JWN thank you, I will. I've had dinner which helps. Might have to find something sweet now.
In terms of pantry etc - darkest before dawn I say, you're just at the worst point now and just think of how lovely it will all look soon
What's your oldest best before date in there? I love finding some gems every time I do a clear out.
LUCI don't worry about the children's birthday thing. Really don't. People on here and in real life have done WAY worse than that. Please don't worry. Certainly don't let what others think of you drive you to think that you are any worse than us and certainly don't let it think that you should treat yourself like shit. Value yourself from now on. Don't drink.
I really feel for you, your situation sounds hard. CAn you escape anywhere in the evening? Exercise, cinema, library, book group?
desire where are you?