Emmsys angels xxx support for mummies of lost angels part 3 xxxxx

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so here we are on part three, let this one be fun of happy news.....

Hi Curlywurlee! ((waves))

Vjay, your kind words have really lifted my spirits. Feel at the moment as if I'll never write a word again because I'm such a worried wreck - totally taken over by biology. Bleugh. Have been reading other people's books, though, and trying to escape that way... (while AVOIDING the pg handbooks - they just depress me!) Hope you are doing okay, thinking of you.

Hi vm, I've not looked at a single pg book this time, they will stay locked away for now. I've been having mild cramping today, but I think that's normal, I am resting just incase. As for your book, I keep going to bed early, DH thinks it's because I'm extra tired, but it's really to slope off and read your book....bring on the next one!
I am so worried too, but what can we do....nothing.
All my course books arrived today, so I will be getting on with that in the New Year, should help take my mind off everything.
Have you been to the doctors yet?

Hello to curly, thinking of you blue xx
and everyone else, barbie mm sabs in India, the lucky thing...

VJay, good to see you here and on the other thread! Glad to hear you're resting - just take it easy. Have just frightened myself by visiting a pg site on the net and immediately developing all sorts of negative symptoms described there so must definitely steer cleer of the damned pg advice sites/books!
I have the GP this afternoon. I will try not to bawl all over her, or call her 'Mummy' or ask her to take me home with her as an in-patient.
Your sweet words about the book have really cheered me up. It's incredibly kind of you to think of saying that, in spite of your worries. You may even have inspired me to look at the US proofs this afternoon, something I've been putting off... the hardest aspect of all of this is continuing as normal. So thank you. x What are you studying, by the way? I remember you telling us way back but my mind is like a sieve right now! I think it was something scientific or in IT? Am I right?
Just hang in there...

Hi everyone,

Been busy but still having a quick lurk now and then, hope you all had a lovely Christmas. Ours was very good and involving a little too much alcohol, the positives of tntc for the meantime.

Had to post after reading both vm and vjay posts really feeling for you both atm, the mind and body are an awful combination to play tricks on you. It is bad enough in any pregnancy but after mc it can take over. Being there before the only advice I can give is try not to let it take over, stay busy and count the days till your scan, easier said than done I know. Have you both booked early scans yet? It is so difficult and I wish I could just say don't worry and it will be fine but the words wouldn't help but do remember there is NO* reason this pregnancy will end in anything other than a healthy gorgeous baby at the end so hang on to that thought. If it helps remember that we will all need to go thru these feelings before we will get our little ones at the end you are just getting them out of the way before the rest of us. 2009 is going to be a good year for us all. Feel free to rant away and I will check in a bit more often to see how you are both doing. Sending massive hugs both your ways.

Big waves to everyone else mmxxx

mm, thanks for always being there; I was hoping you'd post! Your sane and sensible words mean a great deal and are a real comfort. I will keep trying to remember that this is a separate pg to the last one. I have an early scan booked for 10 January (when I should be just over 7 weeks). My booking appointment with the GP is the week after that - saw her this afternoon to let her know that I'm pg and worried but of course there wasn't much she could say beyond 'just take one day at a time'. I'm really glad you had a great Christmas - the thought of someone else at least making the most of it and enjoying the booze is cheering! How are you otherwise? x

vm I'm studying maths at the moment.
Thanks mm, you have cheered me up. I have been having a lot of cramping today, so have been worrying loads, but like you say it's all part of the journey...

vm and vjay no need for thanks, you have been there for me in the past and it's nice to be able to help in return anyway I promised vm I would be here after she got a BFP and here I will be staying for as long as you need and beyond.................felt like buzzlightyear for a moment there, too many kids movies over the holidays I think. Vjay I was told your muscles stretching is exactly like bad cramps, they say it is much worse after a first pregnancy, something like your muscles already know what to do.... so try not to worry too much. Just think in a few months you can talk me thru this part again when you are both comparing bumps!!!! Will be back tomorrow to see how you lovely ladies are doing.

hello
remember me????
sorry i havent been around, so busy with chritsmas, moving and sadly a friend died before christmas so had to leave at short notice and have been living between parent houses over the festive period, but now im home and have a lot of catching up to do, i wont leave it so long next time! in a nutshell can anyone tell me what i have missed, i have the carpet fitters here over the next few days and then the removal men so i dont know what ill have the time to catch up but i wanted to say i have missed you all and look forward to talking again soon xxxx

Happy new year to you all, lets make it our year xxx

BARBIE good to see you back hun, I was so sorry to hear about your friend, this time of year seems to make it worse. The big news is both vm and vjay getting BFP I am so excited for both of them.
Only going to focus on the positives for now but if you read back you will see that blue had sad news, been thinking about her over Christmas.

NYE or hogmanay as we call it up here and as usual I am getting all nostalgic, happens every year but as you can imagine there is a lot more going on in my head this time. I don't know if it is just me but new year is always a milestone for me, I guess it's the closure and new beginnings. Last year we had just had our first mc before Christmas so 2008 was full of hopes unfortunately it didn't quite work out quite as we hoped. If I am honest I will be glad to see the back of 2008 but at the same time a little scared what 2009 has in store.

Oh ignore me I am always the same at this time of year like barbie says lets make 2009 our year!!!!! Will be quietly raising a glass for us all tonight you can guess what the toast will be.............

Happy hogmany and New Year, I will be raising a glass of OJ for us all.

Great to see you back barbie and so sorry about your friend. You are having such a hectic time at the moment.

It has been as low as -7 up here, and then my brand new boiler packed up . The plumber has fixed it now, bless him, so am about to take a nice relaxing bath....yes I'm still not dressed!to be honest I'm beginning to think 'what's the point', I'm not going out tonight.

Here's to a great 2009

Happy Hogmanay!

Can I say once again that your kind thoughts and wishes have lovely.

We had a lovely Christmas with DS, I wasn't going to let my heartache ruin everything (Scottish relisiance at work!) and it didn't. We had a lovely time and DS was just a joy to be with.

We're having a low key New Year as I'm still waitng for everything to pass. Have been bleeding for couple of days and have bag packed in case we have to do a mignight flit to hospital. If nothing happens I'm getting my ERPC on Monday and can start to heal from there.

After much talking and walking with DH and DS I'm feeling very positive and surprisingly not as upset as I was last time. DH and me have decided to take three months off from ttc and just going to enjoy each other and DS. Its our 5th wedding anniversay in April and we're going to go away for a dirty weekend (to Gleneagles no less) and take things from there...

I've also got a new project to get my teeth stuck into at work and have treated myself to a new swanky diary/organiser - sad I know but these things always cheer me up!

Anyway enough about me (), I just want to send all my best wishes and sticky thoughts to VillageMum and Vjay. I read on another thread that putting a nutmeg under your pillow every night protects the baby.. Old wives tale but I'll be using one next time! One day at a time xx

To everyone else MM, Mollie, Jools, Barbie, Sabs, Jonesey, Scamper, thanks for being a great bunch and lets make 2009 our year!

I'm going to concentrate on RL for a while but will still be lurking and sending positive vibes oh and I've dusted down my old profile page so you can put a face to my name - ha ha!

lots of love and Happy New Year!

Blue xx

Just a quickie to say Happy New Year to you all and wishing you all many many BFP's

Thank you for all the support and laughter this thread has given me over the last few months.

Blue So lovely to hear you sounding so positive, hope you're not away from us for too long, and when you return it's with happy news

MM & Barbie Lovely to see you guys again
VM Hope everything is OK with you?

Mollie waves to everyone else and raises a glass of bubbly

No time to catch up propely but just wanted to wish everyone a happy new year. Had a bad day yesterday, had to go to a funeral and it brought it all back to the surface again, was a pretty miserable day. OK today, just a bit drained. Hope everyone had a good christmas. Sorry aboyt BFN JJ and glad you're resting VJ, cramping is normal in early stages. Have a lovely evening everyone

Just to wish everyone a very merry Xmas and a happy new year, may this be our year...

Blue, hope you're feeling better, wishing you all the best. Have you passed everything yet?

Just wondering while I'm on, has anyone read any good books about miscarriage? more about how to cope and how to prepare yourself mentally about trying again? x

Hi ginger and Lippy - here's to a positive 2009! Hope your feelng a little brighter today ginger x

I can officially begin to heal as had an emergency ERPC yesterday after increased bleeding on Hogmanay saw me admitted. (Was lying in my hospital bed listening to the Stirling Castle fireworks - very surreal).

Had the top consultant working on me and he was fantastic. We had a long talk about it all and I have an appointment with him in 6 weeks to start investigations which I am v. pleased about as you normally have to wait until you have suffered 3 mcs before they take you on. I think the pitiful sight of me in my hospital goonie bawling my eyes out may have done the trick...

Anyway, deep breath, one step at a time and onwards and upwards xx

Meant to say Lippy re: good books. Everyone recommended Dr Lesley Regan's book 'Miscarriage - what every woman should know' to me and it was very good. Try googling too as there are lots of support sites on www about moving on and preparing for future pg.

mm (or should that be Buzz Lightyear? ) thanks for being there, I really appreciate it!! I feel just as you do about New Year - such a mixed bag of emotions. But I'm glad on the whole that this is a fresh start. Felt that 2008 slipped away from me rather and want to make a better go of 2009. I guess you will be ttc again next month or not too long after? Are you ok about it?

barbie, lovely to hear from you, I've been missing you and wondering how you've been getting on with all your plans for the move.

blue, that's such good news about the consultant and the follow-up you'll be getting. I'm so glad the worst is over for you now. I had a peek at your photos and I must just say that both ds and mum are stunning! (Are you SURE you aren't really a model, not an NHS project manager?!) I so hope this will be your year and that you will be back on here soon with another lo on the way. In fact I'm sure you soon will be!

ginger, hope you are feeling OK today...

Lippy, just want to second what blue said about Lesley Regan's book - I also read it; it's very sane and gave me some much-needed hope when I was feeling very down.

Mollie, hello! I'm feeling sick and worried at the same time - weirdly reassured to be so full of hormones, but still not able to relax and enjoy this pg. Early scan on 10 January and I'm trying not to think beyond that... How are you doing?

((waves)) to everyone!

happy new year ladies, rl reeled me back a few months ago and then 2 days before Christmas that little blue line appeared and I had to give my bottle of baileys away I took 18 months to concieve last time, was'nt even thinking had given up thinking/ cant think! we were going back for all our test results on the 12 Jan and the plan - yes I did have one - was to wait for those and now I am soooooo scared. keep trying to say 4th time lucky, cant miscarry again and I am now 6 weeks which for me is the hanging in the balance time. Waffled on about me and not said hello to everyone and probably should be on another thread? direct me someone I am a bundle of scared hormones

oh mermaid that is SUCH brilliant news! Please come and join the hormonal soup in the 'gusset-checking pregnancy after mc' thread in the pg section - can't miss it... At just over 6 weeks I am a bundle of nerves too so will be right there! x

a big congratualtions to all of you with bfp!!!! i leave for a few weeks and miss all the great news!
so sorry blue for what you are going through, big hugs to you if you are still around.
Well im sat here with the flu, no time to be ill though as the house still isnt completely decorated and will still arent packed the only good thing is that the company we are moving with insisted on packing everything for us for insurance reasons so all i have to do is to sort things out.....we are moving about the 14th so will keep you all posted.
Happy new year by the way! xxx

Happy New Year to you too Barbie

You sound very busy and very happy.

I'm doing more lurking than posting these days - getting pretty depressed as DP has issues TTC and my cycle is still all over the place. It is feeling like I will never be a mum at the moment and life without a child seems very long, bleak and meaningless

Just trying to keep myself busy, lose weight and stay outwardly happy so I can seduce DP at the right time !

hey jools....sorry you seem sad? my cycle is still non existant too so ttc is hopeless at the moment. Im here to hold your hand until its our time, and remember it will be our time soon xxxx

Hello everyone. I'm back in London and looking forward to catching up with you all. Before I do I just wanted to say to Jools, please don't give up hope. It will happen. All the while, you are becoming stronger (and slimmer ). I know you are keeping a brave face with DP - but make sure you come on here and rant to let off steam if you need to. I think we're both at a similar stage but I've decided that even if we get the go-ahead from the consultant, I'm going to hold off actively trying for the next month or so. I'm aiming to finish the house, get fit, get on top of things at work etc. If it happens in the meantime, well.. that would be wonderful, but I feel like I need to concentrate on things that will make me ME again. Of course I change my mind about this every five seconds cos like everyone else, the only thing I really want is to have a little baby.

Anyway I'll scoot off to catch up and talk to you all later.

Thinking of you too Blue. Hope you are doing okay.

Curlywurlee, for what it's worth, making the decision to hold off trying to conceive for a month even when it wasn't medically necessary did me a world of good (it was also very tough at times that month, especially around ov, but in the end I was glad I did it because it gave me some much needed space!) Good luck with your plans!

Jools, your cycle will get back to normal and you will fall pg again; it really will happen... thinking of you.

barbie, hope you feel better soon! x

Happy new year to all you fabulous ladies! Sorry I have been away for so long, I was lurking while in France til DH informed me about the charges for loading up internet pages on my phone...oops!

Blue I was so sorry to hear your news. How are you doing? I am glad that the consultant will be working with you and pray that this is the last lost angel for you, its just too unfair. There is a lot of warmth, strength and humour in your messages here and I hope that will see you through the sad days, as well as all the support the rest of us can give xxx

curly hello my neighbour! I am with you on trying to concentrate on things other than conception in order to stay sane. One of my new years resolutions - remember that I will have a baby one day soon, and try to enjoy life in the mean time

jools hope you are not feeling too down today - ttc also causes issues with my DH, largely due to the pressure I put on him I think, but it is hard not to scream 'they are not delivered by storks you know' in the face of male ambivalence to the whole trying aspect of ttc! Let off as much steam as you need here, and go easy on DP and more importantly on yourself - that's what I'm going to try to do, easier said than done I know....

Vjay villagemum and mermaid all I can say is !! Congratulations to you all. 2009 has started well. Keep us updated!

big hellos to everyone else, I have chores to do but may be back on later xx