Pregnant After Loss and Dreaming of Rainbows - 4

[Avocuddles]

Thread 4 already! New members very welcome to our friendly and supportive team.

Latest roll call....

@Bellsx. 26wks (due 20/08/20)⁣
@Rachael321 26wks (due 20/08/20)⁣
@Pugmum19 18wks (due 31/08/20)⁣
@UrsulaSings 17wks (due 07/09/20)⁣
@Hoping2020 19wks (due 13/09/20)⁣
@SammiLou2312 22wks⁣ (due 17/09/20)⁣
@Knotemma 21 wks⁣ (due 23/09/20)⁣
@LilMrsS 20wks (due 24/09/20)⁣
@didslysquiddlydoo 20wks 26/09/20)⁣
@TunnocksTcake 19wks (due 26/09/20)⁣
@avocuddles 20wks (due 27/09/20)⁣
@Sunflower1608 20wks with twins (due 28/09/20)⁣
@SunStruck 19wks (due 28/09/20)⁣⁣
@Scout20 19wks (due 29/09/20)⁣
@Littlegoth 20wks (due 30/09/20)⁣
@HighHopes20 16wks (due 03/10/20)⁣⁣
@Treaclepie19 18wks (due 07/10/20)⁣⁣
@Aria2015 10wks⁣
@tmc14 17wks (due 11/10/20)⁣
@Hagster 17wks (due 12/10/20)⁣⁣
@seaduck 12wks (due 17/10/20)⁣
@DressingGown87 13wks (due 20/10/20)⁣
@rachelrainbow 11wks (due 1/11/20)⁣
@teaandtantrums90 13wks (due 05/11/20)⁣
@AnxiousLady1 14wks (due 07/11/20)⁣
@Shefliesonherownwings 13wks (due 09/11/20)⁣
@MysteriousSheep 12wks (due 21/11/20)
@Whiffle77 11wks (due 04/12/20)⁣
@MOGMOGMOG85 10wks (due 09/12/20)

Just updating my weeks, very late this week!

@Bellsx 31wks (due 20/08/20)⁣
@Rachael321 31wks (due 20/08/20)⁣ -SURPRISE
@Hoping2020 26wks (due 13/09/20)⁣
@SammiLou2312 27wks⁣ (due 17/09/20)⁣ - GIRL
@Knotemma 26 wks⁣ (due 23/09/20)⁣- SURPRISE
@LilMrsS 21wks (due 24/09/20)⁣
@didslysquiddlydoo 25 wks - Girl (26/09/20)⁣
@TunnocksTcake 24wks (due 26/09/20)⁣ - GIRL
@avocuddles 25wks (due 27/09/20)⁣ - GIRL
@Sunflower1608 24wks with twins (due 28/09/20)⁣
@SunStruck 24wks (due 28/09/20)⁣⁣
@Scout20 23wks (due 29/09/20)⁣
@Littlegoth 25wks (due 30/09/20)⁣ BOY
@HighHopes20 23wks (due 03/10/20)⁣⁣
@Treaclepie19 24wks (due 07/10/20)⁣⁣ GIRL
@tmc14 23wks (due 11/10/20)⁣
@Hagster 23wks (due 12/10/20)⁣⁣
@DressingGown87 18wks (due 20/10/20)⁣ GIRL
@rachelrainbow 17wks (due 28/10/20)⁣
@teaandtantrums90 13wks (due 05/11/20)⁣
@AnxiousLady1 19wks (due 07/11/20)⁣
@Shefliesonherownwings 17wks (due 09/11/20)⁣ BOY
@MrsG3 18wks (due 16/11/20) GIRL
@MysteriousSheep 15wks (due 21/11/20)
@Whiffle77 16wks (due 02/12/20)⁣ SURPRISE
@MOGMOGMOG85 15wks (due 05/12/20)
@footprintsintheslow 9weeks (due 16/01/21)

@Whiffle77 thanks, I've got an ultrasound on Friday to check for gallstones. Don't know what to expect if they find them!! Glad your DH got to see a 'proper' scan!

@Rachael321 I also had my gallbladder out because of stones a couple of years ago if there's anything you want to know.

How’s everyone feeling re Father’s Day tomorrow? I can see it’s really affecting my husband is it’s the first one since lily died, and I’ve been pregnant last year and this year too. I just wish I could take his pain away, must be so hard for dads :(

I've decided were going to celebrate it, I've bought him a card, a mug with the scan photo on and a dad bathbomb from lush. I think we're both at a fairly high level of confidence that we're going to have a little goblin to bring home in September, because all of our issues have been so early on. So I feel like celebrating how far we've come is a big deal, especially because this is the first time that I've been pregnant for father's day. I know that won't be for everyone and I can't imagine how hard it must be having lost Lily the way that you did, and I can totally understand that you will treat it totally differently. Sending you and DH lots of positive thoughts x

It's going to be a tough day for DH here. Like you @Anon20something I was pregnant last year and the same this year and I know DH is feeling down about Isla not being here like we imagined. She'd have been 7 months now. I've asked him if he wants to do anything or if he wants a card but he's said no so I'll respect that. To be honest I'm feeling quite emotional too but it's not about me so I think we'll just be together tomorrow, maybe go for a walk and I'll just support him and be here.

@Knotemma that sounds lovely! You should celebrate if you’re both happy to, you’ve come so far and fingers crossed all goes smoothly from now on for us all!!

@Shefliesonherownwings it’s tough to know what’s best isn’t it. Lily would be almost 1 now - 10 months. My husband keeps quite guarded so I hope I’ve done the right thing! He’s got a card with Lily’s photo on and baby’s scan, and a personalised photo frame from them both (And the dog!). We’re planing on doing the same I think and just watching some football together as that’s what he loves. I’ve found it really triggering and just so much fear that maybe we won’t have this little guy with us next year either, which I have no reason to think but just so hard!

I ended up giving DH is present tonight, as he's going to work earlier in the morning than I'd realised. I didn't want him getting emotional then having to drive 2-3 hours for work. Glad I did as he had a few tears, but they were definitely good ones.

However you're spending tomorrow I hope you all can have a good day xx

Hello everyone. So much to catch up on. Had a bit of a hectic week...
@avocuddles @Rachael321 sorry to hear you are both having scary pains and hospital visits, but*@Rachael321* glad to see your lovely scan!
@Sunflower1608 that sounds really worrying for you but as others have said hopefully you will now be monitored and it's a good thing they have picked up on it.
@Ranoutofgoodnames I really feel for you, the early weeks are the absolute worst. I went a little crazy and had a ridiculous amount of scans as I just could not keep my anxiety at bay. You do whatever you need to to get yourself through, and please don't pay attention to symptoms. Every time I went to the Epu and said I had lost symptoms the drs didn't even take note and all said they are so unreliable. I have had minimal symptoms with this pregnancy and wasn't sick once. I got used to the all day nausea and so half the time convinced myself it had disappeared.

I also feel for those in the early movement stage, but hold on in there they get so much more noticeable week by week, so in a short time you will be able to look back and see the change.

We had a major downpour the other day which highlighted both a big leak in our garage roof and also flooded our boiler, no joke there was a waterfall coming out of the bottoms of it! I spent 2 days drying it out with a hairdryer (literally) and praying that it would work when it got put back together whilst stressing about having to pay for a new one when I'm on furlough and we have a baby coming... and by some absolute miracle it works! So so relieved.

I have also been feeling very on edge about Father's Day and I'm not sleeping well and keep crying randomly, this is the first after we lost my dad in January. overall I have been fine coping with the loss, he was in a lot of pain and had suffered for years after a stroke, so I have seen it as a good thing he is no longer suffering, but the constant Father's Day reminders everywhere have got to me this week. I am sort of regretting not doing anything for dh because it just feels weird to not be giving anyone a card or present tomorrow and it would be nice to have a positive focus for the day. I feel a bit adrift, we have such a small family its like I've lost an anchor. He so wanted us to have kids as well so it is a huge shame he will never meet her.

I went to the midwife unit today for reduced movements after worrying for the last day... I had felt her fairly regularly but they felt very different, much less strong and less frequent. I rang this evening expecting to be told to wait it out a bit longer as I had felt her but they brought me straight in and put me on a monitor, at which point she started kicking her little legs off of course! The midwife was lovely though and actually did all the normal checks I should have had at 25 weeks (mine was a phone call) and measured bump, which is currently putting baby in 90th percentile 😳 I'm not surprised because both of us are tall but still! Baby is absolutely fine but I noticed there were a lot of movements I wasn't feeling that the monitor was picking up so the midwife said she's probably in a weird position at the moment.

@Bellsx 31wks (due 20/08/20)⁣
@Rachael321 31wks (due 20/08/20)⁣ -SURPRISE
@Hoping2020 26wks (due 13/09/20)⁣
@SammiLou2312 27wks⁣ (due 17/09/20)⁣ - GIRL
@Knotemma 26 wks⁣ (due 23/09/20)⁣- SURPRISE
@LilMrsS 21wks (due 24/09/20)⁣
@didslysquiddlydoo 25 wks - Girl (26/09/20)⁣
@TunnocksTcake 26 wks (due 26/09/20)⁣ - GIRL
@avocuddles 25wks (due 27/09/20)⁣ - GIRL
@Sunflower1608 24wks with twins (due 28/09/20)⁣
@SunStruck 24wks (due 28/09/20)⁣⁣
@Scout20 23wks (due 29/09/20)⁣
@Littlegoth 25wks (due 30/09/20)⁣ BOY
@HighHopes20 23wks (due 03/10/20)⁣⁣
@Treaclepie19 24wks (due 07/10/20)⁣⁣ GIRL
@tmc14 23wks (due 11/10/20)⁣
@Hagster 23wks (due 12/10/20)⁣⁣
@DressingGown87 18wks (due 20/10/20)⁣ GIRL
@rachelrainbow 17wks (due 28/10/20)⁣
@teaandtantrums90 13wks (due 05/11/20)⁣
@AnxiousLady1 19wks (due 07/11/20)⁣
@Shefliesonherownwings 17wks (due 09/11/20)⁣ BOY
@MrsG3 18wks (due 16/11/20) GIRL
@MysteriousSheep 15wks (due 21/11/20)
@Whiffle77 16wks (due 02/12/20)⁣ SURPRISE
@MOGMOGMOG85 15wks (due 05/12/20)
@footprintsintheslow 9weeks (due 16/01/21)

@TunnocksTcake thank you so so much xx I am really trying not to focus on symptoms - I had them last time and it didn’t stop me having a miscarriage so I think I have to somehow find a way to stop worrying so much

I am sorry tomorrow will be hard xx

Can’t believe I’m able to add this update - I’m now in my third trimester!

I’ve been quiet on here recently as my work is manic due to COVID - I work in Education. But, it’s so lovely to see so many positive updates, I’ve just loved looking through the weeks list and seeing how far everyone has come 💛 Lovely to see new members as well. Being pregnant after a loss, or a number of losses, is so difficult but warrior ladies, you are doing it! Good days and bad days, you are growing and loving your babies, managing anxieties, reaching milestones and getting through each day - you are amazing!

I remember after our third loss, I used to google successful pregnancy after three losses/miscarriages all the time (which is actually how I ended up on this thread) so, if you’ve found yourself at this message through a google search, please know that I have been where you are and I am now in my third trimester with a healthy pregnancy after three losses - I hope it gives you some reassurance. I would also like to encourage you to join this message thread, or a similar one. Being able to share this experience with others who understand has been such an important part of my journey, especially in the early stages.

I hope today goes ok for everyone, whatever you decide to do. A difficult one for us as our first baby was due on Father’s Day last year. My husband gave me flowers and a card from bump on Mother’s Day so I’ve taken my lead from that and have got him a card from bump and a box of chocolates with a scan photo printed on it.

I also wanted to say, to those of you who think you may be feeling movements, you probably are! I was too scared to admit it to myself before our 20-week scan in case I’d made it up in my head as a coping mechanism but, once I’d had my 20-week scan and knew for definite that everything was ok, I was able to admit to myself that those were movements I’d been feeling. Definitely felt like ‘flutterings’ or ‘bubbling’ until the first amazing kicks! Those kicks were a definite turning point for me in this pregnancy. Being able to get that regular reassurance has given me a far more positive pregnancy mindset. Don’t get me wrong, it does come with it’s own anxieties (wondering on some days if they’re moving less or worrying when you haven’t felt anything for a couple of hours) but I’ve found it far more manageable than the early stages of pregnancy when you have no idea what’s going on in there and wish you had a little window so you could check. Sending lots of love to those of you going through those stages just now, they are so incredibly difficult. Take one day at a time and, before you know it, you’ll be hitting milestones you never thought you would.

Lots of love to everyone 💛

@Bellsx 31wks (due 20/08/20)⁣
@Rachael321 31wks (due 20/08/20)⁣ -SURPRISE
@Hoping2020 28 wks (due 13/09/20)⁣
@SammiLou2312 27wks⁣ (due 17/09/20)⁣ - GIRL
@Knotemma 26 wks⁣ (due 23/09/20)⁣- SURPRISE
@LilMrsS 21wks (due 24/09/20)⁣
@didslysquiddlydoo 25 wks - Girl (26/09/20)⁣
@TunnocksTcake 26 wks (due 26/09/20)⁣ - GIRL
@avocuddles 25wks (due 27/09/20)⁣ - GIRL
@Sunflower1608 24wks with twins (due 28/09/20)⁣
@SunStruck 24wks (due 28/09/20)⁣⁣
@Scout20 23wks (due 29/09/20)⁣
@Littlegoth 25wks (due 30/09/20)⁣ BOY
@HighHopes20 23wks (due 03/10/20)⁣⁣
@Treaclepie19 24wks (due 07/10/20)⁣⁣ GIRL
@tmc14 23wks (due 11/10/20)⁣
@Hagster 23wks (due 12/10/20)⁣⁣
@DressingGown87 18wks (due 20/10/20)⁣ GIRL
@rachelrainbow 17wks (due 28/10/20)⁣
@teaandtantrums90 13wks (due 05/11/20)⁣
@AnxiousLady1 19wks (due 07/11/20)⁣
@Shefliesonherownwings 17wks (due 09/11/20)⁣ BOY
@MrsG3 18wks (due 16/11/20) GIRL
@MysteriousSheep 15wks (due 21/11/20)
@Whiffle77 16wks (due 02/12/20)⁣ SURPRISE
@MOGMOGMOG85 15wks (due 05/12/20)
@footprintsintheslow 9weeks (due 16/01/21)

Lots of love to everyone and their partners who may be struggling today, sounds like you are all dealing with it the right way for you. Extra love to you @TunnocksTcake, I'm sorry you are missing your dad so much. Some days are harder than others but hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.
@Hoping2020 what a lovely message, it made me cry a little bit (I'm not a crier but seem to be at the minute!). Congratulations on 28 weeks xxx

Really sorry to those of you who are finding fathers day difficult. It does seem to me that these "family" holidays do cause a lot of pain as well. I hadn't even thought about all those men who were supposed to be fathers but couldn't be, and it must be really hard, particularly since they are men after all and keep all these things bottled up. I don't think my other half thinks of himself as father to our little bean so it didn't occur to me. I did wonder about celebrating this pregnancy which has come so much further, but in the end we haven't marked it. So sorry to those who have lost fathers too. I don't have a relationship with my father and this day doesn't really mean anything to me, but I remember it making me feel left out when I was younger. Its funny isn't it, but it could be that this day is difficult for most people, but that each one person feels isolated and like they are the only one. Not my favourite day for this reason! xxx

@Bellsx 31wks (due 20/08/20)⁣
@Rachael321 31wks (due 20/08/20)⁣ -SURPRISE
@Hoping2020 28 wks (due 13/09/20)⁣
@SammiLou2312 27wks⁣ (due 17/09/20)⁣ - GIRL
@Knotemma 26 wks⁣ (due 23/09/20)⁣- SURPRISE
@LilMrsS 21wks (due 24/09/20)⁣
@didslysquiddlydoo 25 wks - Girl (26/09/20)⁣
@TunnocksTcake 26 wks (due 26/09/20)⁣ - GIRL
@avocuddles 25wks (due 27/09/20)⁣ - GIRL
@Sunflower1608 24wks with twins (due 28/09/20)⁣
@SunStruck 24wks (due 28/09/20)⁣⁣
@Scout20 23wks (due 29/09/20)⁣
@Littlegoth 25wks (due 30/09/20)⁣ BOY
@HighHopes20 23wks (due 03/10/20)⁣⁣
@Treaclepie19 24wks (due 07/10/20)⁣⁣ GIRL
@tmc14 23wks (due 11/10/20)⁣
@Hagster 23wks (due 12/10/20)⁣⁣
@DressingGown87 18wks (due 20/10/20)⁣ GIRL
@rachelrainbow 17wks (due 28/10/20)⁣
@teaandtantrums90 13wks (due 05/11/20)⁣
@AnxiousLady1 19wks (due 07/11/20)⁣
@Shefliesonherownwings 17wks (due 09/11/20)⁣ BOY
@MrsG3 18wks (due 16/11/20) GIRL
@MysteriousSheep 15wks (due 21/11/20)
@Whiffle77 16wks (due 02/12/20)⁣ SURPRISE
@MOGMOGMOG85 16wks (due 05/12/20)
@footprintsintheslow 9weeks (due 16/01/21)

@MOGMOGMOG85 it is a strange one. I'm a brownie leader and we've always done "chili day" cards rather than father's Day as we have lots of girls from complicated family backgrounds. That way they can give a chili day card and a chili plant as a gift to whoever they chose. We also do "women who inspire us" rather than Mother's Day, as we had a girl who'd lost her mum and it just felt more inclusive. We've ended up continuing it and we get lots of cars made for awesome aunties etc which is lovely. I have a strange relationship with the "Clinton card" holidays, but I'm really glad I chose to mark it for my DH, because in my eyes he's already an awesome daddy.

I just inserted a progesterone pessary and when I withdrew the applicator it had brown blood on it. Is this bad news? I am mid fifth week and really scared xx

I've missed so much... I'm sure I'll miss something important so apologies...
@avocuddles @Rachael321 Really sorry you've both had hospital visits. I hope you both feel better soon.

@Shefliesonherownwings Was really pleased to see you had a better appointment, I'm glad the receptionist got her act together and pleased you saw the right consultant straight away. Those things can make all the difference.

@Sunflower1608 As someone else said, 1 in 20 babies will be born on the lower centile. I don't know of course, but I would guess it's just about a bit of extra monitoring in case she drops further, rather than worrying about her current size. Keeping everything crossed she stays on track so she can stay in for as long as possible. As for the house, such a pain, but it will be ok. I grew up in a 3 bed house with my parents & 5 kids. It was cramped but it was fine and from a child's point of view it can be really fun! But you will get something sorted and it will be just right for you. Bit different, but we didn't have anywhere to live as work was being done on our house from when my son was 5 months to 13 months. We basically house sat for friends and moved every 1-2 weeks. People thought we were mad, but we just got on with it and it was all ok. And just think how amazing it will feel when you finally get to move and have extra space! It will feel so luxurious.

Updating my weeks... am 24 weeks today, so have hit viability. Crazy. My anxiety is quite bad at the moment and monitoring movements is a stress. Just trying to concentrate on relaxing and looking after myself, which is hard. But for now, I am 24 weeks, and in the next couple of weeks my next onslaught of appointments (GTT, midwife and consultant) will start, and I think they will be in person which will be interesting.
@Bellsx 31wks (due 20/08/20)⁣
@Rachael321 31wks (due 20/08/20)⁣ -SURPRISE
@Hoping2020 28 wks (due 13/09/20)⁣
@SammiLou2312 27wks⁣ (due 17/09/20)⁣ - GIRL
@Knotemma 26 wks⁣ (due 23/09/20)⁣- SURPRISE
@LilMrsS 21wks (due 24/09/20)⁣
@didslysquiddlydoo 25 wks - Girl (26/09/20)⁣
@TunnocksTcake 26 wks (due 26/09/20)⁣ - GIRL
@avocuddles 25wks (due 27/09/20)⁣ - GIRL
@Sunflower1608 24wks with twins (due 28/09/20)⁣
@SunStruck 24wks (due 28/09/20)⁣⁣
@Scout20 23wks (due 29/09/20)⁣
@Littlegoth 25wks (due 30/09/20)⁣ BOY
@HighHopes20 23wks (due 03/10/20)⁣⁣
@Treaclepie19 24wks (due 07/10/20)⁣⁣ GIRL
@tmc14 24wks (due 11/10/20)⁣ GIRL
@Hagster 23wks (due 12/10/20)⁣⁣
@DressingGown87 18wks (due 20/10/20)⁣ GIRL
@rachelrainbow 17wks (due 28/10/20)⁣
@teaandtantrums90 13wks (due 05/11/20)⁣
@AnxiousLady1 19wks (due 07/11/20)⁣
@Shefliesonherownwings 17wks (due 09/11/20)⁣ BOY
@MrsG3 18wks (due 16/11/20) GIRL
@MysteriousSheep 15wks (due 21/11/20)
@Whiffle77 16wks (due 02/12/20)⁣ SURPRISE
@MOGMOGMOG85 16wks (due 05/12/20)
@footprintsintheslow 9weeks (due 16/01/21)

I hope everyone is doing ok with Father's Day. Such a tricky day for so many. We did some nice small things so our son, who is 2, knew it was a marked day and special, but to be honest I'm never really into those sorts of days. All feels quite forced. Sending everyone a socially distant hug and hope you're all ok. xx

@ranoutofgoodnames I had brown spotting at 6 weeks. It was off and on for a day. Brown generally indicates old blood, and based on your dates it's very likely old implantation blood. Just keep an eye on it. Once it doesn't get heavy/go bright red and you don't have any bad cramping as well, then I wouldn't assume it's sinister. Difficult not to worry, I know. But I was there. And I know several of us on this thread had spotting at different points in first trimester.

Evening all. Just wondering if I could join? Am already 16 weeks with pregnancy number 2. Baby is due 4 December. My first pregnancy was ectopic and then I went through four years of failed IVF, donor egg IVF and then early menopause. Was taking HRT when I found out in April that I was 6 weeks pregnant. I have been managing reasonably well but am struggling badly with anxiety before my 20 week scan (still don't actually have a date for it). Panicking about every twinge, every ache, that my bump isn't big enough or I haven't gained enough weight. Baby looked beautifully healthy at dating scan and was measuring a few days ahead of my early scan but I cannot accept that things will continue to go well, that somehow the universe will realise it's made a mistake a this baby wasn't meant for me.

Sorry for rambling!

I have a backache as well

I don’t have a good feeling

Doctor has said to have a blood test tomorrow if still bleeding

@Restorationinsanity Welcome to the group, and congratulations on your pregnancy. You've come so far. That is a hell of a time you've been through to get here. Your anxiety is totally normal. We've all been there, and many of us still are (regardless of how far along we are). I'm 20 weeks today and still plagued by doubt that I will get to my next scan (at 21+5) to be told the worst. A lot of your anxiety will come from the fact that you have no prior positive pregnancy experience to base your thoughts on. So there is a lot of unknown. I understand that, and many of us on here do too. But if your 12 week scan was encouraging, as you say, then try to put your worries to one side. Definitely don't worry too much about weight gain or bump size at this stage. There's a reason they don't measure your bump until after 24 weeks. Most weight gain is in the 3rd trimester also. Every pregnancy and female body is different. If you are on any other pregnancy threads on MN it can be a little overwhelming, as people will generally only talk about "how big they are" or "how they are feeling movement super early". Those people are generally the exceptions!! x

@ranoutofgoodnames Has the bleeding got heavier? I distinctly remember the day I'd spotting I'd period like pain. Honestly felt like my period coming on (I always get pain down my thighs with it). Took another digital test to see if weeks progressed. I spent the day on the couch and essentially prepped myself for the worst. Sending you lots of positive vibes. Try rest up for evening. xx

Well I only saw it on the pessary applicator after I took it out. Went back a bit later and used a clean applicator and there was less there but still some

@Ranoutofgoodnames I think a few of us had spotting/ bleeding in the first 10weeks. It's always terrifying. But blood doesn't always equate to a miscarriage. There's lots of cervical changes that makes you more sensitive and likely to bleed, implantation, even subchorionic haemorrhage (what I had with two of my pregnancies). Maybe go the docs and try get blood tests done, but from previous experience my doctors were quite callous and told me just to wait and see what happens. How are you feeling this morning?

Just catching up on the thread... I haven't really seen my midwife yet 🙄... When am I supposed to get my whooping cough vaccine?
Feeling calmer about the house situation. We are putting an offer in on a different one today. Fingers crossed we can be in it before the twins are here.
I feel like my anxiety is in over drive and as a result have this desperate need for everything to be organised, go to plan and tidy. Which is making me a bit horrific to live with as I am having irrational breakdowns about picking up after the man and other children and getting upset that people aren't helping. I'm just a little in over drive and think it's down to all the uncertainty in my life at the moment. I've got a scan again on Thursday to check on the girls growth and I'm so excited to see them both again on the screen, but worried about bad news to. I've also gone into over drive worrying about movements, aches and pains etc.
Father's Day I just got my partner a card from the twins, he finds it hard discussing the one we lost. My other daughter also made him a card which was sweet.

@Bellsx 31wks (due 20/08/20)⁣
@Rachael321 31wks (due 20/08/20)⁣ -SURPRISE
@Hoping2020 28 wks (due 13/09/20)⁣
@SammiLou2312 27wks⁣ (due 17/09/20)⁣ - GIRL
@Knotemma 26 wks⁣ (due 23/09/20)⁣- SURPRISE
@LilMrsS 26wks (due 24/09/20)⁣
@didslysquiddlydoo 26 wks - Girl (26/09/20)⁣
@TunnocksTcake 26 wks (due 26/09/20)⁣ - GIRL
@avocuddles 26wks (due 27/09/20)⁣ - GIRL
@Sunflower1608 26wks with twins (due 28/09/20)⁣- GIRL & BOY
@SunStruck 26wks (due 28/09/20)⁣⁣
@Scout20 23wks (due 29/09/20)⁣
@Littlegoth 25wks (due 30/09/20)⁣ BOY
@HighHopes20 23wks (due 03/10/20)⁣⁣
@Treaclepie19 24wks (due 07/10/20)⁣⁣ GIRL
@tmc14 24wks (due 11/10/20)⁣ GIRL
@Hagster 23wks (due 12/10/20)⁣⁣
@DressingGown87 18wks (due 20/10/20)⁣ GIRL
@rachelrainbow 17wks (due 28/10/20)⁣
@teaandtantrums90 13wks (due 05/11/20)⁣
@AnxiousLady1 19wks (due 07/11/20)⁣
@Shefliesonherownwings 17wks (due 09/11/20)⁣ BOY
@MrsG3 18wks (due 16/11/20) GIRL
@MysteriousSheep 15wks (due 21/11/20)
@Whiffle77 16wks (due 02/12/20)⁣ SURPRISE
@MOGMOGMOG85 16wks (due 05/12/20)
@footprintsintheslow 9weeks (due 16/01/21)