Hi ladies, sorry for being AWOL but had a hectic couple days. Our baby has been diagnosed with Encephalocele, which is similar to spina bifida but happens on the brain. The skull hasn’t properly developed and some of the brain tissue is growing outside of the head. The chance of survival is 1 in 5 - however they think I would miscarry before the birth anyway. Sadly I have to have a termination, I feel devastated and heartbroken but it’s not fair to bring this baby into the world (if it even made it). We were told that if, by some miracle, the baby survived then it would be severely mentally and physically disabled from the neck down. It’s the worst case scenario. It will be a week or two before I can have the termination but after it, I get to hold the baby and say goodbye. Which makes me feel a bit better. We’ve decided that my body needs a break after this and we also need a bloody holiday! Feeling so rubbish but beyond thankful for my amazing partner. I just love him so much, he’s told me that tonight he’s buying me all my favourite chocolates and sweets then we’re coming home and I’m getting a hot bath and a massage haha. We’ll be okay, as long as we have each other. Just want to say a huge thank you for all the support you ladies have given me, it means so much and really does help ❤️ I wish you all the best of luck in your pregnancies 💕