Thanks guys, I'm Oxfordshire. I'll be okay. I have to be - Got too much at stake to let weakness overcome me even though most days I have been close! Its just all getting on top of me.
The weight of my bump compared to my usual frame etc. Looking and feeling my stretch marks have effected me, I know they'll fade, I just didnt want a wrinkly tummy at 23yrs old when I didnt after DD! (sorry if that sounds shallow)
Went to see the midwife today, Had another S&S, baby is very low still but cervix is still posterior. Its the only thing stopping natural labour! and have now been given an induction date for Monday (at that point I went into a zone where I just felt like a complete failure for why my body is taking longer this time. if at all) a lot can happen in a week I guess.
Doesn't give me much to go by with regards to DP being there either. Induction could be quick, or long. he only has 12 hours. MW said once the cervix comes down, she doesn't think it will be long at all as baby has come half way down the canal. its just waiting for the cervix.
I'm concerned about intervention needed as baby feels big to me (even though im measuring 37weeks) She didn't seem concerned though as its probably because the head is so low.
Also noticed I had 2 EDD's in my notes (21st and 23rd) either way im overdue.
I hate feeling like a complete moan-arse. I feel that's all I'm ever doing the past 6months. I always brave face for DD. But sometimes I get upset in front of her like this morning when I woke up and realised it was another day of being overdue. but then to see her adorable face, makes me appreciate things, she makes my heart melt 24/7 (even when she does scribble on the wall and say "uh-oh, naughty" lol)
its just this past year, along with the anticipation of getting this baby out healthy & me to feel healthy iyswim. I just have a negative vibe about the labour now as the luck hasnt been the best recently.
Woah essay - sorry