The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Carry On Past The Christmas Party (part 2)

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Hello

I'm Mouse.

Welcome to the Brave Babes Bus - Gerald! Blame Silver for the name!

We are a group of MNers who post about our relationship with alcohol and how drinking it, or not, has an effect on our day to day lives.

Come and meet the other Brave Babes, say hi, take a seat or just read.

Here are the threads so far

Heading for bath and early tonight, have the "man flu" and feel yeucky :( Hope everyone has a safe and sober evening and fingers crossed I sleep tonight, was a total waste of time going to bed last night, not even 5 minutes of sleep:(

I just joined on the new thread .

My name is jaquichan and I want to sparkle.

Hello, hello,

I hope someone reads this, before you all head off to threads anew .

I felt really great first (ish) thing this morning, and then really terrible and hangovery, tired at about 2pm. But then I thought to myself, I was tired bacause I didn't go to bed until 1.30pm. I still feel thrilled that I didn't drink last night, especially as it's the first New Year for 10 years that we have gone out to a party, instead of staying in. On the previous times, I have started with the wine at about 6, barely seen in the New Year, and then been a horror the next morning, and eaten my own body weight in carbs!!, and been irritable with the children and a bl**dy witch to undeserving DH. La La

May well crash and burn, for for the next hour, I am going to get myself a long fizzer because I do feel like having a glass of wine at the moment.

Much love, wonderbabes.

but for.

Also Hi jaqichan, welcome.

Hi Brave Babes and Happy New Year!

I has one glass of wine last night!!!!! This is nothing short of miraculous, DH got steadily tiddly beside me but I just kept thinking what a nightmare I am when drunk.

Also....feel really really guilty about this but my DS aged 8 told my mum that he hears me swearing at DH when he is in bed We have argued, some of you know why, but i would never want DS to know what a shit his Dad has been. DS defintely thinks I am the "baddie" I told him we were arguing over tupperware - strange I know - but DH does buy too much and there is no more room in cupboards.............anyhow the point is I never want to risk him hearing me shout and swear again and the only way to do this is to stay sober.

Onwards and upwards here is to a fabulous diet coke filled 2011

jacquichan welcome!
Are we still on the old thread?
I am going to be MIA for a day or two. The twin demons of drink and New year have been too much to cope with. But I'll be back in a day or two. keep me a seat.....

Hi all. Elderflower presse is my new drink of choice!

Ma

Please keep on posting on here in the next day or two, if you feel like it, whatever you do, don't do, whether you feel up or down.

I would really hate to think of you trying to go it alone with sad thoughts or difficult times. You have been great to me, so if there is anything that I can give back I would be honoured.

I felt I couldn't post during a bad couple of days, but it helps to, it does.

I'm sending you lots of hugs, and fairy dust , (which sometimes works!), xxxxx

Have a good evening everyone

thank youso much Thurso. I'll get through this and I'll be back. Being part of the bus gives me such hope. Once New year is over, I'll be back. Promise

We're always here Ma.

Keep safe xxxx

Evening Brave Babes.

Just wanted to pop back in here and say well done to those who have been sober over the last few days out of choice.

And those who have had a drink or seven out of choice, I hope you kept control

Off to bed now. Be back tomorrow on the new thread no doubt.

Hello JC

Hi all,

As ever MIFLAW you help me think. I am reluctant to post when I have been drinking because

1. I have let the side down
2. I know what you will all say - stop - and I am saying it to myself, loud and clear!! But failing, clearly.
3. I am ashamed of myself, and then some, despising, disgusted, etc.

The 2 weeks I stopped were the best weeks ever.
But now... I hate myself. DD is ok, but all the AA sayings are true. I want to stop for her, but I have to stop for me. I spent another night wishing I could die. Have booked babysitters for the next 3 AA meetings that are local. Until then, one day at a time.

Sorry to be so needy.

Thank you all for the welcome. Yesterday evening seemed to go on forever but I managed to stick to a low fat hot chocolate, there is no alcohol in the house, previously I would have made an excuse to go out and get some...perhaps there is hope for me.

Notevenasnowflake I am so sorry that you are feeling so down and I completely understand that feeling of hating yourself, but you must always think that you need to take it one day at a time as you said - this sounds like the most horrendous cliche but tomorrow doesn't have any mistakes in it (or something like that!) so a fresh start is always possible.

When I think back to the awful things I have said and done to my family and close friends I cringe and image how joyous it would be to have never touched a drop of alchol in my life.

If you need to talk I am here and I do know what if feels like to wish you could just fall asleep and never wake.

I think it is brilliant that you have already got yourself organised for your next 3 AA meetings I'm sure they will help enormously.

Hey NotEven

Just remember. one day at a time, don't project forward, life in the now, and choose not to drink in that moment.

You can do this, you know you can, you have proved it by not drinking for 2 weeks!

You are not being needy - you are recognising that you cannot do this alone and you need help and support, and you are asking for it! That is you helping yourself, before (if you were anything like me), these were fears that you were too afraid to voice to anyone, and especially yourself.
And there was no danger I would ever voice them to anyone, even an anonymous forum, so recognise how far you have already come on your journey!!

Having a lazy day here, after all the family for dinner last night. Did the whole caboodle, hor'derves, 3 courses, cheese, coffee and mints.

Was totally scrummy. But normally by pudding, I have got to the "too drunk to care point", and the coffee and cheese tends to be a help yourself - whilst I get more pissed affair.

Was wonderful to remember and enjoy the whole evening!!
As wonderful to know that the downstairs is lovely and clean and tidy, and the bottle bank will not be overflowing with my empties! Although everyone else had a few - and I really didn't feel I was missing out!!

Hi jaquichan

I am a recent addition to the bus; after another disastrous night out with DH and friends I decided to get sober.

It sounds like you have made a great start to the new year - I am sure you will be sparkling before you know it . Tes x

Thank you Christmas, stupid thing is I KNOW I can live without alcohol I have just had it around for so long it has become the norm, time to sort my life out I think.

Good luck to you Tes.

just wanted to pop in and say hi. I'm stopping drinking tomorrow for 4 weeks with DH although I have been controlled with my drinking for nearly a month now. I have been having the odd glass of vino and liquer coffee but all in all good for me.
Welcome Jaquichan

Hi, I would like to join the bus for a month of January. Always follow the thread and have had advice from MIFLAW quite often over the years. Long history of drinking but always manage to stop for a month in Jan. I look so forward to this month as it gives me a rest from the constant indecision about when and how much I drink. I can't drink in Jan that's my rule. Crazy eh? Think I'll post as much as I can so I can see it written down how not drinking makes me feel so good. There have been so many inspirational stories from the thread and I admire so many of you for coming through with your own problems. Thank you all and look forward to posting in Jan.
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Welcome Flowertop

Its great to know that you are able to stop drinking for an entire month - I'm hoping to do the same but with the rest of my life!! I have a v unhealthy relationship with drink. As someone who does this each Jan do you have any tips? I am finding it a bit tricky today - making a roast dinner and always have a glass of red wine to help me along with preperations.

Something I am planning to do is calculate how much money I save and use it to learn something new - thinking a cookery course / ice skating or horse riding lessons.

Good luck and look forward to reading you future posts. Tes x

Flowertop I was wondering the same as Christmas, how do you manage to go a whole month? I went to the shops today and didn't buy any alcohol, RESULT!!!

New thread here again.

Welcome Flowertop

Hoping you're all surviving today, just today, a day at a time.

Hi Christmas and Jaqui, not sure really but for me it is the belief that I can do it for Jan i.e. I have done in the past so can do again. The problem I have is when it comes to the 1st Feb I again start drinking and then spend the next 11 months battling in my mind about when the next drink is coming from. The problem is I just love to drink. Love the taste, feeling (apart from the hangovers of course) and everything that goes with it. I have social phobia/anxiety so social situations are obviously very tricky for me but made so much easier by being able to drink. In January I just don't socialise so it is a bit of a false existence really but just trying to give my body a rest from the effects. I drink tea/coffee when I feel like a glass of wine. I have found that substituting with lovely soft drinks doesn't work for me as it reminds me too much of drinking wine - not sure why! i also eat lots of sweets - wine gums for some strange reason. I do have awful physical pangs though but just remind myself that I am not allowed to drink in Jan. The belief system is very powerful. Good luck to both of you and look forward to keeping in touch.
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Good Luck Everyone on the rest of your journey. ODAAT.xx

OOps, I thought that this thread was full. I have posted on the next one! xx