Hello!!
Thanks MrsMC ? you?ve made me feel better that I?m not alone in these early few weeks. I think I?m just scared after having had 2 mc last year, especially reading Abwah?s news ? Horrible, poor poor girl . After taking 2 years to conceive DD, when we conceived after 9 months last Jan, I never thought it would go wrong, but at 9 weeks I had a missed mc. Then I finally managed to conceive just before Christmas as you know, for it all to go horribly wrong very quickly. At least I managed to conceive the very next cycle and this time get to go through it all with you and Greedy, but I?m still terrified. I think mc takes away some the magic of pg ? I should be wondering around with a secret smile at what?s going on in my body, but instead every twinge or feeling gets analysed ? horrible! And I wish I felt more sick! But at least I?m still aware of my boobs, IYKWIM!!
At least there are some positive stories on here ? I just wish I?d joined the hoping for threads earlier last year, as then I would have met more of these lovely ladies earlier!! I just felt that with my long cycles, I would be one thread there and then have to miss an entire thread, but you?ll understand that won?t you Greedy!
Anyway ? I?ll try and stay positive if you all do. I?ve always told myself that I will temp till 6 weeks, which will be Monday and then stop as that will definitely got me further than my last mc.
Coincidentally, I was reading last night that this is week that the heart starts beating and that made me really feel that there was someone growing inside me ? can?t wait to tell DD, she?ll be so excited, but that makes it all more scary as I know how much she would love a babysister or brother.
We were convinced that DD was a girl (when I was pg, we obviously know now!!) ? not got any really feeling about this little one yet, except I want it to be healthy. I?ve got the added concerns if I get past 12 weeks ok, that I had obstetric cholestasis with DD and there is a 50:50 chance I?ll get it again ? but I?ll cross that bridge when I get there!
Don?t laugh, but we called DD ?fettle? when I was pg ? hence my name!! Have to blame the fact that we are both scientists, so it is pet name for foetus, which sounded a bit clinical!!! Oh, you?re all going to think I?m really mad! I think I?ll go now.
Take care
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