Hello all,
back from hols yesterday. Not sure it was worth it tbh. Dp suffered massively with his anxiety and panic attacks which put a big strain on me in turn. I find the travelling/plane/airport part of hols stressful but dp is soo anxious himself that he cannot be of any practical help to me with the dc. He literally cried with relief once we got out of the airport yesterday.
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I also keep feeling like I'm a crap mother to dd, I can't get it out of my head that I'm rubbish and that I react to her far too much and that anyone else would be more patient and tolerant. Feel like sometimes I take out my frustration at dp on her
. Hols also made me think that she is different and heightened my concerns about her having Aspergers. Dp doesn't want to hear it so I feel like I'm going a bit mad. And ds now has top and bottom teeth and is biting me a lot. Makes me want to stop bf
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Enough of my moans, you got a week's worth at once there!
ABF, are you getting married?? Did you keep that quiet or have I just been too self absorbed?? Hope you have a great day!
Really pleased to see you back Scorps, Lacey is beautiful. Hope that rl is going ok for you. It will feel weird being child free for that long, esp when you usually have 4. Whenever I've been without both of them in the day I've felt very strange, like I'm still looking out for them even though they are not with me.
Al, don't feel bad about the rabbit, you did the kindest thing really.
Good luck for going back to work on Monday. I'm back in less than 3 weeks. Looking forward to the adult company but sad about dd starting school and leaving ds.
No idea what we will do for ds 1st birthday. We had a massive party at home for dd so feel like we need to do something similar for ds but 21st Dec might not be the best time for everyone.