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So, this is The Brave Babes Battle Bus.

All are welcome, regardless of your background, stage of sobriety, or anything else.

I'm Mouse and have been here since June 2010, and in control of my drinking since August 2nd 2010.

You will find unconditional support here. Always.

Whatever you feel about drinking (or not), we've been in your shoes. Some more than once.

So, come say hi, come grab a seat. There is always an open door and a warm welcome on this Bus.

Evening all, I'm Qo and been on the bus for 2 weeks today!!

Problem drinker, drank far too often in the week, and also once started didnt know when to stop - quite habitually embarrassing and degrading myself, and getting into situations where I wasn't safe. Have a really nasty scar to remind me of that.

I actually wanted to ask if anyone else went thorugh a "manic" phase at around 2 weeks?

I'm loving life at the moment,I'm so full of beans, getting so much done, sleeping really well and just so upbeat and happy.I can't work out if I'm on a manic high, or if my life actually IS this good without alcohol.

How's everyone this evening? hope everybody s ok and happy?

Hi everyone,

I'm notevenamousie and I'm an alcoholic and always will be. But, just for today, I'm sober and it's the greatest gift in the world. Work and home are a bit crazy, to put it mildly, so I am going to love and leave you all and head off to sleep.

Well done Indie on resisting and ma good to hear you sounding so positive, did you ever imagine that was possible?!

hi noteven - i AM more positive but still having the occasional hiccup which results in a single glass or two. No more.
I noticed something tonight which is way TMI and I apologise for the visual image you are about to get. In the bath tonight I notice the desert island had gone, to be replaced by a small coral reef......
My belly used to rise out of the water like a big blubbery desert island - stick a small palm tree in my belly button and you would have a classic cartoon desert island! But now, it has deflated to a small reef, just breaking the surface. This is a RESULT!

Well done Ma - YOU STAR!!

IsineDe - at 'wet' places. I am a child.

KEEP GOING SWEETS. You know just how cross and disppointed you'll be if you drink now. xx

Off to bed.

Night Beautiful Brave Babes xxx

Drive safely lovely IsIndie, am really loving the way the days are adding up for you in spite of your usual stresses, I am learning a lot from you.

ma it sounds like it's working for you and I am so pleased for you - and jealous too about the weight loss!! Like IsIndie I have developed a serious chocolate habit - can sort that one in the fullness of time I guess.

Right, off to get showered and dressed and get DD ready for book day, aaargh I think I am a bit rubbish at this school aged child parenting thing but if I am getting through the day sober I guess that's my main job done. Love to all x

Morning to all. isindie so glad your craving passed and well done you for holding on through it. It can be such a devilish time - the longing for a drink and the mental stuff going "go on, just one! you've done so well. Fuck it - you deserve it. everyone else does, why shouldn't you.." and all the rest of the crap. I have really found that all that stuff that I think IS crap - it just isn't true. I don't need a drink, I don't need to use alcohol as a reward, not everyone else does it.

I read another post recently (in chat or something) where someone had asked how much people drank, and nearly all the posters drank maybe a glass or two a week - made my (former) drinking seem SO abnormal.

hey Venus - I wonder how many of those posters actually drank only a glass or two a week! Bet most of them were lying.
off to the docs soon to see what is the next action on the ADS, two weeks gone and don't feel as panicky about things, but couldn't say i feel boingy yet.
Indie - take it easy today, sound like you are tired and already stressed. Red warning lights!!!
noteven - continue to be so impressed with you, getting through the day sober is one hell of a result.
mouse - mwah dahling

Good morning all you lovelies

I had a lovely day yesterday, very long way, but completely worth it. DC2 had a really good time t the open day with DH, and I spent the day with DC1, shopping, and lunching!! DC1 is soo grown up now, I had more than a lump in my throat, when we said good-bye

We got home, I walked through the door, and thought "I really want a glass(?) of wine". Abnormal drinker here, too Venus.

So glad I didn't, used all the usual tips on here, thankyou so much all, had a bath, drank lots of water, and it passed .

Very slowly (whispers) my mindset is changing a little bit, before I would have been in the fridge, before I had my coat off, or given myself time to think about it. As *Miflaw" said, "good day, drink" .

Isindie and Ma you are flipping stars!!!, I don't know if you re-read your earlier posts (I do, sometimes), but you both sound so much stronger, and more loveable, if that's possible! V jealous about the weight loss Ma.

I hope your nights are continuing to be a bit more sleep filled Mouse, how is the cherub Nemo today?

Whoops, got my bold all messed up. Sorry if that post looks shouty Isindie and Ma it wasn't meant to be.

And I re-read my early posts, not yours, I'm not a stalker, honest!

Here's where I make myself a liar

your post about whether I forget when I was walking the floor with the DC's Isindie, the answer is no. But, thankfully in a good way.

My children were just the worst sleepers ever, but looking across at DC1 yesterday, in all his handsome grown upness, I could see the little baby, and boy, that I was up at 4.30 in the morning for, for many years, and felt truly blessed. Oops made myself all tearful now!
xxx

Morning

Well done for getting over the wobbles Isindie

Nearly the end of the working week Noteven - hopefully the weekend will be a bit easier for you.

Everyone sounds very boingy this morning

Unfortunately I had about a bottle last night, no excuse but was my Uncles funeral yesterday, tired, really busy at work, stressed about money and the DC's were driving me mad. No excuses I know.

Things are going really well with new guy. I do worry that things are moving along a bit too quickly but it feels right. He is one of the kindest and funniest guys I know.

< whispers 'I might possibly be a little bit in love'>

Morning everyone, still lurking!

How are you doing desire

Ruby

If you really are controlling your drinking and happy about it, well done! You'll hear no criticism from me on that score. To quote the Big Book (did I mention I used to be an academic?) "If a fellow, at present drinking heavily, can do the right about face and drink like a gentleman, our hats are off to him. Heaven knows, we have tried often enough!" Something like that, anyway. So, if you really are in control, then that's excellent news - keep at it, and good luck to you!

Inde

Did you know that, in a very real sense, AA was started because of a visit to a hotel on business? Bill W, sober 6 months but with no other alcoholics succeeding with him, had just had the business meeting from hell. He was stood in the lobby of a hotel in Akron Ohio and when he looked one way, he saw the bar, and when he looked the other way, he saw the telephones. And he thought, "I wonder if a drink would be a good idea?" And then he thought, "when this happens, I normally try to help another alcoholic and it passes." And he went to the phone and basically went looking for a drunk to help. He found one - a local doctor called Bob. Bill didn't drink, went instead to try and help Bob - and Bob got sober, Bill's first success story. And that is when what was to become AA became separate from the Oxford Group and when the story starts. One alcoholic, tempted to drink, chose instead to contact another alcoholic and try to help him.

(It's also why, incidentally, so many AA groups have the word "Akron" in their name ...)

Morning.

thurso - I was thinking about you yesterday and the open day. I'm so glad it went well.

The ADs will take about 4 weeks to 'kick in' and at first, just the 'fact' that you are taking them helps. Your doc may increase the dose to 40mg, which is what I was on for a few months, now on 60mg.

They have really helped me with the panic attacks, anxiety and meltdowns. It just takes time but then again, doesn't everything?

Ma - well done!! thurso is right, you do sound much more chipper!

IsinDe - 3 hours sleep? Good God. I thought I was the only one that functioned on that little kip. Drive careful xxxx

Nemo went to bed (in his cot) at 9.30 after his last tube feed, woke at 5.30, came into bed and slept until 9am!

I'm at hydro and physio today, then off to get my mop chopped, so I'll be super sexy short haired Mouse again by the time I'm back

Have a good morning BBs xxx

What is with the bolding going mad today?

Zany - SLOW IT DOWN! Please be careful, no-one wants to see you get hurt, I'm not saying that he will hurt you, but be careful.

I hope you are as okay as you can be after the funeral yesterday. Be gentle with yourself today xx

Zany

I would endorse what Mouse says about going slow.

Two reasons:

1. you may get hurt.

2. If you are like me, relationships, excitement, nerves, sex, are all big triggers to drink. Whether you are going to end up as an abstainer or someone who is genuinely in control of her drinking, now is a dangerous time to be playing with all those triggers any more than strictly necessary. It would be so easy to have a drink to clam your nerves before x, y or z; overdo it; and then fuck it all up by doing or saying the wrong thing and upsetting him or, frankly, scaring him off.

He sounds like a great guy - don't rush into it until you are sure that you can cope with the highs and lows, both emotionally and in terms of your drinking.

As an indication, it is informal but standard AA advice not to get into a relationship in the first year of sobriety. I know that you are not in AA and there are, of course, exceptions to every rule. Nevertheless, the advice is given for a reason and the reason is that early sobriety is a shaky time.

So take care, is all I'm saying.

Hi babes (waves)!

Not much time to post, work manic, but it's DAY 6 here! Yay! Not even a glimmer of temptation last night!

Have a great boingy day everyone!

Xx

Thank you guys for your kind words, I completely understand what you mean. We have spoken quite a bit about how we feel and he knows I do feel a bit scared at times and vunerable and has agreed to back off whenever I feel things are getting a bit too much. He brought me some flowers last night to cheer me up but what cheered me up the most is that when I left the room to shout at see to the dog when I came back into the living room he was watching TV with my 2 DC's, 'upside down' on the sofa - not laughed so much in ages. The DC's really like him but I also need to spend lots of time with just them and me. I am aware that when you first start dating someone alot of the times when you meet up drinking is involved, either a few drinks at the pub or meal with drinks etc and so I want to make sure I don't keep putting myself in situations where it is more 'normal' to drink loads, if that makes sense.

hello babes! - sorry im not posting much right now, as you know life has got me by the balls right now - everything is going ok, im still sober (thank fuck!), just knowing that i can come and have a quick read is so comforting!

take care all, hope to see you all later!

L XXXXXXXXXXX

btw, just had a 'working lunch' in the pub - we were there long enough to eat, have quick meeting tehn get back to the office - this time last year i would have insisted we stay all afternoon for the 'meeting' and got totally wasted - i prefer it this way!

Hey all.

JWN - How's DD? Been thinking of her, and of course you xx.

Zany - make sure you have boundaries in place. Just enjoy yourselves, no pressure, just fun.

I've been transferred from one hydro class to a more acute one. Should be fun and will help strengthen my legs too. They really are rubbish most days.

Just got the one crutch now too. Hoping to be fully mended in no time.

Did the Zombies attack whilst I was in London?? Where is everyone?

I'm still here................I'm still here..............I'm still here (echos around the bus)