The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Carry On Past The Christmas Party (part 2)

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Hello

I'm Mouse.

Welcome to the Brave Babes Bus - Gerald! Blame Silver for the name!

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X posted with us all then? Loon!!

so go on then, tell us

It was good - but in a BLOODY FREEZING church hall - swear to god I couldn't feel my feet by the end - not quite as inspiring as the others but I guess they are all different - and being bloody cold didn't help - I spoke and the woman next to me couldn't believe it - she said that she didn't say anything for 3 months - obviously I have far too much to say for myself

Anyway the general feeling I get is that you just have to keep going to the meetings and then the other stuff about AA drip feeds into you and the more complicated stuff begins to make sense - hard to explain but I think it is bout so much more than just not drinking.

I feel at home there and as JWN said I feel safe.

I really think that I have found a way - I will need to work bloody hard but I want my sobriety so much that I am prepared to give it all that I can.

Sermon over - what have |I missed???

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Silver
I am here, but going to bed in a minute, I have got a training course tomorrow.

Crikey, you are doing so well, how are you feeling?, a bit drained, I would guess.

I am sending you much love, and hopes for a good nights sleep. x

That's really great Silver, I'm so glad for you.

Do you live in a big city? where I live there are only 2 meetings per week (not that I have been yet) but you and noteven are certainly making me consider. I have been doing OK but wonder if some extra boost may be necessary at some point.

"I really think that I have found a way - I will need to work bloody hard but I want my sobriety so much that I am prepared to give it all that I can."

That is the best thing that you have ever posted Silver

What a fantastic thing to read. I am so proud of you for doing this. You are really committed to the task at hand. Long may it last!!!

Sorry that your feet froze tonight!

You know what Thurso - tonight I just feel glad I went - I didn't share anything momentous - just made my mark as it were.

I think because of my 'all or nothing' nature the only way I can do this is to immerse myself in it totally.

BBB I live just outside Manchester so there are loads of meetings - in that respect I am very lucky.

Although I would sooooooooo love to live in a little village in France the country. But for now I am very grateful that I have easy access to the meetings.

And you know what the best bit today was - driving home sober at 10.00pm - driving at 10.00pm at night - fucking hell how good is that. Haven't done that for years apart from when working nights x

shit that sounds like I used to drive home pissed at 10.00pm - didn't mean it that way - aargh x

I am anxious about seeing someone I know at a meeting as it is one of those towns where evryone knows each other. But then I realised I don't know anyone else who doesn't or who has given up drink! I think I will go in the New Year.

I know what you mean about the driving - I didn't think you meant that you drove drunk as I know I would arrange anything to avoid missing a drink driving

Silver - you could move to here. It's a whole village, just on the one road.

I doubt that 'AA' is anything other than a breakdown service to the octagenarians living here.

Right. Bedtime for me.

Night night Brave Babes, hope you all sleep well xx

me too, see you tomorrow x

BBB the clue is in the Anonymous part IYKWIM - I am not going to meetings in the village/town I live in, because even though one of the things about AA is that you are not supposed to talk about what is said and who is there - but I would die be very embarrased if a another parent from DD's school, or a teacher, or my Mum's mate, or the milkman were there - it's a difficult one if you live in a small community and I really don't know what to advise - except the support there is fantastic, and those people are there for the same reason as you - you could make a good friend/support - knowing what I know now - after only 4 meetings - I would say give it try - you don't have to go back if you don't want to - just give it a go - is there a town near you that you could go to?

And BTW - do milkmen still exist?? xx

Christ Silver - now I have to answer you, yes they do - milkmen.

We have heay snow here.

Going back to milkmen, I saw an add recently for a 'top up between shops' type milkman.

If you search it, I'm sure you'll find a milkman....

Night Night Babes - sending the sleep faries to Nemo

I've not heard the early morning rattle of a milk float for a long time - do you remember when they used to deliver OJ in glass bottles and bottles of Corona fizzy pop - to your doorstep - how bloody good was that!

ah well bed it is then xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

And bread

Ok I am am idiot

Girls night out last night. I knew my resolve was weak and I planned to drive. Roads are like a skating rink so got a cab and left all my good intentions at home, hell as I decided not to drive I had wine before I left. Then when I was out. What an idiot I am

An insomniac idiot. A silly silly silly woman. I had a bottle and a half in total. Shit shit shit.

Hi Christi
Stop beating yourself up - it was one night, and one night does not have to mean a huge relapse. Hope you can rest even if you can't sleep and be kind to yourself today.

DD has been up and wheezy. Think it might be doctors today to see what they think. I don't want an asthma diagnosis but I just want her to not spend a week being really poorly every time she catches a virus, IYSWIM. Thankfully she is eating and not vomiting so her tonsils must be ok so far.

Silver - well done you. I can see me in your posts - I need to get back there, it's just a big struggle at the moment.

I hate Christmas and my mother arrives in 5 days which will suck even more joy out of it.

Amazingly DD is still asleep and I am still feeling very confused and lost.

noteven my 18 mo also has a recurrent wheeze, sheis better today after two days of steroids and lots of puffs on her inhaler. The doctor has pretty much labelled it asthma because DH had it badly as a child and it's an inherited condition.

Thank you for your kind words. Ill children is even more if a reAson not to drink. I just feel silly. I've had three hours sleep and so much to do today. Oh well it won't kill ms not to sleep. Am meantto be going tomovies tonight with Dh for first night out together in ages.... Groan... And tomorrow night for a Christmas party. But dd1 birthday party on Sunday so have to be on good form. Am getting sleeping pills today but frankly it wouldbe better, indeed it's very necessary, that i don't drink today

How long is your mum coming for? Can you ask her not to?

Tell me more about feeling confused and lost?

What positive things can you think about? Maybe your dd's delight on Christmas day? I forget exactly how old she is?