Pregnancy After Miscarriage Part V....Still checking those knickers? Check together here :0)

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Hi!

Sussex - really feel for you and hoping you get the good news you deserve tomorrow. Will be thinking of you.

Hope everyone else is ok and had gd wkends.

Sussex, good luck for tomorrow - I'm really hoping for you.

Good luck for tomorrow sussex, I'm keeping fingers and toes crossed for you. It'll feel like autopilot until you hear the scanners words, I always felt like reassurance scans were an out of body experience I'd got myself so worked up before hand then going through the motions felt strange. Remember a few days makes a big difference at that stage - 9wks now should give you a clearer picture.

Wallace monument would've been scary tonight - we've had thunder and lightning! A nice stroll along the seaside in eastbourne sounds tempting to me - especially having tea and scones in the cafe - we have friends near you.

Aww, thank you so much, everybody. Big hugs to all of you! God, I love this thread.

scot you're right - should have gone on the front in E'bourne and blown the cobwebs away. Might do that tomorrow evening, if I'm not being D&C'd [slides into premature self-pity emoticon]! Whereabouts are your friends?

near Horsham. I did the big bike ride in sussex this year

Positive thinking - no D&C, only a nice calm walk along the front

It's bad news, I'm afraid. All they could find was one small sac and nothing inside

Am booked in for a D&C on Friday.

Just feeling really numb.

At least we're booked in at the fertility clinic on 22nd Nov, so I think we'll probably be looking at IVF now. I refuse to give up hope!!

Thank you, everyone, for being so wonderful.

Noooooo... Oh poor you Sussex. I am sorry. It's such a horrible shock, isn't it. That silence from the sonographer, their well-practised 'bad news' voice... Ghastly.

But onwards to IVF. Go somewhere that does PGS - it greatly improves the chances for us oldsters.

Thanks, herb. Sorry to be so dim, but what is PGS?

I didn't dare look at the screen, so I focused on her face. Know exactly what you mean about the silence. Her face was saying 'Oh f*, how do I tell her this?'

Still, better than the last mmc, when the sonographer was a Russian trainee with bad English and I had to ask him to repeat himself three times, before the trainer took pity and said 'I'm so sorry, there's no heartbeat'

Sussex - I am so sorry. I'm sitting here feeling so sad and angry for you. Sending a big hug across Surrey to Sussex. I guess having your appointment is something to focus on but I know how hard this is. We're here for you.

Oh sussex I am really so sorry to hear that. Because we are both the same age and came through the same Conception thread I was really hoping that all would turn out well with this pregnancy.
When I had my mmc, I could see there was no activity and so spared the sonographer the difficult moment. It's just such a difficult emotional time.
All the best with your next plans. There are so many success stories with IVF on some of the other threads.

Sussex - PGS is 'pre-implantation genetic screening', which screens out the chromosonally duff ones and puts the good ones back. Costs an arm and a leg, but increases chances by about 20%

OMG. Just went to loo, and a bit of pinkness in the pants. Feel all sweaty.

Oh Sussex.....am so desperately sorry for you. The silence from the sonographer is just awful....

Herby - sounds like you need a hug too [hugs]. If you can, try not to panic. Dumb (and obvious) questions coming up....Any chance it could be have been the light playing tricks? How many weeks now? Could it be implantation? Any actual bleeding or just a bit pink? Sending sticky vibes and positive thoughts your way...

Just a bit pink, and nothing for a while now. I've got a scan on Wednesday afternoon... just hope nothing else happens before then. Feel dull cramping, but then have done for a few weeks now - hopefully I'm just being more aware of every twinge.

I hate this.

Am keeping everything crossed for you - and you felt rotten over the weekend with your bloodhound sense of smell which is a good sign....cramping not necessarily bad either...I do feel for you tho it's - quite frankly - all a bit shit isn't it.

Just lurking but keep wondering how you are all getting on...

sussex I am so so sorry , I was really hoping it would all go right for you. It's rubbish isn't it. Poor you. Sending hugs across wet and windy East Sussex for you. If you would ever like to meet up with a fellow Sussex over 40 CAT me and we can try!

herb I have everything crossed for you, I know that awful sweaty lurching feeling all too well. Look after yourself and hopefully you will have great news at your next scan.

to everyone else - I am feeling OK now, thanks to all who asked. It is really helping that I have my new job to focus on - not started yet but trying to sort out childcare for January. It's really stressing me out actually but is at least keeping my mind off other things!

Am so sorry Sussex. Please take care of yourself - it is all a bit shit.

Herby - Take care too. I am so hoping all is ok for you but can understand how you must be feeling now. Roll on wednesday.

Roquefort - nice to see you and good luck sorting things out for the new job.

Oh Sussex no that's totally crap I'm so sorry.

Urk Herb I hate it too, it's shit, why can't someone just give us babies without the stress, worry & misery.

Roque, good to see you, having stuff keeping you busy is good.

I'm okay (I suppose), next scan isa week Thurday, I'll be 12+ a bit, haven't decided whether to bring dh or not. Still feel pg but obviously have no idea whether all is well. Had a horrid morning yesterday when I noticed quite a lot of blood on my PJs, after much investigation of every possible source I'm pretty sure it came from my most recent clexane injection but I still feel really shaken.

oh no just checked in to see how everyone is only to get bad news from sussex The silence is horrible, I agree. When I lost Hope they didn't turn the screen in my direction (it was up on the labour ward, so it was the portable scanner). I remember watching the doc and the 2 mw faces. It was horrible.

herb - stay calm.... it might be nothing - just as a thought have you got piles??? (sorry if tmi)

There's been nothing since this morning, so hopefully it was just some funny cervical business, or something. I know it's probably nothing (crossed fingers), but it just brings past memories flooding back, doesn't it.

No piles, and this was definitely in the front bottom area!

Oh herb . Have everything crossed for you and sending the stickiest vibes across the airwaves.

Thank you everyone and lovely to hear from you again, roque, glad that everything is OK for you! Will certainly get in touch when D&C done with this weekend, if that's OK? Do you start your new job in January? DS started pre-school today, bless him and because I had the scan, DP took him along. I came flying in 15 minutes late, straight from the hospital with mascara down to my chin, hair standing on end and skirt tucked into my tights. Have had to ask them three times already what the start and finish times are

DP has just taken me for a lovely lunch and, I know this sounds quite hard-faced, but I alomost feel a huge sense of relief that I finally know the score after 9 weeks of not feeling great, a crap scan at 7 weeks, then two weeks of hell waiting for the follow-up today. I think we're going to throw ourselves 100% into the hands of the scientists now. God, who knows, we might even start having sex for fun again

Yes sussex new job starts in January - mornings and 1 afternoon! Hope ds enjoys preschool today - I have to say I often dash in in the state you were with no excuse whatsoever !

You do NOT sound hard faced at all, I had almost exactly the same experience as you with my last mc (not this one), incl. the repeat scans at about the same gestation and the feeling crap and was really very relived when at last I knew something certain. It felt particularly horrid to be feeling ill but with no positive reason IYSWIM.

Take care of yourself, enjoy being with DH and DS and I'd love to hear from you after the D&C.

xxx
RFL

I think having 3 DC gives you a very good excuse!

Well, to look on the bright side, at least when we get together we can have broccoli and stilton soup, followed by pate and brie sarnies

Oh bollocks sussex I am so sorry... but I also have to say I am impressed with how you sound and your pre-school story did make me chuckle despite the context, hope that's ok!! I know exactly what you mean about the relief of it in a way, too. When I had my mmc after 18 months of ttc, we had the best sex ever which is what led preety quickly (the next month) to this pg....particularly as we had to wait for the bleeding to stop, by the time we could do it we were rampant I tell you!!

But I am so sorry.

And Herby hugs to you - I hate it too its too scary. We really need the Knicker Checkers' Beach Resort in Barbados with cocktails laced with some form of painkiller that's good for us and the beans and makes us feel drunk and relaxed...a mohito style one for me please, with a little tray of bite sized tropical fruit, served to me in my hammock swaying in the breeze next to the sea...who's for joining me?

I did have a fab fab weekend away being spoiled by the second, I looked fab in my posh frock, ple were lovely to me (Was with people I see once a year) and I had an ace time in the pool feeling normal...scotlass you are indeed bonkers for your mad climb. I grumbled all the way up to Stirling Castle and then refused to pay the £8.50 entrance fee anyway...£8.50!!!

Some competent person - volunteer for a new thread??