Oh I was thinking of soma from Brave New World, perhaps is what I need.
Yes lettuce meant to be soporific, I remember from Peter Rabbit dropping off after gorging, my mum always adding the herbal medicine lesson on afterwards! Think it's because dp's been away for a few days, always feels odder alone.
I'm managing to get reading properly again, am reading this, just exactly my cup of non-fiction tea.
No1 I didn't respond to you yesterday though I read your post. Not really sure what to say other than I am glad you are in a safe spot with your mum and I am sorry ds seems to be unsettled. And sorry about the aggressive / undermining messages etc., no matter how you rationalise them it's dreadful hearing or reading anything like that. Keep strong.