hello everyone
desperately trying to fight back tears as i have the kids here and worried that if i let go i wont stop
well got there at 9am and got blood taken.
they called me in at 12 for a scan because the levels had only crept up to 1950 so something is still growing although now definitely not a viable pregnancy (i know it seemed doomed from the start but they kept feeding me false hope and im now devastated that its definitely over)
anyway they were still worried about ectopic as they sac thing in my womb apparently isnt identifiable as any sort of pregnancy.
consultant came to see me and said they had decided to let me go home as i had no significant pain and to expect to miscarry over the next few days. if i havent by wednesday im to go in and get bloods done again.
in the meantime, because it still may be ectopic i have to go in at first sign of any pain, i have been given open access to emergency gynae ward.
i feel desolate and having some friends round tonight so desperately trying to keep brave face on.
my husband has truly let me down over this whole thing which is saddening me too.
plus i have a slight pain in my neck/shoulder that is worrrying me but think i just cricked my neck.
i feel totally deserted by my husband, the hospital and my little baby. feel so very alone and now have the christmas period to keep waiting for it to come out.