Help me leave H right now.

[RespectTheDoughnut]

I tried yet a-fucking-gain & now there's more porn. I need to get out of here now, before he gets home from work. DS is asleep. What do I need to pack? I'll go to my parents' until he finds somewhere new to live. Help me sort out the practical things please. Sorry I didn't listen to you all before. Total waste of my time & everyone else's.

do. I long for one but don't have the excuse of morning sickness!
FWIW I think you are coping brilliantly.

Aw, shucks You only see what's on here - you don't see the times I'm in tears as DS wriggles too much for my liking during a nappy change

& this is the dishwasher - it's in place on my work surface & looks very nice in the flesh, & quite roomy on the inside. I did a lot of research & it seemed to be the best for that price range. I will be back here with my excited ramblings at the weekend. Perhaps you could develop a sudden phobia of running water or something?

RTD, I cry at everything. I'm not much bothered by the split as it was for the millionth time and a long time coming. But it's there under the surface and I cry at all sorts. Nappies would prolly have me in floods, those bloody sticky things! And the poo! Am tearing up in frustration now...

Thank you for the link. I am thinking of taking out a useless thin cupboard to get an under counter one but that's a good alternative.
I can feel an aversion to scouring pads and bubbles coming on, now you mention it

Yes, & the way he rolls away to escape & wipes poo all over me, himself & the floor See? You need a dishwasher in your life - it'd reduce your stress levels!

Luckily DD is 4 so no nappies. She did poo over most of the bathroom last week and wet herself giggling after bath and clean jammies last night .

I do need a dishwasher, you're so right.

lovin' the dishwasher support group thang going on here...

. It's validation. You DO deserve it. So do you. You're fabulous. No, you.

Ah, I long for the days of no nappies. DS likes to take his off & wee / poo on the floor. He's beginning to become aware of when he needs to go & doesn't want to go in his nappy, but he's still too young to be potty trained. It's very annoying.

AF, I hope you have a dishwasher? Because you're worth it

actually, no

my dishwasher packed up a few months ago, and we are too skint to replace it

Oh no, would you like a support thread setting up? :(

I am living with it for now

I have my down days though

We'll all get through these dishwasherless days together. We have to [brave]

Stiff upper lip 'n' all that

Backs to the wall, we'll fight (those dishes) on the beaches

I have nothing to offer but blood, toil, tears and sweat.
Winston Churchill

I could go on...

Do you think Pedlars would do us a poster? Scouring for Britain or similar?

Hahaha, imagine how much it'd cost to get a customised Pedlars poster.

H is such a twat. I'm so angry with him. All of last week, I dropped DS off with the CM, he picked him up. Dropping him off is the worst job anyway because he's very unsettled since H left & cries & clings (also it's all uphill walking there with the pushchair ). Today, I got a phone call from the CM after the pick up time asking when he was being fetched. H hadn't turned up. I phoned H on his mobile & he went on to deny all knowledge that he was picking him up. So I had to run to the CM.

H just appeared here to take DS to the park 'before dinner', even though he said that this would be 'his night' - basically, I had to run all the way to the CM, fetch DS, give him a snack so that H could take him out for the fun play in the park, then bring him back & leave me to deal with dinner, bath, bed.

H also said yesterday (when he was feeling chatty & 'nice') that the flexitime he works is more flexible than first thought. Today, he'd be taking the piss to work 8 - 4 every day so he can pick DS up, therefore it's meant to be my job to drop him off and pick him up every day. Despite the fact that I'm going back to uni shortly & am trying to sort out a million & one things in the meantime (including tidying up the mess he made whilst ransacking the flat for his stuff; most of which he managed to forget anyway).

Apparently, when H said yesterday that he'd 'pick DS up & take him to the park', he meant pick him up from my flat, not the CM, despite that being the 100% precedent. Apparently it's my fault for not working this out. H also apparently 'tried to text me all day', but had no signal. Yet when I phoned him it went through immediately. & he texted straight afterwards to start dishing out blame. He works in an office right next to a landline phone & works on a computer - he has my email address. But anyway, if he was so sure that he'd made it clear, why would he need to text me anyway?

The transparency of all of his ridiculous lies just makes my head explode.

he is a cock, pure and simple

I love the "trying to get hold of you all day", that's a pesonal fave. My Skype, mobile, email and house phone have all decided not to log missed calls any more then have they? Cos they're showing bugger all.Eejits.

I know - it's not like he had to send a messenger on horseback who may have been killed by roadside bandits. Even then I'd have been a bit

Today was much friendlier, though. It makes my head spin not knowing what to expect. When he's nice to me, it breaks my heart. When he's horrible to me, it breaks my heart. I want my indifference back :(

Dig deep, RTD

It's okay, it's not like I have a chance to break anyway. If he cared, it'd be difficult to keep my resolve. But he doesn't. Every cloud

keep checking in x

We're still here Anytime you want to stick virtual pins in your ex (or indeed mine - feel free. no really.) then I'm your woman.

I'm feeling better the last couple of days. Like I'm beginning to actually not care. I'm sure there will be down points, but it's just so much easier without him. & back at uni on Monday (so soon!) so I'll be too busy to notice anyway!

Tippy, I feel like I should know already What happened with your ex?

RTD I've just read through the thread and I wanted to say 'good for you' on leaving him. I hope your start back at Uni goes well and that you manage to get everything sorted. Life is too short to be wasting it on idiots.