December 2012: Now they're all 1

[Barbeasty]

We needed a new thread!

Great news Coffee.

Hope the interview went well Beasty.

Boo to morning sickness Utopian but hugely belated and massive congrats.

You have my sympathies WL. I've had many, many clingy toddler + pre-schooler meltdown moments and it is beyond tough.

I poke breadsticks through the bars of the baby gate when ds is whining while i try to cook

Interview went ok, thanks. Although I don't think I've got the job- but I don't mind because hopefully I have the other to fall back on.

The show was amazing. DD's class were supper sweet ( they were bulls), and there was some fantastic dancing from other groups- over 4 nights there are 400 dancers, aged 3-19. DH liked the jazz (to trance music).

Both DC are just in bed, and we're off soon- I think I'll go into work an hour late tomorrow. Fx A repeats last night (or maybe betters it?!)

Fx for you Beasty and I hope you're not too tired this morning.

J slept 8:30-11; 11-7:30 last night. It was great but he's so hit and miss.

I'm so excited but trying not to text Dp, so I'll tell you instead. J just said No! I tried to wash his face and he said No really clearly and shook his head at me. he says other words but this is the first new one for ages that's been in the right context.

Beasty how did A sleep? I'm glad DD's dance show went well and fx for the job.

Willyou well done to J i love new words it makes me feel like at least i'm doing one thing right.

Its my first morning of having both girls and its going well so far. I have managed to get H down for a nap and taught my niece how to draw some basic shapes will go over all week, so hopefully it'll make teaching her to write the alphabet easier.

WL i hope you got some sleep last night and some wine

Nutella, i forgot to say i hope the big move goes well and that i hope your not missing your mum to much today.

Coffee, congratulations for holding your ground and getting the go ahead.

Night 2 of just one waking. Shame it was a short night! We're all tired (A was still awake when we picked him up after 10pm) but it was worth it.

We've ordered our DVD, and one for MIL to say thank you for babysitting.

Yay WillYou. Well done J.

Right. Now I'm more than happy to spread around my interview luck to whoever wants it.

I've just had an email offering me the job I interviewed for yesterday!!

I'm in shock (really thought I didn't get it) and torn. The other job I was sort of promised, and sounded as though it was going to be created just for me, hasn't appeared yet so I don't want to miss out on this one waiting for something which may not materialise. But I was so convinced I wouldn't get it that I'd sort of talked myself out of this one- which would be a promotion.

I'm ignoring the email for now!!

Congratulations beasty! Well done you - although it's a dilemma I agree. How long could you put off accepting this one, if you prefer the other (if it materialises...)

Yay beasty! How exciting for you

I'm not sure how long I could put it off. Yesterday they said they were still interviewing until Friday and would let people know next week, which has added to the confusion. I was hoping the other job would turn up by then.

I guess the good thing is that I definitely have a new job to move to, whichever it is! Although there haven't been discussions about salary with this offer, so it may fall through yet- I need to cover an extra day at nursery for 2 DC.

Congratulations Beasty

Congratulations Beasty.

DS has gone to stay with DP and I can't really go out as I'm on the 5:45am train to London for work. It's going to be a looooong, lonely evening. Think I'll go to Zumba.

Yes go out WillYou. Or go swimming then get a KFC on the way back

Yay beasty that's awesome. Could you contact job 1 and ask what the deal is as you have another offer?
willyou Zumba is a great idea followed by some trash tv and a vino.
ispy dd2 can be so amazingly lovely, she's very affectionate and kind and entertaining, her laugh is wonderful but man can she cry about nothing. She's much more of 2 extremes than dd1.
hales well done - sounds as though you have big plans for those girls! How old is dn?
nutella it must be so hard with your mum far away - I have a friend from nz who's mum comes for months at a time - she always ends up feeling really torn. Fx for the big move.
After last nights shenanigans and getting up at 6, T has decided that 20 mins nap was enough for today. For the most part she's been happy enough and was so cute sitting on the draining board with a spud and a scrubbing brush helping me get dinner ready.

Off to Zumba my troubles away then

With you in spirit willyou - exercise is always great for making me feel more positive.

wl LOVE the mental image of T on the draining board!

Willyou, i hope you enjoy Zumba. I know it probably won't feel like it but at least the alone time will give you some time to concentrate on your own feelings and needs.

WL, that sounds so cute. I'm one of 3 girls btw and all of us have VERY VERY different personalities. I feel sorry for my mum and dad raising us, but now as adults we are all for the most part very close.

WL, my DN is 2.6 years old, shes quite a bright little thing though and needs to be challenged alot mentally or she goes nuts with boredom. I also want my sister to feel as though shes done the right thing leaving her with me. The whole day went easily enough but i was lucky that they both seemed in good moods i know it will be much harder when one of them is in a bad mood.

Nutella i meant to ask before, Will your mum be coming back for when you give birth?

Utopian hows your morning sickness?

wl I love the idea of your dd helping out with dinner. I know if I try and put DS on the work surface he would cause all kinds of trouble. Wish he'd sit still and scrub a spud

hales thank you for thinking of me :)

willyou I hope the Zumba gave you a good boost! Even it sounds really pants try leaving yourself little happy post-it notes in places (like in the kitchen cupboard where you keep your tea) I've done this in he he past, just with little messages to myself to make me smile and cheers me up. I know it sounds really twee but well, if it makes you smile why not?!

beasty get you! everyone wants to give you a job! Well done! :)

I do miss my mum and honestly it would be nice to have her around the corner. Although she also irritates me hugely at times, I love the extra pair of hands, that I can trust, to look after DS. She is quite fit and super capable as a grandma and childminder. DS is definitely missing her. He looked for her all day yesterday expecting her to walk out of the bathroom or her room and I felt quite sorry for him.

DS is proper poorly today. The drs here close on a Wednesday afternoon (honestly, these poor docs have such a hard life, short day Wed and Fri and weekends off....) and we ummed and ahhed about taking him to OOH. In the end we did take him (it's in the local children's hospital) and just in time. He was having another of his croup attacks and got really worked up. Then a bossy nurse watched us giving him the nebuliser and DH decided to take on the task of keeping the mask on his face which DS HATED and then DS threw up all over me. So it was a great way to spend the afternoon

DS is a real handful and watching the PIL sweat (honestly running down their faces sweat) and struggle/not manage to reach down to his level, struggle to lift him etc etc makes me really nervous and I don't see them ever looking after him for long periods of time. Add bean. 2 to the mix and well.... Yeah its not likely is it.
Even my fit mum had to start going to bed earlier while she was here :)

hales x post. I don't know yet. DH will have a month off when the baby arrives and I know it would be nice for DS to have my mum around... Plus she could do household stuff... I don't know. I will keep speaking to DH and see what we figure out. It would be nice if she could bring her partner too but then it gets to be a bit of a full house if anyone has any tips feel free :)

Poor DS Nutella, that sounds horrible. I think it maybe nice to have your mum there just so she can help look after DS whilst you give birth.

Well I went and I enjoyed it while I was there. But when I stepped outside again the floodgates opened. Seems like a bit of delayed shock as I hadn't cried since he left. I certainly made up for it, I howled all the way home, big noisy messy, snotty wails.

I've never missed someone so much in my life. I just want him to change his mind and come back. It's unthinkable and unbearable and gutwrenching that he's not here.

Sorry for being so mememe. I'm really struggling.

Oh WillYou I can't imagine how hard it is for you. You have your gorgeous boy who will be back with you soon

Willyou you poor dear. Keep strong and tell yourself you deserve better; better treatment, a better more secure future. Not some spineless arse that runs back to his mum for really pants selfish groundless reasons. Here and if I could I'd post you brownies and hugs. X

I can't get angry at him yet. I probably should but he looks just as broken as me. We're both wandering around like shells of people.

I also have a work meeting tomorrow (with client and my boss) and I cannot cancel. I have no idea how I'll get through it. Ideally I'd ring in sick for the rest of the week, lay in bed and cry, which I think I probably need but may not be great for me.

I'm scared I'm going to cry all day anyway and just embarrass both me and the company. I need to pull it together like I have for the last couple of days just until tomorrow's over.