Staying posifrickentive- Thread 10 for ladies pg after mc

[LynseyH5]

I've made the new thread, hope I'm not stepping on anyone's toes... just wanted to make sure we had one.

Thanks mrs. I feel sick. I can't work out if it's pregnancy related or nerves. Argh!!!!

So glad you are calm re: discharge. Sure it's absolutely nothing. Very lovely to have you here. I know I've already said that but it is!!

How are you dino and missclarke? Xxx

Good luck to everyone with scans today!

No such thing as tmi on this thread. In my first trimester my cervix felt very swollen. Like what I image it feels like to touch the lips of a celebrity who has gone out with the lip filler - Pete Burns style. I stopped checking and the bleeding went away. Mine was low too. I panicked about that too but it retreated higher in its own time!

Sorry I've not been posting much, I've needed to take bit of a break from the thread, sometimes it's too much.

I just wanted to wish those of you having scans this week lots of luck and hope for lots more good scans.

Sunday and keys massive congratulations on your little boys Lovely news.

And a welcome to the newbies, lovely to have you here. purple, are you by any chance who I think you are? I realise that is quite cryptic but I don't want to put your previous NNs up if you are namechanging for privacy! We were PMing a lot esp in Jan/Feb after our Dec/Jan losses? If so, I am thrilled to see you here with another little bean and wish you all the very best of luck xx

My screening results came through at the weekend, and they are way better than I had dared to hope - much better than a bog standard 30 year old which suggests my bloods etc were actually good. Phew. 1 in 17284 for Downs and 1 in 50000 for Edwards/Patau's. I can't tell you what a relief that is, they are good enough that I'm not going to go for a Harmony test, will save the dosh for now. I have a very small glimmer of hope now that we actually have a chance of getting there. Just about 15 weeks now and the sickness has finally buggered off totally woohoo!

I know I should be on a high but I just feel sad atm, so very very sad that it wasn't like this last time, and I keep seeing my little boy curled up in my hand in my minds eye, eyes closed with a half smile, and it hurts that I couldn't have him. I daren't even think about DD1, I can't go there right now. This is the point she stopped growing and we started to lose her but we didn't know for another 5 weeks. Such an ache inside.

Hi ladies, just had my scan and everything was fine :) measuring at just over 8 weeks and can see a heartbeat. It actually looked like a little baby.

I've no idea about clearing out to be honest. I was very cramps until about 7 weeks though. Congratulations Mrs Clarke! Brilliant news! My scan when I thought I was 7 weeks 5 days was external and I was dated as 8+3.

Great news missclarke!!! dino hope yours went well too xxxx

Mine tried external, saw something and a very fuzzy heartbeat but did an internal for a clearer image. I was amazed how much it actually looked like a little baby already.

Kate did you say you had a scan today?

Yes it's at 6pm. V v nervous.

So pleased your scan went well!!! Xx

Oh bless you that's a long wait. Not long now though, I'll be thinking of you.

Congratulations missclarke great news. This thread seems to be more positive as the days go by.

Butterfly my heart aches for you. I wish there was something I can say that will help. I hope this doesn't sound heartless as I don't mean it to, just try and stay positive if possible and try not to let the sadness overwhelm this pregnancy. Hoping at some point you can start to enjoy this one but I do understand that may be difficult

This time tomorrow I'll have had my scan so nerves are starting to wobble abit. Got to go on my own aswel as there is literally no one to help with childcare for my boys.

Hoping all other scans are going to be good news too dino and kate... I'll keep checking in.

Great news Missclarke

Good luck kate

Thanks lynsey, I'm sorry to be a bit of a downer, but I am in the fug just now. Right in the midst of the stretch where it's all gone wrong for me in the past and to a certain degree it feels like rewalking in those steps. I'm hoping, but I'm also in self preservation, try not to think and hope and look forward mode. It will help once I feel the baby moving. I'm resolutely not using my doppler despite immense temptation because I wouldn't be able to cope with not finding a heartbeat, and that's eminently possible at this stage and I haven't got a scan for a few weeks to give me an answer.

Lots of luck for tomorrow. You'll be fine on your own x

I think I need to accept this isn't happening for me. Not this time anyway.

My GP phoned and said I have multi resistant bugs in my urine. In my first pregnancy I had an infection which turned sepsis.

I'm absolutely gutted. Seeing GP tomorrow for bloods anyway and will take another sample in. How urologist phones back on Wednesday when back from Annual leave and she is able to get me seen by the obstetrician who can decide the best care. I have an appt for him but not for another 6 weeks and it could all be over by then

Purple that sounds really difficult, although I wonder if there's still hope? Have you had any cramps or bleeding? UTIs in pregnancy are so common, and Wednesday is relatively soon to get an expert plan for how to treat yours. I get how your anxieties will be triggered because of your previous experience with the infection turning to sepsis, but just because that happened last time it doesn't mean it'll happen this time. Can you ask for the obstetrician appt to be brought forward, it sounds like you have a good case for that?

Kate and dino any updates?

Miss Clarke pleased to read more happy scan news!

Butterfly given you're at the stage where it went wrong before it's only natural you'll be reliving that experience and the feelings that went with it. Hope you can be kind to yourself and allow the feelings to be there and then to pass. Fingers crossed for a different path with a happier ending for you this time, and that experiencing that will help heal some of the old pain xx

Hi everyone, sorry was seen nice and early then ended back in hospital with DS who has foot and mouth but got a bit worried as he went a bit funny with his breathing so we took him in and stayed ages because he refused the heart monitor a lot. He's fine apart from the rash and was running the room, so I felt rather silly taking him in.

Scan was brilliant! 1 live, 8+3 fetus so I'm bang on for dates. Moving loads, rolling over and waving limb buds. OH was so happy with the scan, he was watching for ages while she did measurements & I couldn't see.
Couldn't find one of my ovaries but I joked it's just popped out for a bit, was told that's normal.

So, so relieved now. Still doesn't feel real, think I will relax after 20 week scan. Dating scan is booked now too.

That's great news MissClarke too!

Aw Butterfly, its good you're letting it all out and it is okay to feel like this, really hope this one works out for you and it passes. When is your next scan?

Aw Purple, really hope they can help at your next appointment. I know the anxiety can't help but you are another day down almost and that's great!

Congratulations Dolorite!
Keep the faith, purple. I know it is hard but keep taking one day at a time. Hope you get on ok at the doctors tomorrow.

Thanks so much lucky. Good words. I hope the urologist will indeed phone me back, you know what it like when your back after a couple of weeks off. And then she'll speak to the obstetrician and try and get me an appt. Maybe they'll have a cancellation. That would be ideal. Although I doubt obstetricians will have even a minute in their schedule.

Last time the infection rumbled for a good 4 weeks before I ended up in hospital but I think the fetus already gave up before it even turned sepsis. It's more the fact the bugs are multi resistant and what if they can't treat them/ do treat them with no result and my body just cannot cope and the fetus will not survive. Will I never have a successful pregnancy? My mum says that what is for me won't pass me by but it's so so hard. I fall pregnant easily enough but I just can't hang on to them. And what if there is just no cure?

Congrats dino! Been waiting for your update today, glad it's good news :)

purple my heart goes out to you. This is so rubbish. Please keep hopeful though. Can you see a specialist quickly? Thinking of you.

Congrats Dino and missclarke. I'll add a hatrick to today's news. Strong heartbeat and consultant happy. He has put me on steroids cos this is where the pregnancy failed last time. It's unnerved me a bit and because it was scrunched up he couldn't measure it properly but he said it looked good. Relieved but can't help feel anxious this time, not sure why.

Thinking of you purple.

Sorry if I have missed some posts. Been manic day and now got to sleep cos up tomorrow at 2am to get our flight.

Catch up soon xxx

I'm so happy for all of you who have had positive scans today.

Thanks hopeful. It just depends how quickly the urologist contacts me once back from annual leave (Wednesday) and how quickly she contacts the obstetrician and how quickly he can fit me in. I don't mind going private but not sure how to go about it.

Butterfly you should never apologise for having a tough time of it. You've really had so much to cope with that it's completely understandable. And that's what we're all here for too, to try and help in anyway at all.

I think I'll be fine tomorrow too, it's just the thought of being on my own. I found out with both mc whilst on my own so kinda wanted to break the cycle, have someone with me and get good news!
I'm feeling hopeful as the 8 week scan was so good but history still niggles.

Purple I really hope they can sort something out for you and that this isn't the end. I admit, I've no idea what these bugs mean etc but I have my fingers crossed for you.

Congratulations to dino and kate! Very happy for you both.

I'll check in after my scan tomorrow to let you know how I get on. Appt is 10.55 so thankfully, not too much time in the morning once boys are sorted for me to worry... we all know I'm full of crap and I'm going to being panicking all morning but I can try and fob myself off if no one else.
Night all xx

Happy to hear of the positive scan news today.

Purple and Butterfly, sorry you're having tough days. I wish there was something helpful to say. Purple, I admit I don't know much about the impact of urinary infections... I'm sorry to hear it all sounding so serious though. All my good thoughts for speedy responses and effective treatment. Butterfly, I can't imagine how hard this stage is for you. FWIW, I have found things easier now I can feel movements - I hope this isn't too far away for you. That is great news about the screening results. One day at a time, one foot in front of the other, that's all you can do .

purple I'd Google top gynocologist (or urologist) in your area or next biggest area you can travel to and call his or her secretary to see whether this falls under their area of specialism and then charm your way into their diary. I know you will but make this your biggest research mission to date. You'll find some answers. V v few people these days face the reality of not being able to have children. There is too much they can do now. I'm sure you know all this. Let me know if I can help or support you in anyway. I'm sorry you are having to go through this. Xxx

I hope I didn't sound patronising!! not sure how else to help. I know it's frightening. Hope you find the help you need v quickly xxx