Hi guys,
I had a bit of a melt down today, just started crying. I was awake from 4.30am, gave up at 5.30am and had breakfast 1. Then I napped a bit later. I just feel so fed up, I can barely move, uncomfortable all the time. I can't sleep and find myself wandering round the house. I feel so lonely here at home just waiting. So I cried for ages then threw up my lunch and felt shakey as can be this afternoon. This resulted in me eating at the wrong times and my bloods are all to pot today.
I went to get my haircut this evening - because it was flicking up at odd angles. My hair grows so damn fast - honestly it was well over an inch in 5 weeks, my hairdresser and I decided to take more than normal off. I now have quite a short blunt but shaped bob. It just seems a cm or two just too short for my liking. DH said oh give it an hour or two and it will have grown. LOL maybe a fortnight and it will be more like I like it.
I think yesterday at the clinic just got me down, for an internal a week ago then one yesterday (that really really hurt like hell) to find cervix is still long and not dilated was a bit heartbreaking really, especially as the plan was to induce me this week, only for docs to try and wait til next week to see if my cervix ripens more first. I know the more my body does the better it will be for me but I am now dreading going next Monday....and then they saying come back at weekend or the following Monday for induction. (they have promised to induce by 41w at latest which is a week on Sunday - so I bet they will tell me to go in on the Monday morning). It sounds awful but they thought of all the pains and IBS issues etc for 2 more weeks just is getting to me.
Oh and the MW who did my trace said it wasn't as reactive as she would liek so kept me on for an hour then asked doc to look at it. Doc dismissd it as fine. The MW was sooo nice - I hope I get her when in labour.
I feel soooo guilty for being such a moan, I have a healthy baby in me and I should just get on with it. I just want DH next to me and I think I am getting on his nerves now.
Tomorrow my sis wants to go get a new phone if I am up for it...that means in sis speak that she wants me to drive her. I guess it will get me out of the house.
My friend who had her baby 6 weeks ago said she is up for visitors if I want to go by on Thursday, so I think I will do that too (DH is a little worried as she lives 35 mins drive from us and he is paniccing in case I go in to labou there, I told him don't be daft it won't eb that quick). Again it has to be better than sitting here going stir crazy.
alicedee I put the TENS on for an hour last night and i did feel a whole lot better when I went to bed. I just wish that it would make me sleep too. the 4.30 up was the third time I'd woken up for loo/numb hands.
Tonight I was really bad - I took an omeperazole capsule that my GP said they were safe in PG (and other MUMSNET ladies have been prescribed them too) but the obstetrician told me to take ranitidine instead as there was more evidence of it's safety. The ranitidine I don't find is anywhere near as effective. So I took one this evening just to have one night without the acid and burning hell
OMG I just typed an essay sorry about that guys - I hope you don't mind my spill.
How are you all doing?
Come on baby Dragon stop sticvking your arse out the top of my bump and get out here and see me