If it's Valium the GP has given you then they are absolutely excellent for short term dealing with anxiety and distress, I have some myself, I only took three or four over the first couple of weeks but it was very helpful to know they were there if I felt I needed them.
Taking the pill is horrible but I felt almost like I wasn't really there. I found I went into a sort of autopilot state that carried me through a lot of the almost impossibly difficult parts.
One thing which really helped me was the concept that I had no meaningful choice, my baby was not going to survive, so I had to think about my own well being and that continuing to carry a child who I knew would not survive would have been unbearable for me. One thing that still makes me cry every time I think about it but is also of some comfort, is that what I did I did out of love, to limit further suffering for everybody involved. I think that holds for all of us who post here.
Unfortunately, going through this experience is like walking into a different world, where horrible cruel unfair things happen. You shouldn't be surprised if you are the only person you know in your everyday life who this has happened to. That's one reason why this thread is good as we do all genuinely know how dreadful it is. Also, there are those of us who are a few months down the line and can hopefully serve as an example that you do start to recover and although you never forget, you learn to live with what has happened.
It's a bit quieter than normal here as a couple of regulars are on holiday and it has been a bit quieter of late. I keep popping back as I don't like messages to go unanswered for too long (but please don't feel you have to keep replying if you don't feel like!)
xxx