The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Carry On Into Spring - BOING!!

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So, this is The Brave Babes Battle Bus.

All are welcome, regardless of your background, stage of sobriety, or anything else.

I'm Mouse and have been here since June 2010, and in control of my drinking since August 2nd 2010.

You will find unconditional support here. Always.

Whatever you feel about drinking (or not), we've been in your shoes. Some more than once.

So, come say hi, come grab a seat. There is always an open door and a warm welcome on this Bus.

evening all! - been to meeting and feel a whole lot better now!

i have a couple of things to add re noteven and the 'debacle' earlier on - i know that mouseface has seen the effects first hand of what happens when dc are removed by ss (not her own i hasten to add!), this is may be why she was a little 'direct' with noteven - we have seen noteven try and try and still pick up at the end of it, im not speaking for mouse but i feel the frustration she felt at trying to get through what she was thinking, mouse has proved herself to be a kind thoughtful caring person on this thread time and time again and i for one will fight her corner!

i have NEVER found anyone on here to be smug, to feel that they are better than anyone else or to feel that they have some magic right to occupy the moral high-ground - what i have seen is unfailing support!, end of!, an individual may not like the advice given, but hey, we are alkies not mother fucking teresa!

i shall keep coming back here, day in day out, for purely selfish reasons, you lot all help to keep me sober!

off for a lie down!

isindi - dont worry, give it 15 years and you wont be able to get out of bed in the morning!

hmm!, 'her' out of bed! - doh!

just checking in.
Missed the whole "debacle" thing but noteven and mouse are you ok?
I have had my fallings out with people on here too who have been very direct and I have been upset. but, i have also been reduced to tears by the kindness and understanding of so many.
We're a mixed bag of pissheads and often post when vulnerable, angry, tired, frustrated, drunk or hungover - a recipe for the fur to fly if ever there was one.
Sometimes the road we travel is a bumpy one - buckle the seat belts folks and stick with it.

Hey ma

You ok this evening?

Well, have just had a lovely soak in the bath, and clean jammies and face pack on (dead attractive - let me tell you).
Cup of tea, and the kids are quiet watching Glee.

Was supposed to be at meeting tonight, but my babysitter is not feeling well, ah well.

indie I don't envy the "getting them into a routine" thing - not fun. Keep going though - tis well worth it if you can get it cracked.

bbwannaB yes, its lovely to have some light at the end of an evening, I am trying to spend 15 minutes every evening tidying the garden, I most definitely not a gardener, and it is not my most favourite thing to do, but small manageable chunks make it alot more bearable. But it is really lovely to see all the spring bulbs starting to come through! Looking forward to the clocks going forward - yay!

jwn glad that the meetings are making you feel better. I wish I could bottle the feeling that a good meeting gives me and sell it - would make a fortune!!

Mouse hows you and nemo - you are a wonderful person - who has hugely helped me in the last 4 months.

Right off to spend some time with the kids
Later babes!

hey bafana
I'm ok thanks
catch you later

I also hope I didn't offend you Mouse. I didn't mean to. I rarely post but read the thread every day.
I dithered over whether to post what I did. In the end I felt so bad for Noteven and felt that the time for harsh words was not yesterday, when she is obviously feeling so fragile and must be worried sick about her daughter.

I am sorry if I have contributed to a bad atmosphere. That was so far from my intention.

Off to bed. Sleep well all brave babes.

Luci X

Hi All

Well it has been an interesting day on this thread today. You know I love the fact that we all are such different, intelligent , forthright individuals. I like the fact that you can tell me what I really need to hear at times, regardless of how much I may not want to hear it.

Tonight, I read back my first postings as a Brave babe, there really wasn't much brave about me. I was fucking terrified scared, I had lost myself, I spent about a week crying and feeling intensely sorry for myself.

You guys didn't know me from Adam, and yet the support I received here was overwhelming, mouse, red, silver all held my hand whilst I waited for AA to call. JWN* even talked to me on the phone when I was having an extreme wobble - where in the world do you find such amazing people??

I would never ever ever have had the courage to call AA without you lot, and I don't think I could have got sober without them or you lot.

We are allowed to fall out, we are allowed to disagree, we are allowed to not agree with other people. WE ARE NOT ALLOWED to allow this to derail us from the support, laughs and tears that this thread provides to each and every one of us when we need it.

Sleep tight BB's
Love to all

bafana - well said Babe

Mouse Mouse Mouse come out of your mouse hole lovely

Noteven - I hope you are OK. I hope things work out for you. BUT I also think that you might have another agenda going on. You very quickly took over this thread and made it your own. I'm sorry but I just don't find you credible.

xxx

Good morning all babes, posting and lurking. Extremely tired last night but turned down the offer of champagne after a wedding - well it would have only been one glass, so no point in that .

Feeling busy and under pressure which are triger points for me, also have a meeting today with someone that I have to say 'no' to - never easy for a people pleaser...

Have a good day, all.

Morning, Glories,

Venus Deep breaths, and half an hour at a time, not even meaning drinkwise, just daywise!

Last night for the first time in months , I went to bed and went over and over all the mistakes I've made in the past, all the the things I regret, and am sorry for. I thought I had got over all that. Then I had a terrible nightmare (woke up screaming) at about 2, then another one at 4.30. Subconcious obviously not very happy at the mo!
Still, so lovely to wake up without a hangover (albeit screaming ), could so easily be otherwise at the moment.

Indie I wish you well, truly and completely heartfelt. No sleep is so awful. I have a photo of me and DC1 when he was about 8 months old, and I look like a dug up corpse!.

JWN thanks so much for your post on Monday, it really helps me to know that you still struggle sometimes, it gives me the strength to see my wobbles through IYSWIM. Because you have been on the right road for such a long time, but are still normal (yes, I think it's normal), and want a drink sometimes (ok, a shedload!), I think, maybe, I can do it too, if that makes any sense.

And I guess that is what this thread is about. We post what we feel, and what we think.. what is relevant to us... and sometimes it might be relevant to others. None of us know each others particular life circumstances, apart from what we reveal, or how they are feeling when we post, just as none of us know that a post of ours may hit hard unintentionally.
If we didn't care, we wouldn't care.

Much love to all, and especially young Mouseface, how are you today, matey, and your lovely family?

XXXX

BOING!!! im back on form! - the sun is shining, im taking the day off, doing stuff for me!, and then im off to a meeting! , just what dh ordered! , do you think he can see things i dont?

thurso, i have been told that nightmares are a way our brains deal with and release stress, over times in my life that have been particuarly awful, i found a way to kind of channel the nightmares i was having and kind of went with them iyswim? (yep, i bet your nutcase alarm has just gone off! ), it did help though, worrying about mightmares can seriously damage your sleep pattern, so if you can turn them into 'a good thing' i think it helps!

venus - you are doing ok babe!, big deep breath and best foot forward! , and just say NO!

Morning Brave Babes.

Morning everyone

Thurso I think that often when you have alot on your mind it does give very disturbed sleep/nightmares. Hope tonight is better.

Isindie glad you managed to sleep OK between all your 'wake ups'

Mouse how are Nemo and wolf doing

JWN glad to see your back to your boingy self. You seem to have been very stressed/busy with work recently which I bet has made you have a wobble at the weekend.

Venus keep practising saying No. Try being a Venue pleaser as well as a people pleaser.

Hi to everyone else Desire, Thurso, Bafana, Silver

I am still in the dark as to where I am going next friday for my birthday treat. Been doing some detective work though

Phew, glad things have calmed down on here today!

mouse hope you are ok.
I can only speak for myself, but personally I welcome your and everyone else's heartfelt honest opinions, and I hope everyone continues to give them.

venus well done for saying no to the pointless but hugely tempting champagne. It is seemingly insidious things that start the slide back down, and it was exactly that - a tiny glass of champagne at new year - that caused my first stumble, leading to other stumbles and bringing me back here again.

Wasindie yay for sleep! just can't imagine what it's like with 2 of them! I co-sleep, also did with dd, which makes the wakings a lot easier, but i imagine with twins that would leave no room for you in the bed??

thurso can you maybe write down all the mistakes and regrets and then burn the pages or rip them into tiny pieces, as a symbol of letting them go?

jwn enjoy your day off!

Am also having a quiet peaceful day to myself, well, with the baby of course. It is bliss.

Ok I promise to stop detectiving and think I had better read my posts before I send them

Mwah to you IsinDe xx

Hey maddogs - how is your little one today?

Zany - we're probably on snot level 5 (out of 10) today but have just been out in the glorious sunshine (it finally arrived) so hopefully, that will help.

Out with friends to the park later too, once Nemo's SALT has been. I hate being coped up in the house when it's so nice outside.

Just seen a car crash though. Rear end shunt. Lorry breaked suddenly, then the car behind it (not a scratch to either) and then a young girl in a Fiat Punto went into the back of the car behind the lorry.

Are you still with me?

Anyway, her car looked like it had been hit head on by a train. I forgot just how shit the older Punto's are. She just sat there crying. She's driven off but shouldn't have. She had a friend with her but was a right mess.

If you think my typos are bad your should see my texts after my phone uses predictive texts and add's words in. I updated my facebook status the other day via my phone to say that 'I had just had to do the hardest thing ever with the kids - eating a donut without licking your lips'. My phone said 'I had just had to do the hardest thing ever with the kids - eating a donut without fucking your lips' !!! You can imagine everyones enjoyment at that