The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Carry On Past The New Year Wine Offers!

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Hello all.

We are the Brave Babes. We're on the Battle Bus, travelling around sobriety and going day by day, hour by hour, through the detox hell of not drinking, cutting down or sometimes even not.

Come say hi. We won't bite.

No doubt one of us has been where you are now......

It's fine. No judging, no nasty jibes, just us, the BBs.

Come meet the others..................

Blowing a gale here too, take care Ma

I had a little sleep this afternoon , and feel much better now. Poor Dh must be exhausted, he doesn't much go in for in depth talks about feelings. One of my many failings is that I do over analyse everything, all a lot of the time, and sometimes things are better left. Not all the time, but sometimes I am like a dog with a bone!

I have just ordered a Chinese to be delivered for when DH and DC get in, DC has been away since Tues, and I have decided not to have introspective talk tonight, but have a light, no pressure evening.

I have also decided that tonight I will not be drinking. Goodness writing that felt a bit brave, I haven't ever posted those words before, didn't think I needed to

How is everyone? apart from the weather.

Nemo still ok Mouse?, I hope you have as restful a night as you can tonight.

What are everyones plans for the weekend? My plan is to not build the weekend into the perfect time had by all, but try and live in the moment, and enjoy it. Hard for me, the projection queen

Evening All

Sorry to hear that you are having such a tough time at the minute thurso remember to be kind to yourself as well as DH, but everyone has already posted wise wise words.

Just spent the afternoon going through paperwork with my sister, working out how much money my exdp has actually managed to fleece me out of, really really need to learn to not be so bloody laid back about things, I have just let him take the helm with regard to the finances, and he has really really taken me for a mug. Lesson learned hopefully!

Off out to AA tonight. So tonight I will not be drinking.

Have a good and safe weekend, keep well wrapped up in this horrible weather.

Hello thurso - nope, he's been sick.

My fault really. He was licking his feed tube so I thought, hmm, wonder if he'll try some food?

Went and got him some melted chocolate ice-cream. Left it in the bowl, with a spoon and carried on pottering.

He licked once and promptly puked. It's not a flavour he's used to so I think it hit his gag reflex.

You live and learn.

Hey bafana - sorry to hear your bastard XP took advantage of your kind nature

Have had 2 beers. Fuck this. Am going to find an AA meeting tomorrow. I can't do this on my own.

Hope everyone else is staying stronger than me.
I refuse to fuck my kids lives up due to my problem with alcohol.
Am not going to drink anything else tonight.
Have washed my face, brushed my teeth, got into my PJ's and boiled the kettle for a cup of peppermint tea.

Despite every fibre in my body screaming to me to crack open that bottle of red.
I'm not going to though.

Hey guys,

yummy dinner, going up for bath now, and then an evening of mindless TV, I hope. I'm going to lay off the books for a while, I take them to heart a bit too much, and want to let my head be a bit "nothingy" for a while.

Luci don't open that bottle, I know it's really hard when you've already had a drink, but you don't want to feel like I did this morning. How about we do tonight together, I won't be drinking, will you keep me company?

Poor Nemo, Mouse, is he keeping down his liquid feeds?

I'll keep you company. I am really pissed off that I can't open the wine but I really can't. It always ends with my blacking out and feeling guilty and ashamed the next day.

Mouse, your poor little lad.

Luci - you know what will happen if you do open the wine.

It's your call. We can only ask you or tell you not to do it.

You know how you'll feel

You know the guilt and the emotional dissapointment that you'll feel.

Yes, you won't tonight whilst you drink it.

You'll think 'fuck it'

Don't let yourself down sweetheart.

thurso - enjoy your bath.

Nemo does keep his feeds down, just not if he's being fed when I try him on food.

Silly mouse.

X posted Luci

Thank you and don't!!! xx

Cam empathise with yuor comment Thurso about building the weekend into a perfect time. I do that alot and seen as none of us are perfect I often feel I have 'let 'myself down' and so think sod it I'll have a drink.

I really feel for you Mouse and Nemo - is there much to be done for his reflux, is it someting he will 'grow out of' or will he need medical intervention (operation) for it.

Luxi how are you - your on the right track if you have already done teeth brush and pj's routine so well done.

Bafana don't beat yoouself up about XP, I was in the same postion and still feel so angry with myself that I let him take me for a ride. Remenber you did it because you are a kind, thoughful person who wants the person they loved to be happy - thats what I try very hard --to== tell myself anyway.

Curry on the way to me

Zany - according to his latest Consultant, he has virtually 'no signs of reflux and at worst, mild reflux although it is noted the tests have been carried out at a very quite phase'

I shit you not.

He'll grow out of it, he's nearly two.

It's fine, honestly, sorry, it just get's to me when I think we're past it then we're not IYSWIM.

It's okay

Oh Mouse, my heart goes out to you, I wish I could give you a cuddle in person. It's so hard, we can bear anything for ourselves, but, when it's our children.....
How does DH cope, if you don't mind me asking, I imagine he is a big support by the sound of it. And DD?
DC2 was really very poorly up until about 6 years old, in and out of hospital, the funny thing is, DC1 took it in their stride, and took it as normal. Hasn't ever mentioned it since either.

Ahh Mouse must be so frustrating to see how he is and then for a 'Consultant' to imply it is just mild reflux. How is he in himself these days - still starting to chat

Right, just made myself a huge mug of Earl Grey tea, here's one for you Luci.

Mouse and Zany hot chocolate for you, for sleeps.

Hot chocolate probably not so good with a curry Zany, here have some San Pelligrano!

Nemo has just lost his last feed.

DH is my rock, as is DD. DD is like that, just accepts it.

Children are far more resiliant than we sometimes give them credit for

Luci well done on admitting and surrendering. Hang in there. You'll be bound to be able to get to a meeting tomorrow. Could you phone the phoneline tonight? Someone will call you back from your area and it doesn't matter if you've had a couple of drinks tonight. Where (ish) are you, are any of us local?

Mouse I can't imagine how you do half of what you do. I hope tonight brings some sleep.

I've got decaf coffee, and fading fast - been a few late nights lately as I've had a head so full of this wonderful new way of thinking and living. Going to write my list of things I am grateful for today while I can still keep my eyes open.

Hopefully the new smiley will know we do not need it on here!

hello girls!, im so tired i can hardly move so im off to bed in a mo.

luci - im so bloody proud of you!, you sound so fired up!, you can do this, i think you are about to surprise yourself!

mouse - poor little fella!, absolutly no adive here, have never had to deal with anything remotly like nemos problems, just want you to know you and our special little chap are in my thoughts!

night night everyone!

see you all tomorrow!

btw, its bloody windy here, im on my own and i dont fright easily, but blimey, i shall be glad when dh gets home, the roof sounds like its coming off1

Good, I think that the rugby DH has been watching for the last five years hour is just about to finish. I thought I would cut him some slack tonight .

Hopefully going to watch a bit of television together now.

Hey just seen this icon ..., when did that appear?

Mouse I hope things quieten down for you, do you have to tey to feed Nemo again?, he must get so tired. DC2 used to throw up because of his asthma, and got exhausted. I can clearly remember DH standing at the foot of DC's bed with tears running down his face, wishing it could be him instead.

DC2 now 18 this year, and 6ft , he grew out of it, and at times I didn't ever think he would. (not being flippant, but sometimes it helps to hear that they definitely do grow out of lots of things, it's not just an old wives tale)

Thanks ladies.

Off to bed before the house blows away and I have to change my to Dorothy.

Night night Babes xx

P.s the docs said that at about 5 or 6 all their tubes and things mature, and get bigger, and stronger.

Sorry, X posted thurso - yes, I have to try and replace what he's lost.

It's fine really, when he's towering above me and taking me out for Sunday lunches or shopping, it will all be a distant memory.

Night xx

Good evening Brave Babes ,

Lucilastic, you showed a lot of grit going down the peppermint tea route after you'd had a couple, well done.

Mouseface, I hope you and Nemo both have a good night's sleep...

Chardonnaylover? How are you today, did you change your name?

I didn't do well yesterday, couldn't find the meeting (which I think has moved), and I drank when I got home... but made it successfully to different meeting this pm. Some of us went out for a bite to eat later. What lovely people, I'm feeling very relieved and encouraged now, and I'll definitely be going back. So no booze for me today and I'm ooking forward to waking up without hangover tomorrow.

Nighty night everyone, and all the best with your personal goals!

Just lost a big massive post asking for help GRRRRR

Thank you for the support last night. Feel so relieved I didn't open the wine last night.
Today is another day.
How is Nemo this morning?