Medical abortion fear

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I took my first tablet yesterday and due to take my next lot tomorrow. I’m so scared, I’ve read so many posts and terrified myself into their being issues or it not working.
im 5 weeks. I’m a nurse so I feel like I’m very aware of the medical side and what can go wrong :(

@Undecided111
Sending love n hugs...
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@Theoriginalinvisiblewoman thank you I've got a scan next week and they said they might give me some antibiotics with the symptoms I'm having.

Just checking into this thread as I took my first tablet at 10am this morning. Cried my heart out and so did DP, I’ve only ever seen him cry a couple of times before :(
I already feel a bit crampy.
dreading seeing that first bit of blood :(

@scaredandanxious01
We r here for u...
Don't worry..
It really isn't that bad..
i promise..

@heartbroken22 Glad you got through to them in the end. I hope everything goes OK, let us know how you get on 💐

@scaredandanxious01 Oh bless you, I was exactly the same, I had to take myself out for a walk after taking the first tablet just to try and take my mind off it. I hope you’re doing OK, it’s not an easy process to go through but we’re all here for you on this thread 💐

@scaredandanxious01 💐 we’re almost at the same point. I took my first pill yesterday evening. I was an absolute wreck. Much calmer today for my second lot today though. I was glad to see my DH cry because I felt like it was good to know he understood what a big deal this is for me / us.

I’m about two hours into the second set and not a sign of any blood yet. I have a metallic taste in my mouth but that’s it. I was expecting it all to happen fairly quickly - probably based on nothing - and this has thrown me a bit.

Ok so so far, this is fine.
Took until about 30 mins into the 2nd tablets to start bleeding but it’s mostly m when I go to the loo. Toilet bowl completely full of blood but average amount on pads. No cramping or pain but I’m lucky and have easy periods.

I bought sanitary towels for the first time in about 10 years thinking that my normal cloth pads / period pants wouldn’t cut it, but actually this seems a bit unnecessary now.

Emotionally - I feel like a huge weight has been lifted. Until I took the first pill I felt like it was still all up the air and one of us might change our minds at any moment and say “screw it, let’s have another baby”. Now I feel like I can move forward and all the worry about what life would be like or where the money would come from has gone. And then on top of all that I was so worried about the process - the nurse said 1 in one thousand needs a blood transfusion but all I could think was that given my history, I will be that one in a thousand. Obviously it could all get worse but so far, it’s ok.

@Undecided111 I was thinking about you during the night as I couldn’t sleep. I’m so glad to hear you are feeling more at ease now the process has started. I’m an emotional mess this morning as DP has gone off to work and I take my tablet in a couple of hours. I have someone else close to me though who said they can pop round if need be. I really hope that once my bleeding has got under way I can start to feel more relieved.

@scaredandanxious01 I hope all goes well with the second set today. I found the first pill so much more awful emotionally - it was such a huge and irrevocable step and also just do uncomfortable to think what’s happening inside you but you feel absolutely nothing. It’s almost a relief to bleed.
I had a bit of a wobble yesterday and someone I know announced a third pregnancy and my immediate reaction was to think that it should have been me.. but then I had a think and remembered that it could have been me if I’d wanted it, and could still be if I want to try again, but that actually it’s perfectly OK to realise that we’re happier the way we are. I’m entering a new stage in my life with my DC slightly less dependent on me every second of every day and I’m not sure I want to go backwards.

I have a bit of cramping now but nothing too strong and I’ve just walked 2+ miles on the school run. I feel just so strongly now that I have made a perfectly reasonable and valid choice and now it’s time to just get on with my life. Such a relief not to be bleeding out in a hospital corridor too!! - obviously unlikely but it was there in the back of my mind…

@Undecided111 thank you. I’m glad to hear you are feeling at peace also and your cramps and bleeding are easing.

i took my first two tablets vaginally at 10, nothing happened at all and I took the next two at 1, when I had just began to spot. I’ve been very emotional and have cried a lot especially when inserting the tablets and when I first saw blood.

Since then I’ve had cramps (took codeine), one gush of blood on the loo and later passed a big clot. I’m not sure if this was the pregnancy or not as it just looked like regular blood once in the loo, no other tissue or clumpy bits.

How are you feeling?

@itsonlyme44

Thanks for checking in on me - the bleeding and cramps have eased and I slept like a log last night for the first time since my positive test. I feel absolutely worn out today though and spent most of it on the sofa. Emotionally a bit all over the place tbh. Working tomorrow so we will see how that goes…

How is everyone doing? @scaredandanxious01 I’m glad you’re not doing too badly and at least slept well last night. You will feel emotional, I was surprised how emotional I was at times, for some reason I especially found Father’s Day quite hard? I’m guessing it was just the residual hormones I had floating about.

I took the first pill 3 weeks today and I am already ovulating again (I decided to start tracking it to be more aware of my body and avoid being in this position again). I am due to take the BPAS test tomorrow so have a little anxiety around that even though I would be surprised if it was positive! 🫣 Hope everyone is doing OK out there 💐

Sorry I've been a bit quiet.. had a few functions to attend..
I'm due to take my pregnancy test on the 4th.. I am feeling like it is all behind me now apart from last night when I heard a pretty much new born crying in the restaurant and my husband was turning his head to see the baby... I saw him look n smile at the dad... that part keeps playing in my mind... but I know we made the right choice...
much love to everyone...
😘

I am still so incredibly emotional, crying over the smallest thing (10 days after first tablet now). Just want these hormones to settle now

How long did you all experience heavy bleeding? I’m on day 7 after my second pills, had heavy bleeding right after I took them and felt that I passed the pregnancy. But for about 2 - 3 hours each day since then, I still experience heavy bleeding (soaking a large pad in 1.5 hours). Rest of the time average - changing pad every 3 - 4 hours. Should this have eased down by now?

@Willow8383 didn’t want to leave you unanswered…. Although I’m sorry because I honestly don’t know. It’s only 48 hours since I started bleeding and mine is also heavy on and off. I’m at work today and on my feet more and feel like that it making it a bit heavier for me. Can you call your provider?

@Willow8383 I hope you're okay. I bled for 7 days and then spotted afterwards. Everyone's experience is different. I know some women bleed for 2 weeks. How far along were you when you took the first pill? Just give the clinic a ring and hopefully a nurse will get back to you...

@itsonlyme44 I totally understand I've been like that for 3 weeks. It does get better. I was getting better but the day I did my test again and it was 'faintly' positive I was emotional thinking/wishing my baby was alive but my mind was saying no it's not otherwise the test wouldn't be faint. I've gotten better after the 3 weeks ish. I remember crying a lot after the first pill asking god to look after this baby for me...as the days went buy I forgot why I decided to terminate and hated myself and told my husband he should have stopped me. But on the days when I'm reminded of symptoms of how I was feeling how sick I was...it reminds me why I did what I did. I hope you're okay. This too shall pass x

Thank you both for your replies x

Hi everyone - so sorry I haven’t been on, I have been away. Finally stopped bleeding and cramping. Can test on Friday, hopefully will be negative. Hopefully everyone is ok and getting back to normal and for those just going through it, sending love xx

I am doing the pregnancy test that I was given with the tablets tomorrow coz I forgot it was meant to be done today...
i actually forgot coz I feel so normal n this feels like it happened so long ago...
Will update in the morning...
Sending love to everyone...
😘💯

Fingers crossed @brownbeauty80 😘

I took my test over the weekend and it was negative (expected it to be as I was ovulating again 🤦🏻‍♀️). Still feeling all over the place emotionally, I think it’s going to take me a while to get over what I’ve done (even though I know I had no choice) 🥺 Hope everyone is doing well 💐