The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Carry On Past The Christmas Party (part 2)

[TheMousefaceBeforeChristMouse]

Hello

I'm Mouse.

Welcome to the Brave Babes Bus - Gerald! Blame Silver for the name!

We are a group of MNers who post about our relationship with alcohol and how drinking it, or not, has an effect on our day to day lives.

Come and meet the other Brave Babes, say hi, take a seat or just read.

Here are the threads so far

Morning Babes,

strop over!

I hope you are all well this morning, and that you all slept well.

I also hope all your little ones are feeling better today.

My hair doesn't look so fabby in daylight, highlights much blonder than they have been for a while. We'll see.....

Have lovely days everyone.

Hello all - sending this from the airport waiting for my delayed flight - ho hum!

Had a bit of a flashback yesterday. I was rumaging around in the back of a cupboard sorting out some old winter clothes and guess what I found? A plastic bag containing a hidden empty wine bottle, empty bottle of cherry brandy (yuk!) and empty cans of G&T Obviously one of my previous hiding places - they must have been there for ages.

I felt so embarassed about it, and it gave me quite a dilemma - couldn't just go and put them in the recycling (it would look as though I'd spent the afternoon boozing) and I just couldn't 'fess up to dp - even now I have never been totally honest with him about the extent of my alcoholism, I think he would freak if he knew how much I actually drank, how often, and if he knew the horrid deceitful tricks I had . So I ended up putting the empties into my overnight bag, taking them to the ariport with me and dumping them in the bin before I went through security. I don't know if any of you have hidden the evidence of your drinking, and have had to dispose of it subsequently. I felt so awful this morning, just wracked with guilt and shame. And to think that that had been part of my weekly (daily?) life....

But at least because it was such a long time ago, I didn't have a hangover as well [weak grin]

Have a good day everyone. Take great care of yourselves xx

thurso I bet you look great - you only really notice it because you are examining it closely. At least your dh's response was better than the one I got last time I had my hair highlighted: dp said... 'I liked your hair before your dyed it yellow'. I'd have preferred it if he'd just gone to sleep.

Didn't have expensive highlights for a long time after that.

Poor you waiting for a delayed flight. Are you going to Bristol? I think there's going to be snow down there?

Morning Campers

Noteven - get to ameeting as soon as you can - it will make you feel so much better.

Christ - draw a line under it - today is anew day (even if you do feel like shit - tomorrow you will feel better)

I called a good friend of mine last night only for him to tell me he's had a stroke - am off to see him in a minute - tell you what it puts this drinking lark into perspective - all I have to so is not pick up - his life has changed for ever

Venus - can't begin to tell you about my hiding places and the paranoia that DP might go into that cupboard, under stairs, drawer for something and find the empties - and the secret trips to the bottle bank in the dead of night - I am so glad that I never have to worry about that any more - hope you are on your flight by now

See you later BBs x

BOIIIIINNGGG!!!

morning wonderful babes!!!

i had the best birthday ever and i can remember every little moment!!

i had a fantastic evening with all the people i love most in the world! (well, not quite all), i sang my little heart out, had a lovley evening, dd gave me the biggest bestest hug and said she loved me! i know i looked nice at 6pm and i know i still looked good at 1am cos i pulled! , a rather tasty young man asked me out! , he didnt realise dh was standing behind me!

today im off out for lunch with the girls - i truly cannot believe this is me!, when i look back at how life was panning out it makes me shiver - im almost 'glad' i got to my rock bottom, or none of this would have happened!

i thank you all from the bottom of heart! you are all very precious to me and now im off for a bit of a cry!, being this happy is making my heart burst!!

L XXXXXXXXX

Wow if only you could bottle that feeling JWN

Desire - you can't bottle it but you can attain it - if you want it badly enough x

Morning Babes.

Silver - so sorry to hear about your friend. xx

JWN - You should feel the way you do! Look how far you have come. A HUGE emotional rollercoaster of a journey.

But like you said, you had to hit, or rather smash into, rock bottom to get your arse into gear.

It was very much your last chance to change your life and get your family back. They love you enough to give you that chance and you took it.

I knew you'd have a fantastic birthday, simply because you were sober.

You are an amzing lady xxxx

venus - I have put empties into neighbours recycling boxes in the dead of night when I've been up with Nemo.

I did once put an empty vodka bottle back in the cupboard except I'd filled it with water.

I had another with vodka in behind the fridge. I spent a couple of nights sneaking the real vodka into my glass and pouring the water away.

But you win!! Ditching your empties at the airport. Sorry but that made me chuckle to think of you clinking along, cursing yourself!

Safe journey xx

Hello to everyone else. Hope those with poorly DCs are okay.

Rough night here, Nemo was up loads. I'm pooped and we have snow!

I'm frozen so off to light the wood burner. Brrrrrr.

Morning Mouse, today is my last day at work till 6th January and am counting down the hours till 5.30 :)

Morning Silver you on Christmas break?

Hey desire - I bet you can't wait to finish! My poor father finshes today for about three weeks.

A very testing time for my dear mother! I should imagine she has cleared the shed out ready for him to be sent to, should he get under her feet!!

He always gets ill when he finishes work, almost because he has stopped, his body stops fighting too.

Are you like that?

Oh my God, I am the exact same, it's a well-known fact that once I have time off work I get sick, same happens with my brother-in-law

Silver -

here

I knew I'd seen it somewhere!

desire - thought so! I think it is because you start to relax, unwind, slow down etc.

It happens every year to my father! My mother makes sure she has all kinds of meds and pills in for any eventuality!!

Must do the same myself Mouse :) Maybe if I am prepared then nothing will happen

Yes! Go to Boots and stock up on cold and flu remedies whilst they are on 3 for 2.

That way of you do get ill, you can start to fight the symptons as soon as they start and for the New Year, you could try taking Echinacea.

That should help keep your immune system stronger.

Good advice Mouse, as you know I have so much going on in my head (and in RL) that no doubt once I semi-relax it will all manifest itself in some form of sickness !

Hello, I have read the threads with genuine interest and admiration. I would so love some support with stopping drinking. I am sitting here completely hungover after getting wasted at DH XMas party. I was rude and had to be taken home early. I'm too scared to ask DH what I said.

When I was 15 years my Dad died due to drink. I am a horrible person when drunk and completely loathe myself today. My marriage is literally hanging by a thread. I need to stop.

Thank you for reading.

Hello tes

Welcome to the bus.

Hi Mouse

Thanks for welcome. I ruined everyone's night last night and feel so guilty especially as I did the same last year

I'm 38 years, have 2 DS, am a qualified teacher (looking for part-time job) have lovely home why am I such a stupid drunk? Why can I never learn my lesson? I think I must have to spot completely as after one or two I can't stop. I'm dreading DH coming home from work and telling me what I said, wish I could just disappear so bloody

I'm not normally a whinger by the way - honestly! Can't even keep the Berrocca / Alka seltzer down.

spot of course should be stop

MOrning/afternoon everyone

I'm feeling better today although I did drink last night sorry for being grumpy, the dog is getting fed up of me crying onto her. My third day without my car and the garage think they need it all weekend - gulp, sounds expensive.

Hope the babes with poorly dc's have a better night tonight

Hello Tes - your at the right place here for support in stopping drinking

Morning Zany

tes - so, what's the plan here on in? Are you planning to drink at all today?

Was list night a drinking night purely due to the party?

Try not to get too worked up about your DH coming home. Stay here and chat to us for a while, we'll help you get your head around where you want to go okay?

Small steps.

Thanks Zany and Mouse

The plan is I want to stop drinking completely, I can go a day or two without drinking but once I start on the wine I keep going until I pass out. So many times I have woken in the morning and have no recollection of the previous evening.

Do you think I should show DH this thread? I will need his support. Bugger, bugger, bugger - I am having horrid flashbacks about last night, there is no way I want to live this way. I will be strong.