Dec 2008 - Now we are six....

[MontserratCaballe]

Here you go. Happy new year!

better than yesterday. In that i don't have a temp of 40.2 after both paracetamol and ibuprofen and I'm not getting rigors. So that's good. Tomorrow I'm supposed to be being a model for the first years to do their practical taking blood pressure, temp, respiration rate and stuff. i might give a few interesting results but at least it is counted in my clinical time and I'm really behind now. Am going to chat to one of the tutors when i go in about the possibility of an extension on the essays and maybe not going back in to placement for a few more days, am supposed to be 2 long days Friday and Saturday and at this rate i think I'd be back to square 1 but i think i might be getting to the point I'd need a dr certificate. Urgh. i can see my hard earned grades going down the pan on this placement.

Anyway how are you holding up?

Am just trying to rock on as normal with moments of utter terror thrown in for good measure. Putting the boys to bed has become fraught with emotions. Christ knows what I will be like by Monday. But generally tickety boo.

I can't promise that everything will be fine but you have a lot in your favour, age, bf etc all places you as low risk and that you have spotted a change and been proactive suggests that if there is a malignancy then you will have caught it early. We are all here whatever shit life might throw at you.

Thank you my love. It helps that you lot know. I had a lovely chat with Beans earlier about blow jobs and lamb tagine. Which cheered me up no end.

I'm sure it did! Sounds like quite some conversation.

Hi paleo
hope you're feeling better and better? good idea to talk about a few days postponement. it's not like you're a slacker, just genuinely ill.

chin up, my lovely Jam. will be thinking of you on Monday and hoping all ok. blow jobs and lamb tagine. I know what I'd rather put in my mouth. and it's not penis.

My Granny died last night. a lovely lovely lady, who looked after me so much when I was little. she's had dementia for a few years, and has been going downhill. Doctors told Mum on Monday that Granny didn't have long left and she dies the next day. Poor old Gran. she was magical in her heyday and a proper beauty. Poor Mum has taken such an emotional battering these last couple of years.

Sorry to hear about your Gran Beans.

I'm sorry Beans. You sound pretty ok about it? Dementia is so horrible, steals people long before they die :(

A nice-ish dementia story because it has reminded me. A lovely older lady in our village lost her husband 10 years ago. She says she lost him long before that because of dementia. Anyway we were discussing crap presents from spouses and she told us about a thermos flask he once got her for Christmas because he was worried about her when she went out to work in the winter. She was not best pleased yet fast forward several years and she used that thermos every day taking him a picnic lunch when he was in a nursing home. Made me smile. Apparently he would forget what he did and didn't like so she'd get strawberries out of the basket and he'd go "oh I don't like those" so she'd put them away and a minute later get them out again "Oh I don't like those" and so on until finally "oh lovely I hope you brought cream" . The even more soppy ending to the story is that she is leaving us temporarily to go traveling around the world with her new love having recently got back in touch with the boyfriend she had back when she was 16! He is a widower, both had long lasting marriages and are officially growing old disgracefully and sickeningly teenagerish. She grins like a soppy fool whenever he is mentioned. It is lovely.

Oh Beans my lovely. You poor thing. xx

So sorry Beans, you only mentioned your Gran earlier this week. Love to you, and your Mum x

I love that story, Paleo. it's true, she hasn't really been around for a long while. thanks for kindnesses. I am ok about it. It's v different to losing someone still vital and Granny wouldn't have wanted to still be alive, if she'd known how she was, IYSWIM x

Yes I know what you mean.

I am so sorry to be away so long. Every day - literally - I mean to post then think, oh, I haven't got enough time to do the post I want so I decide to wait until I do. Then that time never comes! So I am going to say SOMETHING other than "I will be back tomorrow" (and then not manage it), even if it's only a couple of sodding paragraphs...

Jam - well done for getting it all checked, brave girl. I think breast changes are very common after bf (says the world's expert in bf - seriously though, I have read so many times that they are) and remember the odds are against there being a serious problem BUT I would feel just as terrified. We are all rooting for you.

Beans - I am sorry about your granny. Your poor Mum. Remember the lovely things and keep them close.

I must have been away a long time as everyone is now officially calling Indith Paleo

Am still laughing about lamb tagine and penis. It would be touch and go right now which is least appealing to me

Obviously I am woefully behind (Arti, you have been to sunny climes for work, I know that, as has Rubes) - Arti - is the au pair you are trying to eject the German one? How are you feeling about the whole work/life balance thing these days?

Life here is predictably hectic. DD3 is a dream baby but just the whole business of having three is incredibly time consuming (as everyone murmurs no shit Sherlock...). I have started to take work back on again (idiot), the house looks horrible and is v disorganised, the business of being chair of the pre-school is a bit of an albatross round me neck and I do now seriously need to flay two stone off my hide. DD3 is not looking very newborny any more. Because she is 16 weeks!!! So, I hope to shed a stone before we go to Japan at end of March, then another stone by the summer. A tall order at the rate I seem to lose it.

Christmas had some tricky moments as DP and I seemed to get on each other's nerves a lot and in fact had a couple of really ugly rows (which we haven't had since a couple of weeks after I had DD3 and I guess my hormones were a bit awry and quite frankly his emotional support was very lacking). But things seem ok now and I have stopped fantasising about shoving him into an icy canal.

Oh crikey, it's sleep time and I need to read my book group book. I will never get it read by the 30th Jan. But At least I have broken my duck and said more than "hello, I will be back!" even if it's a heck of a lot less than I would like to say.

Beans am sorry to here about your Grandma. Dementia is such a hideous thing.

Lady lovely to hear from you as always.

DD has a friend here for a sleepover. my ears are bleeding already and I have her till 11am tomorrow! I need a drink to get me through but feel I shouldn't series g as I'm responsible for someone else's child! A couple will be alright won't it??

I think a couple are necessary

Judging by my spelling on my last post you'd think I'd already had a few!!

Anyway I've poured a large vodka....or two. The girls are now onsied up and watching Monster High DVDS!

If it were my child I'd have given you a bottle of wine to get you through.

I've lost 5lb after my first week. Not too bad really. I had DS2 off most days so didn't do all my walking so hopefully it'll keep coming off.

Well done Kayz that's excellent.

Dieds you deserve a medal. I can't stand sleepovers. Unless it's family.

Lady it's lovely to hear from you. I often think that we all don't post often enough as we feel we need to do lovely long catch ups. But just sticking your head in the door and shouting hello is enough.

Right the bike and the outdoors becons. It's going to be bloody freezing. Even more terrifying is DS1 is coming with me. Wahhh big boy big roads.

I think they finished talking about midnight and we're awake just after 7! I'm going to have a daughter in a foul mood later! Still another hour and it is done woo hoo, I shall treat myself to more drinks later to recover.

Kayz well done that is fab on the weight loss. I know a few people who have done well on the 5:2 diet.

I could do with losing a few pounds myself. We have just booked 11 nights in Majorca for the summer (school hols are so expensive), need to get bikini ready!! However if I peak too soon I may lose it and put it all back on before August

Jam that vid on FB is cute. I love the sound of chuckling baba.

3 glasses of white wine when you don't drink midweek is a total session. running in the morning and will feel ropey. doing C25k. not finding it very taxing. need to ramp it up a few weeks.

lady, grrrreat to hear from you.

big news: having my eyes lasered on Friday. shit shit. but life changer. worn specs since 4. imagine if I could shave my legs by sight, not by feel. and actually see which is shampoo or conditioner without putting the bottle 4cms from my face. keep your fingers crossed for me.

meantime, Jammy, will be doing the same for you come Monday. Please let us know how it goes. x

That's amazing, Beans. I have often thought about it (worn specs since 18) but wear my contact lenses most of the time. Less so since DD3 was born though as I have been a bit tired. Also I am a bit chicken! Will be interested to hear how it goes, keep us posted!

Jam - am looking forward to when tomorrow is all over for you.

Kayz - 5lb in a week is ber-illiant. DP is on about doing the 5:2 (I did it a bit a couple of summers ago) so I think we are going to do it together.

Exciting about your hols, DB. I haven't been to Majorca for about 7 years, I do like it. I am taking the girls to Portugal in the summer (just me and them) and then I think we will have a week in Germany with DP - he wants to drive across France to the Black Forest near where he grew up. How is work going? Are you doing many extra hours than your old job? Are you finding it interesting?

I have bought a few size 14 clothes. It's good in one way, cos I can't keep wearing mat clothes and they look better on me than too tight 12s (and the jeans etc which I can't even get on) but I don't want to get too comfy in them. I am desperate not to look frumpy. However you dress, when you are 42 and packing two stone more than you should it can be tricky...

Still haven't done catch up but at least I am chipping in.

I have a shocking headache! I need an early might I think.

I'm loving the job ladyt, thanks for asking. its been an odd environment to get used to and the err...'residents' swing from being the bloke next door to psychopath. But there's never a dull moment and my colleagues are a fab bunch. I do about 10 hours more than the other job and the kids do breakfast club. Which, thankfully, they love going to. It certainly makes getting them up in a morning easier!

Just swinging by to wish jammy the very best for tomorrow. I will be thinking of you all day and praying for the best of news. Much love xxx