Just had an emotional outburst at work in which I shouted at my Line Manager and told him to leave me alone in front of a load of people. I’ve always been super professional so genuinely can’t believe myself.
Long story short, I mentor a new member of staff but this has been really poor while I’ve been off so much and so it was agreed that she should have a new mentor. Absolutely great, I’ve been feeling so guilty about letting her down so much so it was a real weight off. To allow another team member to have the capacity to mentor, I was going to pick up a something easy that she does. Fab, all ready to go, everyone on board, everyone knows what’s happening.
Except my line manager has now decided it would be better for me to keep mentoring. I told him I can’t, I’m doing a terrible job and it isn’t fair on the trainee. I already drew a line under it in my head and I don’t want to go back to it. So I was annoyed and asked him to leave me be for a bit. He went away, and then came back just a few minutes later when I was still annoyed and lessons were starting so the corridor was full of kids and staff, and said to me in the corridor that he really thinks it’s the best plan, so I kept telling him I am not ok with this plan, I need to get out of the corridor because it’s full of kids, and I need to just get on with my lessons today. He just kept trying to say why the other plan wouldn’t work and I was getting more and more angry, so in the end shouted at him to just leave me alone.
Kids heard, other teachers heard. I know I won’t get in trouble because they know this is so out of character for me, but honestly I am so pissed off that this happened and he just kept pushing.