Morning all, first day of the school hols and Im up at 5am! Shabster are you sure you are away as you seem to be here alot Hate to say it HM but its been hot hot here for weeks, thanks for the link btw, when I phoned them the had nothing for that park! Still hopeful or Ill scream..........
Had a sad sad day yesterday, kids leaving service ar school, I had this hard lump in my throat all day, it feels like a bereavement, I so didnt want it to end. Cannot believe where the last 7 years have gone to. Everyone thinks I am upset because I am worried about them coping, its not that at all. Its the fact that I am scared. Scared of them fast approaching their teens, having 3 xs 14/15 yr olds to watch as Matthew died at that age.Please God it never happens again, but as we never will have a medical explanation only that it was a sudden arythmia, I am scared. Not knowing how things will go with Harry, its a stage 4 cancer, likely to return, I am scared. I know in my heart I should live for now, we none of us know what lies ahead, I just want them to grow up and do all the things Matthew never got to do. I am going to miss the company of the school, everyone knows you, it wont be like that at the new one, too big and I shant even go up there as they will be walking on their own, its only 5/6 mins from the house. Anyway the good news is the car is finally all fixed, another £700 yesterday, so now we can escape, if we can find somewhere!! Back later............no doubt! x