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came to talk and the thread was full.

not silly at all Natty. I can imagine it must be such a complicated, emotional time.

nopt silly at all natty. It's natural after having a miscarriage to worry about the "what ifs". Have you spoken to anyone on the miscarriage avengers thread? there is lots of support and hand holding on there.

anyone got a test they want to post me?

already had a look Natty.

I got a couple of freebies posted to me by the makers of Clearblue when I phoned them after a couple of dodgy ones. Can't remember what the problem was not, vertical line but no horizontal? anyway, you could always try to pull a fast one.

aw foxy thats so kind of you to have already looked!
hmm, i may try that.. failing i could go docs and say i alreadu got a faint faint positive and cos of the miscarrige could he repeat it? might even be able to get him to do bloods and find my exact HCG level.

aw foxy thats so kind of you to have already looked!
hmm, i may try that.. failing that i could go docs and say i alreadu got a faint faint positive and cos of the miscarrige could he repeat it? might even be able to get him to do bloods and find my exact HCG level.

there you go. There's always a way around the system

I have eaten too many chocs and feel sick now.

I think its time for bed for me. Night all!

Morning ladies

Early start here. Jamlet woke at 6am till, it's been a while since she did that so I shouldn't complain. And it sounds like she is snoozin' upstairs now with DH

If anyone works out how to send miis to each other let me know as I'd like to share miis.

Swimming with the Jamlet in a while and then we have friends coming for lunch. Shame it's pouring so we have to sit in our cluttered dining room instead of out in the garden.

Daisy, it must have been the day for it yesterday. I had a bit of a wobbly afternoon. It's the clutter around the house that gets me down, and the feeling of helplessness that there's so much to do (we still have some major stuff to do, not just tidying up) and that it's been going on for years (for which read all the time I've been with DH) and we never get anywhere because DH isn't bothered enough and I get worn out nagging. I just feel that we never make any progress and it gets me really down. Anyway, it all welled up again yesterday and I had a bit of a sob.

Natty, keeping fingers crossed for you & DH.

Oh dear, am now feeling a bit wobbly again from trying to describe how I feel. It (the clutter) just drains me and makes everyday life so much harder than it ought to be. And the time and energy I spend nagging trying to spur DH into action! But I can't do it all myself, unfortunately. Having Jamlet has helped, in that I now feel there is some greater purpose in life, I'm not just on a cycle of get up, go to work, come home, do trivial crap, go to bed, from now until I die, with nothing left behind to mark the fact that I was here, but I still feel dragged down by it all somedays.

Sorry to bring such a downer to the thread so early in the day. I will go and try to do something positive now to pull myself round.

Hi Jammy, early morning here too. DD woke up and kindly woke up DS too.

Sorry you are feeling low . If it's any consolation, that's exactly how it is in this house as well. I get very stressed out by the clutter and un-done jobs and Dh barely notices. I had a complete melt-down about it last week, and sobbed. He seemed to be genuinely shocked that it could bother me so much. However much I tell him, it never seems to sink in. I'm fed up of him promising to do something and then completely forgetting.

Thanks Fairy. And though I am of course full of sympathy that you have similar situation, it does bring some comfort to know it's not just me.

Jammy and fairy I know how you feel. I feel so overwhelmed by stupid things like the flat, and all the crap we have in the garage. But also, and this is going to sound really stupid, but I feel really creatively...not stifled, but something, challenged maybe. I was kidded into thinking I had such a lot of potential as a child, went to a "special" group for clever people, always got top marks, and now I feel a bit wasted, I don't have any hobbies, talents, I'm in a job that anyone could easily do. I am financially in the worst position I have ever been. What happened? Where did all my potential go? I feel like I should be in a whizzy job in the city earning mega bucks. That what I always expected. But as I got up the academic ladder I was less and less 'special', and now I just feel pretty dumb. Which is why I feel bogged down by the mudanity of bringing up a baby, and I try one thing or another (this week it is sketching with a sketch book and a text book I bought from the Tate Modern) trying to find my niche. Never quite managing. Now that send me into meltdown.

Phew...sorry, don't know where all that came from

Can I join the I the 'aint a rocket big enough to shift his arse' gang please?

I just do it all myself. He doesn't care, I do. I have standards, he doesn't. So, its all down to me. Don't have any expectations and you won't be disappointed school of thought. Makes me sad that he sells himself short, but he has no confidence (thanks to his Dad) about his capabilities for things domestic. He is actually capable when he does. On those rare occasions.

Or perhaps he is just a pathetic idle fuck who will sit with his mate watching the rugby whilst his 36 week pg missus paints his daughters bedroom.

The latter I think.

He is back tomorrow. It will be disruptive. I am not entirely looking forward to it.

I feel like that Bumper.
Maybe you should look at a career change, you are still really young, you could do anything, but it's up to you to make the first step. Is there a careers service or something you could talk to about alternatives?

Daisy, Jammy, hope you're feeling better.

Aww foxy, it must be tough for you and the kids all this upheaval. Sounds like DP is a bit crap on the domestic front, however to put a different spin on it my DH is great on the domestic front but not on the work front. Our rows stem from the fact that he hasn't got a very good job and certainly couldn't provide for us if I wasn't to work. And it's not because he is stupid or not hard working. Just (IMO) doesn't try hard enough to get a better one to help us have a better life.

But your DP at least can provide for you. Obviously that doesn't help the day to day running of your life though. Just wanted to put a positive spin on your DP. Crap about the painting though

I don't know sputnik. There is honestly nothing I can think of that I want to do instead, well, nothing compatible with having a family (international spy isn't exactly a flexible working job), and I don't think I'm good enough to be the Prime Minister . I love my job in theory but in practice it's just a desk job. I never dread going, just feel a bit unfulfilled by it.

I bought this book at the Tate though. Not that I am a budding artist or anything but there is a couple of pages in there where the author describes people who's creativity has been suppressed for whatever reason. They feel irritable and unchallenged but instead of trying new things they get bogged down by distractions such as TV and computers, starting things and never really following though. There were other things, but it all sounded really like me, so I bought the book and a sketch book and some pencils and am going to unleash my creativity. I used to draw loads as a child, and write and do all kinds of creative things.

awww everyone is feeling the strain, isnt it funny how we are all feeling the same at the same time?
my DH has been a total arse over the whole M/C, his opinion over the whole thing is that im getting upset over nothing, theres nothing he can do about it so why am i bothered that he isnt bothered?
and for the record, my DH does bugger all around the house, so everytime he gets a bonus i buy a new expensive piece of equipment to make my life easier! a new 150 pound hoover/carpet washer, and a dishwasher. next on my list is a tumble dryer! (which he thinks im waiting till janurary for, pah! i have a secret savings account money keeps disapearing into!!)

i do have some good news...... ready??

im pregnant

Natty

That's brilliant Natty!! Sticky thoughts for you

Natty

ooh, you said it out loud

fingers crossed for you xx

Congratulations Natty!

aww thanks you guys.. i am very nervous.. keep checking the line to make sure it is actually there...

i have a really good friend who turned up at my house with 3, yes 3! tests today
i think she may be made godmother

Congratulations Natty! Fingers crossed for you.

Sorry to hear a few of you are feeling negative - I think it must be to do with the shitty summer were having.

I had a bit of a scare today - For the last 24hrs L has had a temp on and off of 41.6 or so degrees, but calpol/ibrofrofen etc brings it down. I guess its linked to the dreaded MMR jab from a week ago, but this afternoon whilst we were in the car - I suddenly realised that there was a weird noise coming from L in the back - I stopped the car as soon as I could and I think she may have had a febrile convulsion - she had dribbled alot, she was out of it, her arms were stiff, when I took her out of the seat she came round but looked dazed and made funny motions with her mouth, I also thought her neck looked swollen. I sat in the back with her on the way home (home is before the hospital),she slept straight away in the car but seemed to be breathing quite noisily. But as she seemed to calm down, we just dosed her up and she slept/bf .
She had some tea and has gone to sleep now - phew scary!!
any one else know if that sounds like a febrile convulsion??