Hi everyone...
Just thought I'd pop in quickly and let you all know I'm still in the land of the living! Haven't had a minute to post, either here or on FB and Pixie, I've had an e-mail half typed to you for about a week and just haven't had a chance to finish it. Basically, I just haven't had any time at all to myself.... I've been so rubbish with the sickness that my family have been taking it in turns to move in with us mid-week, or sometimes I move in with them. It's the only way poor LO gets looked after properly cause I'm just useless. He's so good though. It's just if he decides he needs to poop and I've not managed breakfast yet, I'm stuffed! Still. 11wks today so fingers crossed things'll start to ease up soon. I've lost 9lbs in the last 2wks! 
Though my belly's HUGE! I've been in maternity clothes for about two weeks. So far have managed to avoid people for the most part (not too hard, having moved to a new area and spending most of my time in the bathroom!) so I haven't been outed yet, but I don't know how we're going to manage LO's first birthday, a week today (eek!) I really do look very pregnant now and whereas the birthday's on Mon, my scan's not till Tues... Oh well. Can't be helped.
Like I say, LO's birthday's a week today - I can't believe how fast that crept up on us, yet it seems like we've never been without him too. Dunno what we're doing yet... Think it's either going to be a house full of people (hard work at the best of times and then there's how to hide my bump...) or just a quiet day for the three of us, which is a bit pants. Ideally, I'd have my family there (they know about pregnancy, see LO several times a week and will help out, unlike DH's, who've never been to visit this house (so there'll be a tour, meaning I have to have upstairs cleans and tidy too), they don't see LO often at all (last time any of them saw him was start of July at a wedding) and they don't know about the pregnancy (because MIL, who's a nice wee woman, can't keep a secret to save her life!) Also, my family will help themselves to a drink or whatever, whereas I'd have to wait on DH's. HOWEVER. I do know it's totally unfair to exclude them (though they've excluded themselves all year) so it will have to be all or nothing... Meanwhile I'm having to weigh up whether I want to have everyone here (can I cope with that?!) or whether to make poor LO's birthday a dull, quiet day where he doesn't get to see his Gran, Grandad, aunt and uncle, who he adores and who adore him. They'll do whatever I want and are actually (typically selflessly) trying to encourage me to keep it all low-key, though I know they'd love to see him on his birthday... But I really don't know if I can deal with cleaning the house top to bottom, laying on food and drinks, sitting on the floor cause there aren't enough seats (pelvis is also playing up again), there's the hassle of LO's diet and the fact that he can't have a proper birthday cake, and the thought of what I make for him being judged, the carrying out his blood test at the right time, getting his medication into him, he's still breastfeeding... And a big (selfish) part of me is thinking this is my boy, it's a year since I gave birth to him, and I want to enjoy it with him, instead of running round after people (relatives, I know!) who haven't even bothered their backsides to see him more than three times all year (once at the hospital, once after and once at a family wedding). Ugh, I dunno. Then what if they want coffee? Mum had a cup in front of me the other day and the second I smelled it I had to run and be sick...
What a whinger! And what a long post (wasn't meant to be - sorry!) It's probably all hormones and worrying needlessly. But it felt good to have a rant anyway! Thank you! :-P
Anyway, hope you're all well. I'll try and get on and post properly (not all me, me me) soon. (And Pixie - I WILL finish that e-mail! 
) x