E&H Bloody hell, what is wrong with these men! Something in the water? something in the moon at the moment? It just makes me sad to think of so many people ( around MN, and here) going through such tough, horrible and painful times with twatty men.
I really hope you guys are ok. I know how you feel about being there before etc... I just need to get to that strong point you've sadly had to reach, in being able to not care so much. I'm sure that is the best way to be, really shits them up...
Glad you have a great night out. Shame about the hangover though. Did you do what I told you to???
Lizz: sorry the C.pox in your house passed me by! so sorry. hope thy clear up soon. rotten hey. must be terrible frustrating at this age for them.
Rat: Glad things better for you. Thank god he went to relate. So pleased it helped, despite you thinking not alot was said, it worked anyway!
Reggie: Izzy had a nasty puking bug a week or two ago. She was off her food for days after. I htink she had tummy pains too, as she would scream for a reason i never got to the bottom of...
Wilkie: how are you settling in? getting on alright in the new job too?
Vino: I can't believe how fast your pg seems to have gone by!!! how are you feeling? knackered I bet?
sorry for anyone I've missed!
As for the Cutie household... Mr Cutie came home at weekend. Was very emotional when he saw me, cuddled me tighter than I think he ever has. Stroked my hair too. Somethig I like, so relaxing, something he never does, unless prompted, which makes it never feel quite as nice!
So, we talked a bit, we'd already talked a lot on the phone, before he came home. I didn't really feel like anything was resovled at all. Infact, I felt worse for talking, which really scared me. Felt like things would never be ok again.
I decide, I didn't want to talk too much about it when he was here.As I'd had enough of feeling sad. Wanted to enjoy our time, if possible. As soon as I saw him, rather than wanting to kick him I just was really pleased, and relieved. I looked at him, and just felt such love for him, so much of my anger went away. . He was also incredibly pleased to see me, and Izzy of course.
Ended up having a very nice time saturday night... eventually went to bed... Got a bit passionate, instigated by him for the first time in 2 years or more. He ended up whilst we were at it.. ( sorry if TMI ) stopping, but not quite stopping IYSWIM, and just holding me, I could see tears rolling down his face. Kind of worried me ( as it does, you know! ) before I could say anything, he just said he wanted to feel as close as he could to me, for as long as was possible.
Anyway... eventually, we carried on... all great stuff. Asked him after, when he was still cuddling me and stoking my hair, what was wrong, he said he felt so intensely for me, so deeply, and so connected at that moment. It made him realise how precious we were, and had a horribly gutting serge of emotion as he realised how close he had been to really losing us again... followed by more powerful emotion of his strong feelings for me. Still coudlnt say he loved me though...
SO, he went back today, and is coming home again friday. Guess it all kind of got swept under the carpet a bit, but still, maybe things got sorted without actually having to talk about it this time. He actually felt some real emotions, which is quite rare for him with his AS...
Really lovely, and touching to hear all he said truly was, but, I can't get out of my head, it doesn't seem long ago at all, similar was being said, and done, and it's happened again... I think i'm just waiting for it to happen yet again. Is that ridiculously cynical and unfair of me?
Question to all:
He said as he was about to go, that he wants to take his girls on a sunny holiday at end of may/start of june...
We both like going to places where there is somewhere to discover/explore a bit. Maybe visit some historical/archealogical places etc.. that kind of thing. or nice villages or towns to explore. I'm thinking maybe Crete but have been there, so, wondered if anyone had any suggestions?
Anything would be much appreciated!
Also, have any of you sorted out passports for small people, if so, how, and did it take long? how do you do picture, and all the signing bit, to say true likeness etc...
Sorry for long post, but havn't been on for a bit wanted to just let you know how its been going. you've all been so lovely and supportive too. Which has helped so much. Thank you.