37wks. Last week at work. babe still feels back to back. i'm exhausted but always find the strength to plod along and pretty much do everything 
. Half my personality and half DH sometimes not engaging the brain i know he has and just helping without being asked!
Although for the last two nights, last night being the worst, Alyssa has turned her good bedtime routine and sleeping all night in a bed to "no I will not go to bed and only want mummy"
. Accompanied by high pitch screaming. At first I thought it was because I had stupidly let her have a daytime nap mid afternoon but now I think more going on. Got no clue what.
Yesterday I felt awful all day but still managed to look after both kids and go out shopping, cook a fab tea for DH, do the lunches and do all the ironing (ironing between DD screaming at bedtime). I was already exhausted but then on the eve Alyssa was kicking off, only wanted me and DH comments annoying me. Even after I finally tried the old trick of "take her for a car journey" gone 9.30pm and she did fall asleep as I put her in her bed she woke up and continued all the s**t
! I ended up watching barney in my bed with her cuddling. I kept nodding off for 5mins to be woken by her kissing me
. Finally at 11pm when Barney went off, I nodded and missed our "i love you" song and cuddle, she went to bed. She then woke after 6 for a drink with DH and we all managed to stop in bed until gone 8am.
All I kept saying to myself last night was "please baby dont try to come out tonight". I honestly could not have dealt if he had.
Feel horrible and not in a good concentrating state for work at mo. Roll on Thurs. Although more rest at work than home.
Should mention DS who between his occassional mood swings saying "he isnt happy anymore and doesnt like anybody" is a super star and more grown up everyday. He was really exciting this morning going to his "holiday club" while mummy at work. Bless.
Please let tonight be a good one.