HI
Wilks: Its the worst ever when they're sick isn't it? No warning, nothing! Izzy wouldn't even let me hold the towel infront of her to catch it, she kept pushing my hands and towel away, so it went everywhere! Hope it stops soon, poor little thing! Oh, and for your sake too, of course!
E&H: sorry text was so long, i was in so much pain, had taken a lot of morphine, re-read it today and realised how rambling it was . SO sorry!
LIzz: thanks for link to george, I totally forgot they have really lovely clothes in there. I MUST go to our nearest big store, has most of the range out there. Thanks for reminding me
I am going to try to get over to john lewis tomorrow for trousers for Iz though. I also need long sleeve tops, can't find any anywhere now! SO i'm thinking maybe long sleeved vest, with t-shirt over top, does tat sound ok, or too are they too small for the 'layered' look?
Something really really really terrible happened today. Not sure wether to post it or not, but I will.... please please don't judge me badly. I feel sick at the thought of it.
I felt really ill this morning, with this virus thing i've got. I'd dozed on sofa on and off since getting up at 7 with izzy. really wanted to be awake, so made my self sit completely upright. Next thing I knew, I woke up again, FRONT DOOR OPEN, no Izzy in the flat.
I panicked - obviously- I managed to stand up which was really painful, couldn't find my walking stick. Got to door, and she was outside, at the top of the stairs ( we're in a basement flat) covered head to foot in mud, with lots of little piles of stones all around her. One leg in, and one leg out of her romper suit. She looked like such a scallywag, abandoned child/ neglected baby. She was fine,chatting away, happily playing, thank god, but when I think of what might have happened! the drive way, leads off the garden, straight onto pavement and road, no gate or anything.
I can't bare it. I had no control over being asleep, i didn't want to be asleep. I'm so fed up with this virus now. I mean, what if something else had happened to my beautiful baby girl? I feel SO guilty, so sick at the thought of it. I still don't know how she got the door open. I had't been out today. it must have not been totally shut and she pulled it at the bottom. Mr C says he's seen her open it, when its just ajar, but it was certanily more shut than that. anyway, i'll never know I guess. Hes going to put a gate up when he gets back from china. We've been talking about it for a couple of months, so at lease he'll definitely do it now.
Shit... shit... shit... I feel like the worst mummy in the world. I feel so sorry for her. What bad luck she's had getting me for a mum. I"m so upset about it. Can't get over what could have happened.