I think Tom is wise, from what I can see these kids end up in so much debt to go to uni, unless of course you have wealthy parents. Its never too soon to start earning some money, my niece walked out of school when she was 18, she could easily have gone to uni but she wanted to earn some money. She got a job at Social Security in Dover, promotion followed promotion, by the age of 23 she was earning over £20,000, she got her foot on the property ladder, she has no regrets.
Feels strange, my head is full of thoughts of tonight 20 years ago. A normal, happy night.........wed had a bbq, during the day we had left Matthew here with his friend as we went to Harrys aunts funeral. Its unreal, its like another time another place, the last day of my "first" life, a happy childhood, the excitement of being young and free in the 70s, getting married, having my first child, happy days loving him........then it all ended. And I still don`t know why. Your head feels like a video recorder, its all their on tape, you can skip things when you want to, fast forward yourself when the painful memories get too much. You only have left your memories, they sometimes make you smile, sometimes make you cry. I rarely cry now, crying used to exhaust me, make my eyes puffy, my face blotchy, I would look at myself in the mirror and say "stop it, he never saw you looking like that". Then on goes the make up, brush my hair, step outside and no one can tell the difference. And that I what I will do tomorrow.