Aww, thank you! I appreciate it. DDs 1 and 2 had extremely normal and uneventful births, so this is all a bit unexpected.
Yep, she is 33 weeks 3 days now and she's doing well. She's now breathing without help but still has a feeding tube. I really wanted to express so that she could have my milk, since it's supposed to be so beneficial for premature babies, but my milk hasn't come it properly.
I was already in hospital because I had contractions which were classed as premature labour, so I was having nifedipine, steroids for baby's lung developments, the work. And I was really hoping that she'd hang on a bit longer, but she'd obviously had enough and came VERY quickly. I remember I was upset and I didn't want to push because it was too early... And then after she was born, I don't really remember much because apparently my blood pressure was dropping and I had a big PPH and ended up in HDU. Now I'm pretty much okay, but I still get dizzy whenever I do anything and even the smallest activities are completely wiping me out (like writing this message, ha).
I just feel weirdly emotional because it's not how I wanted it to be. And it's a mess up with DD1 and 2 (who had to go stay with their grandparents, my PiL) and DH didn't even get back to the UK till the day after she was born!
The strangest thing is her name - which we really hadn't decided on. But for some reason, when I was kind of more or less "with it" again, I was really insistent that I wanted her to be called Rose. It wasn't even a name that we'd considered, so I've no idea where it came from! But she looks a bit like a rose which hasn't quite fully got its petals out yet. Luckily DH likes it okay and she's going to be Rosie for everyday.
Sorry for the offloading... I'm in a bit of a weird emotional state still, I think.