Oh, hello! Fine today, well maybe a bit early to say....Yesterday I shouted all day at ds, he so irritated me!!!!! And then I felt rubbish because he is a pretty good boy, entertains himself lots, good natured, lovely with dd, etc, but yesterday I just wanted to be alone and took it out on him. Poor boy. I sometimes feel that I do not manage to give proper attention to either of the kids, that I spend my time taking care of hteir physical needs, take care of hte house, etc, but I do not manage to do what I love doing and I used to do with ds when he was an only: long sessions chatting, having baths, cuddles, playing, ohhhhhhhhh, dd is lucky if she gets a meal on her high chair! I like their company but it is a drudgery having chores and cleaninng blah, blah.
Anyway today I do not want to feel overwhelmed so I am taking them to the paddling pool close by. And I am now enjoying a coffee alone, dd back in her cot for a little play, ds told to stay in his room till I am ready...ohhhh time alone, time alone.
Actually dd is screaming now!