Staying posifrickentive- Thread 19 for ladies pg after mc

[Brenna24]

Ready. Steady. Go

Glad to hear your scans went well.

Feel the same as you all, just devastated for Miami and cannot stop thinking about her. I know MN isn't real life but I had to tell my DH last night why I couldn't stop crying. It is just so, so unfair. Wish there was something I could do or offer other than condolences x

I'll admit I'm wobbly too still can't stop thinking about what that poor family are going though.
I know this is just Internet forum but I feel like we're in this mad place together carrying out rainbows hoping it's all going to be a happy ending for us and when something as devastating as this happens well it knocked the wind out of me. I find joy in your good news the positive scan's the heartbeats heard for the first time I a gutted by the worrying results and losses but this has floored me hugged my babies tighter tonight putting them to bed this little one kicking away don't want to sleep just want to lie here feeling he/she dance feeling inedibly blessed but so very sad to know a family out there has lost their baby girl 😭

Morning all, hope you're all doing okay today. Feeling a bit jittery at the moment and seems like such a long wait til the 20 week scan, trying to stay as busy as i can - which isn't easy with the tiredness!

The support and genuine feeling on this thread is so lovely, I know I've said it countless times before but it's true.

@Haz I know what you mean, i had an unexpected messy cry last night. not that i'm trying to make miami's grief my own of course, but she's one of us and it's so shocking and upsetting and leaves you feeling so helpless when all you have are kind words to offer.

I am thinking of Miami today. I hope it is not too traumatic.

I had two really horrible dreams last night. In the first one it would appear we were doing some form of ivf only they grew the foetus to about 6 or 7 weeks gestation and then you were given it to take home and implant yourself with a syringe. Only I forgot for 24 hours. Then I took it out of its little vial and blew all the powder off it that they kept it in so that it would survive and tried with the syringe anyway. I was really upset and worried it wouldn't work. Then thankfully I woke up.

The second one I was at Princess Diana's second wedding because we had done all the bouquets and things for her. Someone tried to sit in my seat and I pushed them and they flew down onto the altar and died. Then they turned into a matchbox with two kirby grips, a coin, a button and a bit of string in it. So the wedding went on and then we went to the reception which was in a big lecture theatre. we watched people do speeches and dancing and things with a whole load of university groups. Then I woke up. Thankfully it was morning by then.

Double my scan went well. Baby started off vertical facing my spine with their little legs crossed lotus position, then moved to horizontal with their head to my left and feet to my right, still facing my spine. It made getting a look at their face tricky and they kept turning away from the probe. That is the third sonographer in a row to use the word awkward. Everything looked perfect. The head measurement was bang on the centre of the range, femur length a bit longer than average (my legs - I am 5' 2" with a 31 inch inside leg) and my husbands tummy, which was right at the top of the range. We got to hear the heartbeat - that is the first time I have heard any of my babies heartbeats. I also have an anterior placenta, which explains why the midwife couldn't find the heartbeat at 16 weeks and why the little movements I am feeling aren't getting any stronger. I am surprised I could feel them at all at 15 weeks under the circumstances.

Here is a picture of our little camera shy bundle of difficult.

@Hazandduck that's exactly how I felt too.
Although we're all strangers, we also know things that may others in our life don't. I share feelings on here that I have never shared with anyone in my 'real life'. It's a special group.

So glad that peoples scans and tests and all going well.
It's 2 weeks today until my dating scan. I miscarried the day before the scan in my last pregnancy so I'm getting a bit fidgety. We go on holiday on Saturday - it was a surprise present from my DH as it's our due date for the last pregnancy. I'm a bit fearful to be away in another country whilst at the same stage to my last loss. Trying not to bother DH as he isn't the most romantic or thoughtful so it's a huge deal that he's arranged all this by himself. Just wish my brain would stop worrying!!

I hope all goes well forever and that you get to enjoy the holiday. If all is well at the scan then I hope you relax on the holiday and get the benefit of it.

@Brenna24 Beautiful! Perfect little scan picture

Just checked in to see the new thread, and the absolutely devastating news. Miami I am utterly heartbroken for you and your family, catching up this morning has really left me breathless. I can't imagine the pain you just be going through and hope you have plenty of love and support around you. haz and minnie couldn't have put it better I think we are all so emotionally tied to this thread, even though we don't really know each other I so desperately want all of our rainbows to make their journey here safely.

Utter totally agreed I really don't think the worry will ever leave. I'm 25+5 today. I can't distinguish between the twins movements and I'm constantly panicking that I'm not actually feeling them moving enough. I'm also getting myself wound up that they're not going to turn head down, even though I know they've still got plenty of time!

Congrats Brenna beautiful picture! And congrats everyone else on great scan news sorry I've only just skimmed the thread trying to catch up on the last few days!

Hi All... I'm in a state. I wiped a little while ago and there was pink blood on the tissue. I'm 11+3.... it's how my previous miscarriage started (although that was at 5+4)... iv e had no bleeding this pregnancy at all.

@lisara79 oh no, that must be worrying. Can you cal your midwife to see if you can get a scan? Fingers crossed all is ok.

Thanks @doublechocolatetiffin. I've got an appointment to see the midwife in an hour.... my fingers are crossed. Got to 11 weeks, starting to feel safer in the pregnancy and mother nature pulls the rug out!

Midwife says just wear a pad and if gets worse go to A&E

was that after your appointment with her @lisara79?
Must be very scary :( hope the bleeding stops and it's just one of those unexplained terrifying things about pregnancy....

No @whyhastherumgone, she text me before I left.... it seems to have stopped for now... although I still feel delicate.

Thanks for the new thread. It's been a while since I posted, so need to catch up on the old one.

lisara I am 14 weeks and have spent more days bleeding than not this pregnancy but three scans have shown everything is absolutely fine. It's horribly worrying but apparently quite normal and more often than not, everything is fine.

Thank you @fuzzyowl... I think I just panicked as the last time I bled, I miscarried... I'm luckily on leave today so going to go on self imposed bed (sofa) rest x

Completely understandable. This pregnancy of mine is the cycle following a miscarriage so I think I have constantly expected the worst. Thankfully, as I was under the recurrent miscarriage clinic, I was able to have a couple of early scans which helped to make me feel a bit better about things. Hope your restful day helps.

Thanks so much @fuzzyowl... this pregnancy is the same. ive only had 1 previous miscarriage (only 1 pregnant ever) but have had a scan at 8.5 weeks and all was ok.

Hugs Lisara. It is so frightening. I bled at the same point in this pregnancy as my first, which ended in a mmc. The two inbetween didn't get that far. It felt like groundhog day. Thankfully this time we got past it safely. I hope you are the same.

Thinking of you @lisara79. Similar thing happened to me - I bled at 6+4 in my last pregnancy which ended in MMC, and then again in this pregnancy (and again at 9+3) but have made it to 23 weeks. Fingers crossed the same happens for you. It's so worrying, especially when it's so similar to something you've been through before.

Thinking of you Lisara. I bled twice with my successful pregnancy and it was terrifying but ok. Hope it's just some cervical irritation or old blood and it stops quickly.