Abortion - I'm not sure it's the right thing

[whatamidoingwithmylife]

I'm 10wks pregnant and considering abortion. I've only been with my partner for around 8mths and he's never wanted children (I've always thought it unlikely I would have any either).
We've found ourselves in this situation and he's been very clear that he wants me to terminate. I was in full agreement at the start as I had been taking medication that could potentially cause birth defects - this now seems unlikely to have caused issues in this pregnancy.
I really feel that I would like to carry on with the pregnancy but can't do it alone. My partner would support that decision the best he could but I know he'd forever resent me for keeping it. I feel that I would resent him if I terminate as I'm almost 35 so waiting a few years to try again as he's suggested could be possible, doesn't really seem an option as I'll be too old. He's only 29 and is in a less stable point in his life than I am.
Although he's not being pushy, he's very clear on his decision.
I've had my first appointment to discuss termination at the hospital and was so distressed they had to put me in a room to cry it out as I was in too much of a state to continue discussions or book the surgery.
Has anyone been in a similar situation that could give me any advice?
My partner has Aspergers so really doesn't understand why I'm so upset all the time and can't make my mind up.

@whatamidoingwithmylife could be worth calling your gp tomo just in case you have an infection, especially if you are still in pain as I would expect this to have subsided by now. Some antibiotics will clear it up if you do xx

@Yukka I've been reading so much on the internet about what should be normal and I've been waiting as it seems it's normal to bleed/have pain for weeks. It will be two weeks tomorrow since the termination and does seem to be a lot better - but the pain comes and goes but can be intense.
I'm back at work for the rest of the week and then I'm going abroad so I don't think I'll be able to get an appointment before I go as an emergency appt is 2wks wait at my doctors (ridiculous, I know). I may have to wait until I get back from holiday and see how I'm doing then. Hopefully I'll be fine.

Just wanted to say I hope you’re doing OK. Do go back to your GP or clinic if you’re still bleeding, as it might be that you have some retained tissue from the procedure. Here’s hoping you can start to put this difficult experience behind you soon xx

I found things have got a lot better since my cycle has started again. I still feel very sad, and in many ways wish I could make the decision again and keep the baby (I'd be almost half way through the pregnancy now) but I am not feeling completely low and in despair, which is how I was before. Things with my husband are fine now thankfully.

Do go to the doctor if you keep bleeding and are in pain. I ended up getting an unrelated UTI and bleeding again so went to the hospital and got fully checked out. That was a huge comfort too as part of me has been fearful that I have damaged myself permanent from the termination.