BFP after recent loss

[purplecolouroffunk]

Hello!

I know there are quite a few threads like this, but thought I’d start a new one for those of us going through this just now 🙂

I found out about my MMC at what should have been 7.5 weeks (no growth since 5). Had to have a D&C as my body wouldn’t let go. That was back in mid-April.

I’ve had one period since then and it now looks like I’m pregnant again! Can’t believe we’ve been so luckily to fall again so quickly.

Got a vfl yesterday at 10dpo and the line is a bit darker today at 11dpo. Pic attached has 11dpo at the top and 10dpo bottom. What a shock when I saw that line!

Anyway, I’m already feeling nervous about everything so I thought I’d make a space for people in a similar position to join. Maybe we can help to calm each others’ nerves a bit 💜

@purplecolouroffunk I completely am with you with the tiredness! I was falling asleep in work, literally eyes dropping, at about 4:30pm on Friday 🤣

I also have had very light twinges and cramps every now and then. I think this is absolutely normal. Some of it for me ends up being wind too, lol. This morning I've had really excruciating sharp pains in my boobs, sometimes one, sometimes both. Feels like someone's stabbing them and twisting the knife and it's kind of centred around the nipple.

I'm so glad you had a lovely day telling your mum and dad! I've also told my mum and my little brother but im not telling anyone else for a while. My mum was such an angel last time and was there for me.

I've caved and registered with the hospital, just more so that it will be 'officially' counted in case the worst was to happen. My booking appt is 15th July.

I'm 5+1 today and I started spotting (looking back was more of a small bleed) at 5+5 last time, after a gym session. For this reason, im solely going to continue going light at yoga this time, once a week.

I luckily have a work trip this week to distract myself as much as I can and might try some of the podcasts you've all mentioned.

Don't you wish you had a Time Machine or as @KittyFantastica said, a little window! I wish I had psychic abilities 😂

@purplecolouroffunk Awww that is lovely that your mom is so supportive and hopefully her knowing will help you through the ups and downs...

This morning I'm really not feeling positive. I started cramping down below and spotting, it has been few days since I spotted but it was never with cramping. Symptoms I had last Thursday (tiredness, body ache) were gone by Friday afternoon. I feel like progesterone might be masking a miscarriage... Argh, I'm quite sure things are not progressing, I can't even have a scan as I'm only 5+4. Or shall I try to get a scan early next week?

@Lemonbalm8 I'm so sorry you're not feeling positive today. If it helps, I had cramps while I was spotting too and EPU told me it was normal to have cramps in early pregnancy. I know it's so anxiety inducing though. Could you call your EPU tomorrow and see if they'd be happy to scan you on Wednesday when you'll be 6 weeks? I'm sure if you tell them you've got pain and spotting, they'd be happy to do that. It's such an unbearable time xx

@Beks96 it's such a milestone getting past the date of the loss isn't it. My twins stopped growing at 6 weeks. I'll be 6 weeks this week so I'm anxious as the date approaches. Good to have your booking appointment sorted and not too long to wait. I have a scan on Thursday so all being well (god I hope all is well) I will call and book in after that xx

@Lemonbalm8 I’m sorry you’re having a tough day. As CosmicLove said, cramping and spotting are both so common in early pregnancy that I wouldn’t worry, although I know that’s easier said than done. I’m 5+3 so one day behind you and don’t have any symptoms, not really tired anymore but keep reminding myself that symptoms are not a symptom that everything is ok. I had symptoms with my last MMC and that didn’t end well and nothing with my LC so try not to put too much weight on them.

I would def call up the local EPU though and see if they’ll give you a reassurance scan. I know how difficult it is sitting with the anxiety and the doubts so if it gives you peace of mind it’s a good thing to do.

Thank you @Bubbles19818 and @CosmicLove . Yes this anxiety sucks. I have decided to wait till my 7 week scan (I pushed back last week), as I just can't go there, hoping and getting sent back in limbo. It's going to be a long week... but at least I'll be in the dark and know that when I find out, it'll be a fairly sure thing x

Just wanted to pop on here and say even though I don't message back all the time I read every single response. This thread really makes me not feel so alone in this lonely journey after loss. So thank you ladies for that ❤️🌈

I'm 5+3 today and I've been SO thirsty the last few days, nothing will quench my thirst. My boobs and nipples are really sore too & I felt a bit sick yesterday but I think that was anxiety more than anything. I'm ringing the gp on Monday but does anyone know if sertraline is safe (I've read it is but want real life experience) I have to be on it as had a bit of a breakdown after 4 losses and it's really helped me cope and I don't feel as anxious this time round (and by that I mean I've only tested 5x rather than 5x a day for 7 weeks🤣)

It's really hard being on this journey after loss. I've had a chemical, a blighted ovum, a MMC and a spontaneous MC and I just think what else could the world possibly throw at me? I'm in between thinking this HAS to be our time or there's no way this is gonna work out. Ahhh. Anyone else absolutely TERRIFIED going to the toilet incase they see blood? 3/4 of my mc started with really light brown spotting so I'm wearing panty liners just so I can see it properly if I do start 😬 also I'm really wet down there which doesn't help so I always think it's blood? (Sorry tmi)

I had to tell my work yesterday because of my previous losses I had a lot of time off for appointments and stuff so I let them know early which made it more real. I have my first scan in 11 days when I should be 7 weeks and sometimes I'm excited and another part of me is fighting back saying 'you won't make it that far anyway' god help me and my mind 🤣 sorry for the paragraph!

@torturedpoet13 im 5+1 today and im also terrified to go to the toilet in case I see blood, more and more terrified each day. I completely know what you mean with the discharge and stuff too. TMI but sometimes I feel it leaving me and I think it's blood and my heart just drops.

It's so s**t 😔

I am pretty sure that my mum took sertraline when she was pregnant with me. I think it should be safe but maybe see if you can check with a professional to put your mind at rest.

I'm so sorry for your losses, I'm hoping and praying that this is the one that sticks for you and everyone on here. It really does help to have a community on here to all support each other 🌈

I know 11 days seems like an eternity right now but sending you loads of strength to get you through these tough days x

@torturedpoet13 seems quite safe in pregnancy, could you get some support from epu or fetal medicine on this? https://www.nhs.uk/medicines/sertraline/pregnancy-breastfeeding-and-fertility-while-taking-sertraline/

I had 3 losses and honestly the number of losses really affected me. The first MC I really believed I got unlucky. Since then with each one, I trust my body less. I did therapy for 6 months and it really helped me. I still have anxiety but this is the calmest I've ever felt, I think it's because I really do believe that so little is in my control... I'm taking lots of medications and IVF with PGT is the back up (also low chances of success but much lower risks of mc). Take it day by day...

Hi everyone hope you're all doing ok I'm just dropping in to give some of the good news I know I desperately searched for.

I'm currently 16w1d following IVF and a previous MMC at 8w in January. I suffered with a lot of cramping my entire first trimester and a fairly significant bleed about 5w2d but yesterday (and I can't believe I can say this) we found out we're having a son!!! I'm going to be a boy mum I'm so excited and we got to see him again wiggling around after so much anxiety in the run up.

I hope this gives some of you the reassurance I know I sought out in tough times, and whilst I still do feel worried (like I said I don't think that'll go until he's here) if it can happen for me it can happen for you!!! I spent many many many dark nights thinking this would never be me and I wanted it so much I'd scared it away.

Sending you all lots of love!

Wow that's such a good news @Lollypop25! You must be so pleased!!! Hope everything goes smoothly, the next half (and a bit more) of the pregnancy 💗

Wonderful news @Lollypop25 🥰 huge congratulations! So pleased all is well and you're having a little boy! It's so nice to have positive news. Look after yourself and very best wishes for the rest of your pregnancy and beyond ❤️ xx

@Lollypop25 that's absolutely amazing news, thank you for sharing and congratulations on your boy ❤️

@Lemonbalm8 @Beks96 thank you both for your words of courage! 🫶🏻

This is me too. Had a 2 hour nap earlier and still feel tired 😂 I’ve had some shooting pains like that too! I’ve not experienced anything like that before. In the past I’ve just had a general ache, which I seem to have now, but also these random shooting pains too.

That’s good about your mum and brother, and that you have your booking appointment. I’ve decided I’m going to call the midwife number tomorrow and register too.

We are exactly the same, I’m 5+1 too 😊 Sending you lots of love and strength for this week. Right there with ya - it’s a scary time 💜 That’s good about your work trip too! I find that kind of thing such a good distraction.

@torturedpoet13 I am also soo thirsty! It’s funny isn’t it, just parched all the time 😂 I’m living for fizzy water with lemon and a bit of mint 🤤

I get that feeling too about the bleeding. I spotted the whole time last time so I just sort of expect to see it when I wipe, it’s a horrible feeling. Totally know what you mean about the wet thing too. I’m sorry it’s making you feel anxious 💜

I was thinking I might tell my boss too. It was great to have support last time and might be good for him to know in case anything happens, and just generally cause my mental health isn’t amazing right now. It seems quite early though so I’m not quite sure what to do! Anyone else thinking of telling work?

@Lollypop25 that is brilliant news, I’m so happy for you! And such a lovely scan pic too 😊💜

And I’m sorry you’ve not been feeling great today @Lemonbalm8. You feeling any better this evening? Symptoms can definitely come and go so try not to worry too much if you can 💜

I think if it reassures you definitely give the EPU a call and they should be able to get you in for a scan from 6 weeks on since you’ve had some spotting. I’ve been having cramps yesterday and today too if that helps at all.

I'm 5+2. Woke up in the middle of the night to go for a wee and spotting with some tiny clots. I honestly think it's over for us. Trying my best not to worry and remind myself it's out of my control.

This is exactly what happened last time this continued for a few weeks.

What will be will be 😞💔

Sending you hugs and hoping for the best for you, @Beks96

I'm thinking of you @Beks96 💜 Remember that not all bleeding is bad news, although I know how impossible it'll be for you not to worry.

Definitely give the EPU a ring and hopefully they'll be able to chat through things with you and get you in for a scan around the 6 week mark. Sending you lots of love. We're all here for you 💜

@Persipan @purplecolouroffunk thank you both ❤️

I had this last time, saw a heartbeat at 6 weeks and then didn't the next time. So I'm a little bit reluctant to go before 8 weeks as I don't want to put myself through the false hope again, if that makes sense. It was too much of a rollercoaster and very confusing.

I think I'll wait it out as much as I can and if any major problems I'll give them a ring. Thank you so much, again x

Hoping for the best @Beks96 !
It is a really worrying time, but it might be irritated cervix or blood in the uterus. Different pregnancies 🤞🏻

Thank you @purplecolouroffunk 💚

Sending love @Beks96 really hoping everything is okay. We're here if you want to share worries or seek reassurance anytime ❤️

Sending love and hugs @Beks96 ❤️