The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Carry On Past The Christmas Party (part 2)

[TheMousefaceBeforeChristMouse]

Hello

I'm Mouse.

Welcome to the Brave Babes Bus - Gerald! Blame Silver for the name!

We are a group of MNers who post about our relationship with alcohol and how drinking it, or not, has an effect on our day to day lives.

Come and meet the other Brave Babes, say hi, take a seat or just read.

Here are the threads so far

desire thanks for that, you're probably right. What have you planned for today - I'm off out later this morning for last bits and pieces before the next promised snowfall?

Have so much to do White that I'm not even sure where to start , mind you this time last year I didn't even start my Christmas shopping until the Tuesday before Christmas day and still managed to pull it off so fingers crossed I get sorted in the next day or so

desire - I'm sure you'll manage it this year too. Are you a list person, or do you just go out and get it sorted?

Wasindie - hope the bruises are healing and you get out with DTs.

Wish I was a list person White, more of a grab and go person (if that makes sense). Have each child's (young adult's) main pressie got, just have to get few other bits and pieces and of course food shopping (which I absolutely hate).

WOOOOOHOOOOO!!!

venus - I am so glad you got home. I was going to suggest East Midlands airport then come and get you from there if you were still stranded and unable to get back home.

Your DH is lovely. Super organised. It's funny reading your post about what he had in his car....

When I was at physio last week, I was sat in the waiting room. A chap got talking to me, late 50's I'd say.

Anyway, we were talking about how when it snows, the world and his wife go a little bit bonkers and everything comes to a stand still.

He said to me "my old dad once told me, all you need in this weather is a sack of coal, a blanket, gloves, rope, a shovel, a hot drink in a flask, all in the boot of the car,"

I thought serial killer??

desire I don't mind the food shopping it's the putting away I hate - but I don't ask for help because I like it done 'my way' - nothing controlling about me!

Morning Mouse - hope Nemo had a better night, and therefore you too.

Ok here goes ... weather supposed to get worse so am going to venture out now and finish my flipping Christmas shopping, will leave food shop till tomorrow because if I do it too early there will be nothing left for Christmas Day :) Talk later, hope everyone has a great day.
Morning Mouse

Morning Campers - thank god you are home Venus.

Had massive melt down last night and sank 2 bottles of wine. Passed out on the sofa and woke up there this morning.

Full of self loathing.

Today will be a better day and I will do my best not to drink.

Morning desire and White

Silver - What happened last night? I'm not even going to start with the tough love because I get the impression that you already know how it works and what you have to do.

I started with one bottle of wine after aa meeting and predictably that wasn't enough for me so I bought a second bottle. What I have learnt so far from aa is that we alcoholics have something in our brains that means when we take the first drink it triggers a craving over which we have no control - that is why we must never pick up the first drink.

HOWEVER I am not going to let this fuck up diminish what I have achieved so far.

DP is home from France and that will help.

My sister and nephew arriving from London today.

I feel like shit but I am going to pick myself up and get on with things x

oh silver!! , you silly thing!! can you get to a meeting today? - your post yesterday telling all about your french plans sounded so positive - you can get back there - come on! say after me

TODAY I WILL NOT BE DRINKING!!

im off to a meeting today, after being stuck with the parents on saturday night i have been projecting about christmas on a massive scale - they just dont get it, they have no conception of hard it can be to say no, at home with dh i feel safe even when he has a drink, he kind of does it gently iyswim?, i almost dont notice him have a glass of wine, where as my parents, well, thats a differant story, they wont not drink, but they just keep going on about it, and asking me what i want to drink all the time, they dont seem to understand that i now just drink when im thirsty and then look all hurt when i say i dont want anything - they certainly encouraging me to drink, they just dont know when to let it lie!

so, meeting today, one on wednesday and thursday and hopefully i will have set myself up for a burst of positve energy on christmas day!

sorry, meant to say that they wernt encourging me to drink!, they are getting on a bit, but not monsters!!

silver do you have a plan for an AA meeting today? Will that help give YOU a focus that YOU want and need to stop drinking for YOU?

jesus, my mum is like that too. I don't have a problem with her drinking in my house, but I do have a problem with her asking me if I want one! She knows I don't drink. Even when I say, calmly-but-through-gritted-teeth, 'no thanks', she says 'are you sure?

Drives me mental.

fucking italics

Silver I echo Mouse you know what you've got to do, and have started getting there, don't give up. Read some of MIFLAW's posts, he says that he had lots of false starts before getting properly to grips with the situation. He has a very together head on young shoulders (young to me, anyway!).

I am hoping that you didn't drive to get the other bottle, keep yourself safe, whatever you do.

I hope you feel better soon, mashed potato sandwich with bacon on it's way xx

thurso - my God woman!! Mashed potato and bacon sarnie!! YUM!!

How is DH now??

JWN - It's really annoying isn't it? If you were pregnant they wouldn't offer you an alcoholice drink every five minutes.

If you were taking antibiotics, they may not then.

So, you resolve not to drink isn't enough of a reason for them?

How rude! Sometimes I wonder if people continue to offer an alcoholic drink to excuse the fact that they themselves are continuing to drink.

Kind of 'if you drink, I can drink too' but if you are the one not srinking, they feel guilty for wanting to.

Which is ridiculous. Assuming they are adults, they don't need permission to drink and yet they contiue to seek it....

Sorry for typos, knackered!

Thanks Babes.

I know what I have to do.

No I didn't drive

I phoned an AA friend last night pissed and she wouldn't talk to me.

She was right - what was the point when I wouldn't even remember the converstion.

I have text her and she is going to call me when she finishes work.

I sort of knew this would happen.

If you get on such an elated high it is bound to come crashing down at some point.

It does not lessen my commitment to AA.

I will get there BBs - hiccups/relapses regardless.

I am not going to a meeting today because I honestly can't be arsed

I know that sounds lame but I am so emotionally batttered I just need a rest from it.

Am going to have a shower, wrap DDs pressies, collect my sis from train station, and take each minute at a time.

Thank you all for being so wonderful xxxx

and BTW - mashed potato sandwich

eeew.

Just the bacon please nice and crispy [frin]

Silver - what time are you picking your sister up? I hope it's later on....

Make sure you have something to eat and drink lots of water before you even think about driving.

Be gentle with yourself. xx

BTW - Red has been signed off work again but wanted me to pass on her love to you all.

Silver I think you have got it spot on there, the massive high brought on the crashing low. I know that I have felt really up one minute, and then crying for no apparent reason.

My worst time for feeling like a glass of wine these days, is when I feel excited and happy, and I have to remind myself that if I do, it will only lead to a bottle and a half, and feeling decidely not happy in the morning.

Please, please don't get the impression that it has been plain sailing for me, because it really hasn't, and even being soooo grateful that my health scare was ok, didn't stop me thinking, phew, that deserves a cold, white, one.

Mouse Dh sent me a text to say that he is feeling better, but to be honest, he could hardly feel any worse than when he went out in the hail like snow at 6.30!

How is Nemo, I don't know how old DD is, but is she getting excited about Christmas?
Both DC up now, actually, haven't said before, maybe, (privacy, and all that, but both DC are DS, and DC1 came down this morning, all sleepy with five o'clock shadow, looking like a Levi advert, Crikey, is he really mine

Silver Don't knock mashed potato sarnie, until you've tried it