BFP after recent loss

[purplecolouroffunk]

Hello!

I know there are quite a few threads like this, but thought I’d start a new one for those of us going through this just now 🙂

I found out about my MMC at what should have been 7.5 weeks (no growth since 5). Had to have a D&C as my body wouldn’t let go. That was back in mid-April.

I’ve had one period since then and it now looks like I’m pregnant again! Can’t believe we’ve been so luckily to fall again so quickly.

Got a vfl yesterday at 10dpo and the line is a bit darker today at 11dpo. Pic attached has 11dpo at the top and 10dpo bottom. What a shock when I saw that line!

Anyway, I’m already feeling nervous about everything so I thought I’d make a space for people in a similar position to join. Maybe we can help to calm each others’ nerves a bit 💜

@Lemonbalm8 good morning! I woke up feeling a bit sick and was making my bed then starting gagging and threw up bile 🤣 I'm 5+5 and my other pregnancies the sickness started between now and 6 weeks so I'm gearing up for it. I have terrible sickness where I can't eat and just constantly throw up bile - I wouldn't mind it if I knew there was a baby at the end of it !! I'm off to the hospital at 2 to get my progesterone (why am I nervous for that?🤣)

How are you?

Hello lovelies, just a little happy update from me (finally). I had my scan at EPU today and for the first time ever we've come out of there with hopeful news.

One little 'seahorse' as the sonographer put it, with a lovely heartbeat and measuring 6+2, which is great as I'm 6+2 today. We've never had even remotely this much hope before, so we're fingers crossed and onwards how 🤞

I've still no symptoms, but it's still early days, so who knows what will happen. Hope you're all doing okay ❤️

Good morning! I'm 5+6 today, so 6 weeks tomorrow, I can't believe it. I had an interrupted sleep at night so woke up at 8.30 am which is very late for me. Now it feels like time just flew and it's 11 am. I had a tiny bit of nausea, so I just remembered to have breakfast and it's eased up.
Good luck for the progesterone test, will they still give it to you without knowing the result? I hope they do, I really think it's a good idea to have that extra bit of support. Are you also taking aspirin?

@KittyFantastica what a great news to have this morning! The scan is so clear as well, did you see the yolk sac as well? I remember my son's scan at 7+2, it had this little bubble, and yes he did look like a little seahorse with a balloon. Congratulations and I really have everything crossed for you!
I've got weird symptoms, I go for a week with nothing and then a day of complete exhaustion and then nothing and then a day of complete exhaustion. It's very sudden.
Thank you for the good update and I hope we will all follow with good updates.

In the 3 weeks that I'd known I'm pregnant, I have probably only had 3 days of tiredness (mainly body ache, headache), and then nothing the rest of the time. It really affects my mental health to have this sudden changes, I feel like I'm not pregnant most of the time and then I can't get out of bed.

@Lemonbalm8 they didn't say they was doing a test they just said the progesterone was here if I wanted it. What is the test? I've been taking 150mg of aspirin also since about 3dpo

Absolutely wonderful news!!!!! Congratulations 🫶🏻🌈

Sorry! I read you were doing progesterone test. There shouldn't be need for one! They can just give it out. Sorry for the confusion.

@KittyFantastica That’s the most wonderful update!! 🌈

@KittyFantastica so happy for you! It is such a wonderful clear picture and really does look like a seahorse! Its so reassuring to have seen the heartbeat already. Lovely to have some positive news and make us all feel more hopeful 🥰❤️ xx

Thank you @Lemonbalm8 I'm sure you know what it's like searching for answers and wondering if I could've done anything differently to prevent my MC. I think I know in my heart that the BF had nothing to do with it but if there's even a slither of doubt about that, I'd like to try and stop to give everything the best chance possible. I'm not rushing it - hopefully will cut out night feeds over the coming month I think. She is a total boob monster too 😂 xx

I've just tried to have lunch and totally couldn't stomach it. I managed quite a bit but really wasn't feeling it. I wonder if this is the nausea starting 🤢

@KittyFantastica - such wonderful news and a lovely scan photo too. I’m so happy for you!

Still no real symptoms over here. Occasional nausea which I think is just anxiety as it goes away when distracted. I have brain fog/really struggle to concentrate at work, but again think that’s just anxiety. Made the mistake of reading about miscarriage rates linked to high dna frag on Reddit and didn’t find any success stories so back to feeling like this pregnancy is 100% doomed 😥

Thank you @Lemonbalm8
yes we could see the yolk sac, she moved the probe so that the embryo was in front of it for the photo. It was the clearest way to see the heartbeat too. Blew our minds! I think at this stage I’m grateful not to be feeling sick all the time, but we never know what will be around the corner 😅

Thank you @torturedpoet13
@MrsB2019x @CosmicLove and @Bubbles19818 🤞It certainly feels surreal, especially still not really feeling anything. I have absolutely everything crossed that there’s more good and happy news to come in this thread. We all deserve it so much ❤️

Keep positive. You had your little one when probably the DNA or sperm issues were worse, so there is a good chance of success. I'm guessing he took more supplements since the MC? My partner took more after my mc, and his results really improved over few months. His motility I think was like 2% and over 3 months it became 8%. Did you do any other hcg test or leave it be?

Oh @KittyFantastica this is brilliant news on a gloomy Tuesday!! So so happy to hear that and see your lil seahorse 💜💜💜

I’m having a weird couple of days. I do am dram and I’m rehearsing for a show just now and one of the girls is about 18 weeks pregnant which is exactly where I would have been if I hadn’t lost my last pregnancy.

Obviously I’m so happy that I’m pregnant again but it did make me feel what I’d lost and wonder where I’d be now, or what that baby would have been like. I suppose I have to think if I hadn’t lost that one I wouldn’t have whoever is in there now hopefully growing away.

Then this morning I was almost certain I could feel blood coming out but it was just loads of this creamy stuff. Has anyone else had that?! Gave me such a scare!!

@purplecolouroffunk I'm sorry you're having a weird time. On CM, weirdly I haven't had any! But since I'm on and off spotting, trips to the bathroom are definitely scary. I think I read that CM is to protect the uterus, so hopefully that's good signs. I don't know why I have none 🤷🏻‍♀️

As time goes, somehow I'm getting more scared as it feels like there is more to lose. I've definitely got a lot of trauma from the MCs, that I tried to address through therapy but I don't think I could ever get over them. I guess if this pregnancy makes it, they will always be worth all that trauma. I'm just scared it will end in another mc, and I'll just be this traumatized person, it takes a lot out of me. I do know that I am very strong though, I've been able to get through many MCs and still carry on, so here is hoping it will work out.

@Lemonbalm8 you definitely are very strong for getting through so many losses. The one I had was hard enough. I can't imagine going through that again. But I know what you mean - as time goes on and having a baby feels like more of a realistic possibility, it would be a much harder fall if news was bad.

@purplecolouroffunk I think increased cm is totally normal in pregnancy. I had it a couple of weeks ago and it was actually what prompted me to test. I remember that was the one thing I noticed when I tested positive with my daughter. I haven't had any spotting since Saturday (yay!) and been having normal cm since but definitely less than I would expect. I suppose we're not machines and our bodies and hormones will be different and fluctuating all the time!

I was just thinking about how many weeks I'd be too! I would be 20 weeks on Thursday. That's the day of my scan. I hope it's a good sign 🙏

@Lemonbalm8 oh interesting to hear about the CM! I have days where I have quite a lot of creamy CM and days where it's pretty dry. Today it's been abundant haha.

I'm absolutely with you there. The more time goes on past the point where I had a loss last time, the more I feel to have to lose. What if I find out about an MMC at 8 weeks, or even 12 weeks? It's terrifying. It's like the stakes are so high, because it's all tied to not only your physical health but also your mental health.

Have you found anything particularly helpful in getting through it? I've been trying to just trust my body a bit more, and the little bundle of cells in there, but it's really hard when you've experienced loss. This group has helped so so much, I'm so grateful for you all 💜

@CosmicLove I was exactly the same last time - I had loads of CM at an unexpected point and that along with overproducing saliva is what prompted me to test!

Amazing news on the spotting!! It's such a relief when it goes away isn't it. Hoping it stays away for you - it's a pain in the arse at the very least.

It's a funny feeling thinking about where you'd be, isn't it? I'm trying not to wish this pregnancy away but such a big part of me wishes I was where I should have been and out of the woods. I think that's definitely a good sign for Thursday! :)

@purplecolouroffunk @CosmicLove these are all my fears and unfortunately mmc at 12 weeks while horrendous is not even the worst. If I get to week 10, I'm going to do nipt test and then I think only at week 20 after anatomy scan, I'll have a bit of calmness. It sounds so sad 😢

Yes it is so frustrating to have many, like I don't even know what the hell is going on, but my first was the hardest. We are all in the same boat, hoping and praying ❤️

@Lemonbalm8 exactly. It's all we can do at this stage ❤️

Thank you, I hope so! I also try to tell myself what you mentioned earlier - that I wouldn't be having who I'm hopefully having now, if the last one had worked out. It's hard to find that reassuring though, as I don't know that this is going to work out yet 🥺