

How is your back?

Hello people

Sorry I haven't posted here in a few days, life has been busy. I'm still going to meetings and I'm getting a lot out of it. I've started telling a few select people too (my brother, one good friend) and I'm getting nothing but positive feedback. I'm still stressing about telling my best friend though I'll cross that bridge when I come to it I guess.

I've stopped quaking when I'm walking in to a meeting now, it's starting to become more normal which is great. Who knew you could have a laugh in an AA meeting??!! I wasn't expecting that I've met some great people too, although I'm finding it hard to trust as yet - they're all bleedin' alkies after all

I'm not saying it's easy, because it's not and I'm still craving. In fact I spent a good bit of last night's meeting wanting to have a drink but instead I stayed afterwards for a cuppa and met a couple of lovely women and by the time I got home the urge had dissipated.

Hope the rest of you are doing well - have a good weekend!

thurso - 3 Tramadol and a Diclofenac seem to have downgraded it to defcon 3

It's all my own fault. I should know better by now. Silly Mouse.

Hello Mouse
Wow, Diclofenac is quite strong, isn't it?, are you feeling pleasantly woozy , and excuse my ignorance, but what's defcon 3?, bet I'm being really stupid here.

I have just made a chunky veg tomato sauce for the pasta tonight, smells divine, and will go nicely with half a ton of garlic bread .

I seem to get much hungrier not drinking, a glass of wine takes my appetite clean away, but a glass of fizzy pop, just makes me more ravenous. Have burnt my tongue, spooning it out of the saucepan [serves me right icon].

How is everyone this evening, any exciting plans? I'm feeling quite jolly at the mo, must be that sleep. Incredibly a bit apprehensive about the weekend, just hope DH doesn't want to make it up to me, for being horrid last night , Oh yes, I forgot to say, DH conked out in front of the TV, and when I suggested that he might be better off in bed, he nearly bit my head off. I know it's because he is angry with himself for doing it, but even so....

How's tricks with you Ma, maybe not the best choice of words, don't want to conjure up "hug" scenarios

thurso - they are actually starting to wear off already so I know that I've gone way past my limit.

Defcon 3 HERE

I noticed that with the food. Once I stopped pickling myself each night, I could actually taste my food. And wanted to eat.

I once read somewhere that there's a new 'craze' where by people don't eat but drink and count the calories as 'energy' instead of food.

The damage that they did to themselves was awful.

Fajitas here later. And I'm on my night off. Did I mention that already?

Sticking my neck out again ( I feel so bloody rude butting into conversations, but..)

JWN - this thread has been making me think, and think, and think, and I don't know whether to admire you for having the guts to post what you originally did in an open forum rather than within the safety of a "dedicated" forum, or wonder how long it will take me to get to the place where I need to. Actually, I admire you hugely anyway, but hopefully you know what I mean.

I hope so too IsinDe - I'm totally knackered and fed up of the pain now. It's all my own fault, but tomorrow should be better.

It's quiet on here tonight, I hope that's a good sign that all the Babes are busy enjoying their lives!

I'll do a new thread later on, ready for tomorrow. Hope that's okay with everyone.

Where's MIFLAW? Not seen him today. Or did I miss the lovely man himself?

Evening everyone.

trist no need to apologise - post whatever you want, whenever you want. If it helps you, then that is all that is important. You don't have to be special or clever or heroic to post here, you just need to feel that posting (or reading) is something that might help.

I also think that there is no need for all of us to tackle our issues in the same way. I agree 100% JWN was both brave and desperate when she posted her first post. We've all joined in in different ways, at different times, and with different motivations and resistance. And day by day we're all getting somewhere, somewhere that is less drink-sodden, somewhere that is less damaging, somewhere that is more about life than about being drunk.

trist - you're NOT butting in.

You will get to where you want to be. In your own time xx

RESSSSSUUUUULT!! , guess whos got a contract in her sticky mitt? , only me! - break out the N&Ts!!!, a few more like this and i shall be on woman of the fucking year awards!!!

trist, thanks for the kind words but really, there's nothing much to admire in my first posts! (or subsiquent ones!), i wasnt thinking about anything other than how to save my sorry arse from the bloody mess i had created!

golly, im so pleased to see you back and hear how you are getting on!, i have made a friend in aa that i honestly think will be a friend for life - we dont just talk 'alkie' stuff, we have a laugh, talk about general things, go shopping, which is really funny, im a walking bit of high-heeled leopard print, she is a tattooed, shaven haired lesbian with a fondness for black biker gear! , i love her!

im inspired to do some planting this weekend, we have a fantastic plant stall in town on weekends, i fancy going and getting a few bits, ive noticed the camellia is in full bud this evening, my magnolia is about to flower, the tulips are up and so am i!

oh and btw, my hair is going purple/white from the white toner ive been using , do you think a bit of head and shoulders would be a good idea? or will i bugger it up more? - my appointment isnt until thursday, ive never had this problem before and im not sure what to do!