Unwanted Abortion

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I'll be brief because it's really hurting me to write this for advice- any kind of advice. I know that I've done wrong so please don't judge as I feel bad enough already.

I met a (married) man online and have been seeing him for just over 2 years. He has a family and so do I. We see each other only very occasionally as he lives just under 3 hours away.

Anyway- long story short, I am 2-3 weeks pregnant by him and my sensible head is saying to abort the baby (I was always so set against it). My heart however, is saying that I'll manage- allbeit at the cost of my family, my marriage and most probably my job. I'm in bits, my head is all over the place and only the 2 of us know about this baby. I know that I've done wrong and been very selfish in what I want- I'm just desperate for advice.

Oh and, my OH has made it clear in the past that he doesn't want a second baby...ever, something what I've resented him for for over 4 years as I always did. HELP!

I can't believe how harsh some posters are.

Nasty.

Hope you're OK, OP.

Thank you Desertsky . The final outcome was to minimise the hurt for everyone. I have spoken with my husband and we're seeing how things go. To be honest, I foresee us splitting pretty soon into the New Year as my heart really isn't into the relationship and he's very reluctant to let me go.

The main person hurting from this is myself. I will never forgive myself for what I've done and totally deserve this life sentence. My heart breaks every day for the life that I created then killed. Just desserts.

As for the OM he has split from his wife.

I want to go it alone and sort out exactly what I want from the whole situation. Main priority being minimising any damage for my dd.

Animation - Correct. I am being very selective in who I'm caring about. As I've already said...after making probably the biggest mistake of my life- my dd is now my only priority. Not any man.

Thank you Wishkeeey . Tbh I expected harshness from some posters as what I have done is unforgivable. I realise that now.

Now please let this thread rest as it is only a week since my abortion, very raw and I would like you all to respect my wishes. Thank you.

look after yourself OP