January 2021 due date bus 4

[BabyG123]

Nearing the end of bus 3 so here is bus 4!

11+5 feeling rougher than ever but excited what's to come

@WhoUsedMyName oh no :( that must hurt indeed.. does it go away eventually? I got tested for it as I had PCOS symptoms but they didn't see anything.. but since I get really bad period cramps, could be somehow linked to that 🤷🏼‍♀️ don't know..

@MayBug2020 thanks hun, hopefully it's nothing yea, I've been in bed all day, literally can't do anything today...

@lilypad88 yes could be if you have bad period cramps I also have endometriosis so odds are stacked against me lol you can use a hot water bottle whilst pregnant hun

@WhoUsedMyName oh sh** :/ hope you're doing okay though! Thanks for the tip hun :)

@WhoUsedMyName I also have Endo. Are you getting pain while pregnant? X

@MayBug2020 oh really yes quite bad all the way through I went for a scan they checked my fibroids and said won't be them as they are higher up. Do you usually get a lot of pain? X

@WhoUsedMyName I was on the pop pill constantly before falling pregnant and I was lucky I fell pregnant quickly so didn’t get any pain but I have had a few twinges and I am wondering if they are standard pregnancy or endo related. Fingers crossed we both go through the pregnancy without any issues xx

@IshaPoet men sometimes haha I get ya. Every time I go for a walk I need a wee and hes like your always moaning!! 😬😂

@Jean82 im sure all is ok, but we always worry don't we.
@lilypad88 hope your ok xx

Just put my 12week scan pic in a frame ❤️

@Bubbabee like today for instance I've been running around doing everything and his sat with his feet up playing on his game. Honestly if I wasn't bothered about the cost of the console I would smash it with no hesitation.

This may sound awful but he makes me second think things sometimes 😔 sorry I'm feeling a little depressed and my family haven't exactly been supportive so it's getting to me now. Sorry 😢😔

@IshaPoet hormones can be a bit if a fucker. I hope you're ok.

Also my notes were given at my 12 week scan (also essex)

@Bubbabee aww so sweet 🥰 can't wait for my 12 weeks scan, another 2 1/2 weeks for me, so stressed about it!...

@IshaPoet oh sorry to hear that hun... I'm the same tbh, had a big row with dp over silly things, we barely spoke all week 🙄 it's hard sometimes, I feel like people don't really understand everything that we are physically and mentally going through... hope you're okay and that it will get better x

@lilypad88 @BabyG123 as sad as this sounds his asked if it's too late to get the situation taken care of

I feel sadness deep in my soul after everything I've gone through for the past few weeks he says this to me now infront of his family members who don't give a 💩💩 about me and have made that perfectly clear.

Broken 😔

@IshaPoet sorry I'm Confused. What situation? Don't want to make assumptions 😘

@IshaPoet oh gosh... sorry to say that but what a jerk!.... well huni, the only thing you can do right now is taking care of yourself! The most important right now is you and your sweet little coco bean ❤️ can you not get any support from somewhere else? Friends maybe? Or simply speak to your midwife, you shouldn't have to go through things like that alone :(

@BabyG123 he wants me to get an abortion now instead of going through with the pregnancy

@IshaPoet how awful. He sounds like someone you don't need to be around. Pregnancy is a blessing and he is just being ungrateful. We are all here for u chick x

@IshaPoet I didn't want to just assume. Was you trying for the baby? Men baffle me sometimes. Sorry you're going through this. But let him Know who's boss. Tell him he knows where the door is if he isn't happy. Soon change his mind and if not then good riddance xxxxx

@IshaPoet I am so sorry to hear what you are going through. Like all the other comments don’t feel pressured into doing something you don’t want to do. It’s not al up to him and you need to make sure you do what you want and are happy with. It’s your body. Him and his family do not sound the most supportive - have you got your family around to help? Xx

@MayBug2020 @BabyG123 @Baba11 I don't really have my families support- my twins have autism so it takes a lot of my time and all my energy so my parents sadly said if I go through with this pregnancy then I wouldn't be getting much or any support from them because they see how hard it is for me already and they suggested I waited a year or two before having another.

I just feel very low depressed and I haven't stopped crying since yesterday and I've had a slight bleed of red😔. And I have to a lot that needs to be done. My work has just called and asked for me to do our COVID-19 training and for me to come in and have a meeting with them about my pregnancy so I honestly don't know what to do.

Oh @IshaPoet this sounds so hard, I'm so sorry you're having to go through this. It's such a tough time and it would be so nice if people could just be unconditionally supportive instead of trying to impose their ideas on you. You've got time to do some thinking and work out what's best for you - that's the most important thing.

@MarvEll I just wish my family could be more understanding but not all families are I guess. If I'm honestly I couldn't go through with an abortion because the clinics and places aren't doing the surgical one because of coronavirus and I would be sent the medication needed to do it at home and I don't think I could put myself through having to do it alone.

@IshaPoet it's really frustrating even reading what you're going through.

Just because the twins have autism doesn't mean the baby will. Working with special needs I know routine and structure is super important and your partner should step up if he isn't already. Knowing your partners sitting on his games console whilst you're juggling the household sounds like you need a medal.

Do what's best for you, lay down the rules and be strong! Sending hugs and we are all here for a rant/ear!

@IshaPoet I don't blame you. You definitely shouldn't have to do anything you're not comfortable with. It's not fair. I agree wholeheartedly with @BabyG123, your partner should totally be stepping up. Xx

He steps up when it suits him or when he feels like otherwise he doesn't do much if I could kick him out and do it alone I would but the twins are so attached to him that it'll cause a big breakdown in the household.

@IshaPoet follow your heart and mind, the twins will adapt to any situation.

My parents broke when I was little and I know no difference. My best friends mum was in a unsupportive relationship and stuck at it until she broke and her daughter was late teens who now still at 30 is having therapy! Be you!