Wanting termination at 34

[Butterfly34]

I'm 34, almost 35. I thought I wanted to get pregnant. I am married with a supportive husband. I have no children. I am 9 weeks pregnant. For the past 5 weeks every day I have not wanted to be pregnant and have wanted to end it. I have had 2 sessions with a counsellor and still feel the same. My husband would like the baby but understands if I'm unable to go through with it and says he'll support me. I'm really keen for a termination but worry I might regret it and will my feelings for the pregnancy change? At the same time I wouldn't want to bring a child into the world feeling like this. I had a scan at 7 weeks and saw the heartbeat. I just cried because I wanted a miscarriage and pray for a miscarriage every day. Has anyone else felt like this?

Ah @Butterfly34 congratulations. Your update had brought a tear to my eye. So pleased everything has worked out for you - enjoy the ride, it just gets better every day x

I'm so glad you got the help you needed. Congratulations on your baby girl

What a lovely update, so happy for you!

Fabulous news, huge congratulations to you all 💐Enjoy being a family of three 💐

Congratulations! Thank you for sharing

This thread made me cry. I’m so happy for you OP.

Congratulations. Lovely to read.

Amazing update! I nearly didn't read it, assuming someone had posted on an old thread in error.

Very happy for you, and you got great support from some knowledgable posters at the time x

Amazing update, thank you so much for sharing, it may help someone else in a similar position one day.

And congratulations, so happy to hear how well you and dd are doing!

What a lovely update. Sickness in pregnancy is awful and I believe it goes along with depression. It did in my case

@Butterfly34 I was the same with my 2nd. Previously thought a 2nd was something I wanted but when I found out that was going to happen I freaked out thinking “wtf have I done”. I cried so much. I was a mess for nearly 2 weeks. Had counselling for an abortion as well. I was looking into ways I could naturally bring on a miscarriage. The thought of doing that would also distress me though. I eventually forced myself into remembering why I wanted a 2nd in the first place. I always wanted 2, close in age. I’m now 21wks and I’m so excited. A single mum now but happy they got the same dad and happy with the age gap. I’ve got what I always wanted.

I’m pleased to hear that you didn’t go ahead with abortion and are very happy with your decision 😊 congratulations x