Pregnant after Missed Miscarriage MMC

[Smilingdonkey]

Hi, starting this thread -very tentitively- as a graduation from the TTC after MMC group. A couple of us have begun to get BFPs and I would like a space to go though this with people who get why I'm so anxious - especially in the first trimester! Some of the other threads are so big and rather gung ho and I want to tread a bit gently right now!
I am only 4 weeks but have been getting progressively darker tests since 7-8dpo.
I'm becoming more certain this is not a chemical but I am being so cautious! Definitely too scared to work out a EDD yet!

[Sakura54]

@MrsTtobe Most of us are actually in the same boat. Back here after our MC in April. Its crazy and doesn't feel real right? I also only had one AF and didn’t expect to ovulate, let alone this. I was only half TTC lol.

Wow @bubblybon20 you actually have a chance of twins! How would you feel?! People always say they want twins but I can barely survive with one lol. Would be good to have a 2 in 1 pregnancy though.

[Sakura54]

@bubblybon20 @peonyrose87 what do you think of that FB group from the other thread? I'm quite reluctant after what happened last time. I did join one before then had to leave after my scan.

[peonyrose87]

@Sakura54 I feel the same but I have joined it. Leaving groups is tough when something happens, I had to leave a few after my MMC but I'm trying not to worry too much about what might happen (obviously that's easier said than done and I'm an anxious mess most of the time 🙈). I like the support of others at the same stage as you, and if the worst happens then it'll be hard but hopefully things work out well for us this time ❤️

[bubblybon20]

@Sakura54 it would defo be an exciting journey! 🤣
I'm not sure how I feel about joining the group just yet.. I feel like im so early days still. I will maybe hold out until 10 weeks. Hoping to get there this time'

Unsure if I want to go for a private scan also around 10 weeks. My MC was 8+4, but there's still a chance of things going wrong between 10-12 weeks after the scan. No idea what to think, what is everyone else doing? X

[Smilingdonkey]

Just in case anyone else feels like they are over testing ... This is my current state of affairs (from 7dpo onwards) This is not including the 2 FRER , 2 CB ED and CB digital 😬😬😬 I only have 4 ICs left and then I'm stopping.

I won't join a group until 12 weeks I don't think ... Maybe we could start one in a couple of months?! Xxx

[ew1990]

Yeah I wont join one till I'm 12 week. I'm not even downloading a pregnancy app till then.

I did last time then had to leave and had to delete the app. Yes we should make a group in a couple of months. I caved and told DP. He's so happy.

[bubblybon20]

@Smilingdonkey I think all of us can relate to this 🤣 I've done one every other day since last Monday 🤦🏻‍♀️but now my FRERS are picking up too much HCG. So need to invest in something that'll reassure me 😅

[bubblybon20]

@ew1990 I've downloaded 1 app to let me know what happens weekly. But I also don't want to join anything on Facebook yet. I will continue boring all you lot on here for the foreseeable 🤣🤣

[Smilingdonkey]

I've literally just ordered two CB digital 😂 one for Monday which should say 2-3 weeks and one for the Monday after when it should say 3+ ... The week after I have booked a scan 😫

[bubblybon20]

@Smilingdonkey how far are you now? Sorry if you've already mentioned 1000x 🤦🏻‍♀️

[Smilingdonkey]

Only 5 weeks 🤦

[Ranoutofgoodnames]

@Smilingdonkey those tests are so beautifully laid out!!

I am having a near constant headache at the moment. Think it might be the progesterone I am taking. Makes it hard to get work done though

[ew1990]

So my ICs are still a barely there line 😩 why do we do it to ourselves?

I don't know wether to get more boots tests to see the progression or just go straight for a FRER.

If I got FRER I would do one Sunday and one about Wednesday. They are expensive 🙈

Other pregnancies I've never had this. Always waited till period was a good week late and then took a test. Never did multiple ones

[bubblybon20]

@ew1990 I personally think the FRERS, are the best to see line progressions!

[ew1990]

Thanks. I'll pick some up today. I really need to stop testing and just relax. I just need to think at the minute I'm pregnant. Take each week as it comes.

[bubblybon20]

It's only normal to help our anxieties! I found out last week I was pregnant, I've brought 4 more FRER, when there's no need as I've already had 4 positives, and 2 digital. But just been an purchased another 2 digital to get 3+ weeks Monday 🤦🏻‍♀️ but I do find FRER, the best if you are wanting to track progression to help reassure you. X

[ew1990]

We are mad aren't we. Ive just lined my ICs up and they are definitely darker. Reassured me a bit

[ew1990]

Can't even see the first one 😂

[bubblybon20]

@ew1990 how many DPO are you? And when is AF due? Defo progressing nicely :)

[ew1990]

Bubblybon not a clue? Not had AF test since MMC on the 28th may and wasn't tracking ovulation. Only tested out of curiosity wish I hadn't 😩

[ew1990]

Dont know where the random test came from

[Ranoutofgoodnames]

@ew1990 they are getting darker - compare them every other day

I personally cannot stop myself from testing but overall I think it is probably better not to. If you can stop and then honestly not think about it then great. If however you stop and it means your anxiety amps up loads and you are more stressed etc then I don’t see the harm

I would avoid the clear blue digital weeks indicator though - I think those are evil

[Smilingdonkey]

@ew1990 those are really getting darker! Look at how long it took mine to get dark!
@ranoutofgoodnames - I have just ordered 2 😩🤦

[Smilingdonkey]

I'm 5 weeks today and symptoms are starting. Dizziness and general feeling of roughness. I've got no real work done today at all 😩

[ew1990]

Yeah I'm gunna hold off now for 2 days. Ive got some FRERs to do next week.

Ive never done a digital. I'd hate the anxiety if it didn't go up.

@smilingdonkey I've got no symptoms apart from tiredness and feeling like AF is gonna start. Last time I had sickness and really sore boobs.

With DD I had was like I am now. Just tired and cramps. If it weren't for the bfp I wouldnt have thought I was pregnant