We had our 20 week scan this week, definitely a boy💙
He's such a wanted baby following our losses, we went through Ivf following 2 ectopics. At 16 weeks to my shock I was diagnosed with gestational diabetes, I've been monitoring and adjusting my meals which is working but my fasting readings are high no matter what I do. I think they'll put me on medication next week, I'm really dreading it. I had been made aware with gestational diabetes its usually safer to induce between 38-39 weeks, but then at the 20 week scan they saw a low lying placenta, the sonographer was of the view although many do move he wasn't confident mine would move in time and said I'd be reviewed again at 32 weeks, if not clear it'll be c section and closer to 37 weeks. I don't know what made him so convinced it would not move.
It's a lot to go through in a few weeks, I'm finding myself feeling constantly anxious and low, all I do at the minute is cry. Then I feel guilty because I remember how much we want our little one and cry even more.
The worst thing is its all out of my control, then I really start to hate my body, it feels like it's failing over and over again.
I don't know who to talk to professionally my community midwife was away at my 16 week apt I'm not due to see her until week 28, diabetes team never respond to calls or emails, I've got a consultant call end of August, I think I'm under them for the ivf, I don't know if they will also oversee the newest issues.
Trying to keep positive baby is healthy at the minute that's the main thing but it just doesn't shift how rubbish I feel.