Born in June - waiting on the last few!

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new thread, sorry for the unimaginative title!

Apparently I had whisky rubbed into my gums when teething

Thanks Daisy - feel much beeter - I'm told by others as well that elective CS without labour is much better (mine was 24 hours - to get to 2cm

Evening. Anyone here?

hi foxy....i've been looking for you on the other thread...how you doing?

Hello lovely! Just been scoffing my jalfrazi

Spent an hour tweaking last night, brought on some lovely contractions. Which stopped.

Had sex this morning.
Drank large mango smoothy
Had Acupuncture. With electricity got contractions - which stopped
Got depressed
Drank tea with friend, had contractions - which stopped.
Had more acupuncture - more contractions whilst driving home. They stopped.
Had a curry whilst bouncing on ball
More mango juice
Bounced on ball
Will go back to nipple tweaking whilst watching big brother

Sob!!!

Arggh foxy - how are we going to get this baby out?! Thinking of you.

Thanks Bumper, have started a thread asking for advice - I just don't know what to do.

aw foxy....i wish tere was something we coukd do for you...msybe a mass visualisation?

having a pretty shit day chez boo. ds has pushed me to my limits yet again and i've smacked him for the second time this week. he has turned into a horrible little gremlin, being cheeky, answering back, being cruel to DD, mimicking everything i say. i am thoroughly fucking fed up with it and want to take my beautiful dd and go and live in a cabin in the woods.

my house is a shit-tip and i can't get anything done for dd through the day or the evening and then i'm just too tired to do anything. and when i phoned dh to tell him all this and have a cry i got the strong silent treatment so screamed at him to fuck off. that was half an hour ago and he hasn' called back to see if i'm ok. twunt

now i just want to drink gin...lots and lots of lovely gin and forget all about my miserable life.

sorry....needed to get that off my chest

Yes! When I think about ALL that time thinking about everyone else's cervixes opening up (or staying closed in Sputniks case)...

I totally understand what you are saying Daisy. If my DS1 is anything to go by, the behaviour has more to do with their age, not us or babies! Mine responds really well to star charts (I include 'no hurting' and 'good manners' on mine) but he's a competitive bugger (and has someone to compete against which helps). Could you reward him at the end of the week? (Powerrangers magazine in fortnightly I understand... )

I fully expect to have EXACTLY the same 'conversations' with DP when he goes back to work (his first weekend away is the last one in June). And I can't cope when my house isn't in some sort of order (not that its immaculate at all!). Oh Daisy! I just know exactly what its like! You have all my support honey!!!

c heers foxy. we tried a reward f he was good, but the fly little bugger would get his prize then immediately wonder what his next weeks prize would be.....spoilt and ungrateful springs to mind....but who's fault is that?

and to top it all, ds keeps getting out of bed and i have a screaming dd who wont be comforted and a bloody sore head cos i missed my meds for two days.

Shit Daisy.

You know you've done brilliantly well! I for one have been mighty impressed, and not only that, you've been a major support to everyone on here.

DS will be at school tomorrow won't he? Can you spend half an hour whirlwinding around the house (gives me some sense of control) then take some time. Have a lovely bath (with DD if she won't be put down, that's lovely too) and have a day being kind to yourself. (Remember you need looking after too!).

And if things do turn to shit, well its a blip, its not forever!

thanks foxy....you ae astar lending an ear to me when you're feeling pretty glum yourself. i know that this is partly to do with missing my meds. the have a very quick half life so it's like starting again really. thing is i was at the hospital today and didn't tell the how shit i've been feeling and came across all "everythings fine" i'm back on friday to see my consultant so maybe a bit more honesty is needed on my part.

haven't eaten tea yet either which isn't helping.

maybe i need to follow my own advice sometimes

Sweetie, we're all in this - all our shit together! Its far easier to tell everyone you are fine than not, and don't forget, you haven't been focussing on yourself at all. I guess now DH is working away and life is having to return to 'normal' its a lot harder to contend with. The bubble bursts and RL has to start is what I am trying to say.

Give yourself time to work out how its going to work. I found going from 1 to 2 really hard. And thats without all the extra shite you are dealing with (on your own most of the week too).

Daisy, I'd like to add that I think you're doing fab, and second that yes you have been a real help on here. Sorry you're not feeling on top form yourself. Take it easy and remember you're doing pretty darn well at a job that's not really that easy.

i just feel so pathetic, like i should be able to cope with all of this (it's not rocket science) but i just can't. Poor DS must hate me as all i seem to do is yell at him and then smack him (which i hate myself for). i thnk his constant prodding and poking at emily is just a way to get my attention. i feel like i need to split myself in two...one half for him and the other for emily. its so frustrating as he's getting much more of my time since em was born, but his behaviour is much worse.

I've had something to eat now and hopefully em will have another good sleep tonight (6.5 hours she did last night)

Right, I'm going to try and get this little lady to sleep (she's currently sat wide awake looking about her quite happily) then i'm off to my bed too.

Good luck for the night foxy....hope it all gets going for you tonight. i bet after all this you're going to have the quickest labour in MN history...c'mon you've got to beat that cheeky madam up in lanarkshire

thanks Jamantha....i'm sure things will seem a bit brighter in the morning.

LOL, emily is sitting watching the living room lights and grinning away at them...strange child, but so so cute!

We need to add some 6 week photos to our profiles so we can see how they're all progressing.

Trouble is, the older one DOES cop it. I was having the exact same conversation with a RL friend today (see? I do have one!). And actually, they aren't angels and sometimes they deserve it, but we get confused because of the guilt. And I found that I had MASSIVE guilt after having DS2.

You haven't done this before Daisy, so why do you think you should be able to? Its not a breeze, its incredibly hard.

And you could be sat on a swiss ball tweaking your nipples ... at least I've closed the curtains now

Nite all xx

Hi everyone, haven't been around for awhile as just been so bloody busy, trying to adjust to the new family unit...

Daisy I can so sympathise with you, and coming on here tonight and seeing what you have wrote, has exactly described how I'm feeling, and what I'm going through at the moment.

My dd who is 3 and a half is really testing my patience, today she has been a nightmare, she is always right there beside me all the time, she won't go and play on her own, she is forever prodding the baby, and is right in his face, and like you Daisy I am yelling at her all the time, and since baby have found myself smacking her also, without any warning, just because I'm so fed up with her.

God when I read this I sound so selfish.

Today I have sobbed on 2 friends shoulders, The thing that is upsetting me the most I don't know if its the same for you Daisy, but I feel like I can't spend any quality time with the baby as if I take him in another room and start talking to him, dd comes in straight after me, so then I feel guilty and ignore the baby.

Selfishly again its sort of nice to know its not just my dd thats being annoying.

I'm sure it will get better for us

foxy - you offer some great words of wisdom - thank you

Claire, it's good to know I'm not alone. got some reading material from my mental health nurse yesterday which is really helpful, it's just i have to try and implement it now!

Foxy....??????? anything?????

Hi everyone, thanks for your lovely messages! I'll post a bith announcement later today with all the gory details. Things didn't exactly go as planned but the result is a beautiful little boy who has so far been an angel (give him time...).

C'mon Foxy, lots of cervix dilating vibes coming your way!!

Hi Daisy, I had a quick read through your posts and sorry to hear things are so fraught at your end.
I am not the advice queen, I never know what to say, but I hope things look up for you soon - you have been the voice of reason and wisdom for so many of us here and whilst I am crap at offering any myself, hopefully you are just haveing a couple of bad days and that things are better going forward!

xx

Blimey Daisy - you were so good with me yesterday helping me though some of my PN feelings - you have been a great support for me - and you were having a shit time as didn't even say anything to me - I'm so sorry . Blimey, I only have one to deal with - it must be so bloody hard trying to sort 2 out - let alone on your own for most of the week - I find it difficult enough with one for the day-time!

Sounds like you have great support from the hospital - have you sorted out your prescription now? I have to say my AD's are like a crutch to me - I'm terrified of running out. I'm starting a course of counselling today to try and learn how to deal with my anxiety attacks - so just got to hope DD is quiet for that hour - or I might have one in there .

Well I hope you have a better day - some "me" time required I think as Foxy suggested.

You are so lucky to have your DD smile - mine is nearly 6 weeks and has only managed it once - I cannot encourage her to do again

Hi Daisy - hope things looking up soon. You need to take some of your own good advice i.e look after yourself & remember you are doing a great job, no guilt allowed.