Oh @Rachael321 I was wondering about your gallstones, but couldn't remember if it was gall or kidney stones so didn't bring it up! That's great you're soooo far along now and baby is in a great and strong position to be born even if your health declines. I hope you can keep ticking along a couple more weeks though. What happens when baby is born, do they then operate on your gallstones? xx
@SammiLou2312 congrats, that is really soon! Thanks for the pants link, they look great, and half the price of Seraphine! Before I saw your little correction about your birthing ball there I was psml wondering if your hubby gave you a special birthday treat that you were sharing with us 
@Treaclepie19 so glad all well! It's always worth getting checked out xx
@Knotemma ah I'm so jealous of your baby moon! We have way too much going on, financially as well, to consider it now :( if you get any nice pics of the countryside please do share - if that's not a weird request!
@Shefliesonherownwings you're right we carry so much tension around without realising. I've never been as exhausted as I am on scan days/appointment days when I could literally sleep all day afterwards when I've finally let go of the worry. You and @Anon20something are both coping so incredibly well, its insane! Hopefully it helps a bit to talk about these things, like how triggering the hospital bag is - it must take you right back there, totally understandable. Anon - I kept thinking about 'Alien' a lot after my miscarriage, it was such a gorey, surreal, lonely experience and I found it really strengthening to imagine that I have a little bit of Ripley in me (who I have always had a major girl crush on). I'm actually up for re-watching this now, although prob not the most highly advised pregnancy viewing 
My new Seraphine under bump pants arrived and I'm in love. They are SO comfy, I think I'm going to buy more despite the price and just wear them forever, so much better than normal pants!
Saw my dream job advertised today (not well paid but would be a great step up for me and allow me to seek a better paid position next with the experience). I wouldn't normally meet the person spec for a head gardener but they have quite a relaxed spec and I think that's because there won't be a tonne of competition. I think my CV, experience and some of the places I've worked would really appeal to them. They are looking for someone to start when I'm about 8 months pregnant - what do you think my chances are oh dear. Also there's the little matter of that it still wouldn't bring enough money in to keep us afloat, and we're moving across the country. It's all becoming very real the sacrifices I'm going to make over the next years, in terms of career and pension etc. Feeling like the family just expect me to sacrifice for my partner which - i dont know if its the hormones - is winding me up loads! Also feel like I've been getting a lot of opinions lately on what I should and shouldn't do, including what I should and shouldn't spend MY money on etc, and feeling very aware also that this is only going to get worse as I become a mother! This is mostly coming from family, but also some friends too - it seems anything you do from now on is up for debate suddenly! Which makes the idea of financial difficulty and sacrificing career/profession even more of a bitter pill. If motherhood was respected it might be a bit easier to swallow but I just know that every sod and his mother is going to be sticking their nose in and judging me, and I'm not the sort to enjoy that!!!! Very everyday, common garden problems, but playing on my mind - what I'm getting myself into is becoming very real now!